ALL POEMS OF MATTEW EDAN OLIVER PALAMA

Poetry Series
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
- poems -
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Matthew Edan Oliver Palma (February 2,1975)
Born in Pateros, Rizal.
Lives in Makati City.
An educator, writer and poet.
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A better way to say...
Looking for a way
For better words to say
Just how much I feel for you
Hope you feel the same way too…
Day after day I leave my past behind
Day after day I face another morn
With the love in you I find
With the love to me you’ve sworn
Each night I thank the stars above
The lights of heaven that truly shine
On the path of those who search for love
And led you to these arms of mine
With you here with me I am complete
Forever by my side the words you speak
No more dark fears, so long cold feet
I’ve found the one that I truly seek
Searching for words to say
Hope to find a better way
To tell you I love you…
And just how much I feel for you
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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A farewell to my love...
As the distance comes between us
My tears, for me have spoken
As time starts to forget us
I grieve my heart you've broken....
Your promises had faded
My hopes you've put asunder
This love affair has ended
Our dreams returned to sender
Oh, this terrible sadness
It drives me down to madness
The sweetness of your kiss
All those things that I will miss
Our nows and our forever...
Your pledge to leave me never
But suddenly you're gone
Leaving me lost and with no one
Our love affair has ended
My fears glow crystal clear
It tears all of the things WE mended
All the things that I hold dear
As the distance grow between us
This heart ache runs more deep
So that I won't think about us...
I'll just cry myself to sleep...
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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A fool to say goodbye....
I was a fool to say goodbye….
A fool to say and live a lie…
When all the world
For me is you…
The one who makes my grey skies blue…
Goodbye... goodbye… it’ s just a lie...
For deep inside... I’ m gonna die…
I cannot even say goodnight….
This feeling strong I cannot fight…
Forget goodbye and let things flow…
My foolish mouth should say hello...
My beating heart will stay with you...
My mind, in love, calls only you…
So promise me that you will stay...
That you won’t go so far away...
I promise you I’ll wait, I’ll pray...
If not each hour, day after day...
It will be hard, I know but hey...
Its part of loving you all the way…
My smiles may fade, my skies be shade…
But that is nothing you can’t aid…
Say goodbye when I can’t even say goodnight...
Or walk away when I can barely take one plight...
You are my song... my poem... my light...
The one that matters through this life…
Remember this and keep in heart...
My lips may say a thousand ‘ bye’ s…
My love with you I’ ll never part…
Don’ t ask me how...
Don’ t ask me why…
For without you…
I’ d rather die…
Say goodbye when I can barely say goodnight...
O please forgive my foolish heart….
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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a song for Harold...
Come and rest on my peaceful breast…
You who are alone…
Come and taste my intoxicating wine…
And drown into my soul…
Look into my eyes and be tempted with delight
Come on and dry your eyes
Ride onto my back
Let’ s shoot arrows in the skies
Just let our heartbeats rise
Forget about the truth, the sorrows and the lies
Enjoy the darkness in the light
Come now, be bright
Be witty and be wise
It is a game of lies…
I’ ll dare you ‘ til the end
Then leave you when you’ re down
Don’ t wear that foolish frown..
It’ s me.. only me
Marching in the rain
Strumming all your pain
My words, with spears are but the same
A masquerading clown
My heart a golden crown
The truth, a mask
Adorned upon my charms…
Come on, let’ s play
Let’ s sever all the pain
And dance upon the rain..
And when you’ ve drowned
In an intoxicating pain
Rest upon my arms
Until I vanish in the haze… .
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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A Tear For You
my heart you broke...
my soul you devoured...
in the darkness of your shadow
you chained my mind doomed to follow...
and alas when the words came
they all ended up too shallow...
and what I've left for you is but a tear
too painful to let flow...
but I love you...
but I care for you...
but I adore you...
so I'd shed this tear for you
a tear for you to know I love you...
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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All This Time
And you taught me how to love
Yes you showed me how to care
Spelled forever with your touch
Yes you took care of my heart…
But all this time I was looking
All this time I was searching
All this time I kept on waiting….
Waiting for that someone…
Someone who’ll never come….
Girl, I missed your tender gaze
And your understanding smile
Every time I played the fool
You were there to keep things cool
And all this time I was looking
All this time I was hoping
Not knowing I was straying..
Straying from that someone..
Someone who’s always cared
Now you teach me how to cry
Now you’re bringing me much pain
Said that I can go on wasting…
That you’re done and through with waiting
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And all this time you too are waiting…
All this time, praying and hoping…
That all this time I somehow see
Feel the love you have for me
But as long as you are leaving
I know that it’s too late for me
So I’ll just keep on my searching
For a love that all this time’s with me…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Alone...
Talking to myself
Laugh at my mistakes
Try not to cry out loud
Show the world I am alright
Alone again since you have gone
I miss this feeling of being 'one' 
But I curse myself from 12 'till 1..
And everytime I'll need someone
Eating by myself
I watch this grand parade
Try not to feel so sad
Think everything isn't so bad
But alone again for you have gone
Didn't you know you're my only one?
Why go and take away my sun?
Make me long for you when I need someone
Feeling so alone
Knowing its all wrong
Try hard to keep my head
Go on through life and move ahead
Yet alone again, like yesterday
I do not hope to cross your way
'though deep within I hope and pray
That you'll come back to me someday..
matthewedanolivernpalma- >>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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an Ode tO hEarT...
And love…..
Look what you've done
Now I’ m but one
Where has she gone?
Why am I waiting?
Now hope…
Cruel ‘ 'though kind
What I have in my hand
A grip in the sand
Why am I crying?
Oh heart…
Please be my friend
Let this all end
Do try and mend
Stop me from breaking
So mind…
Learn to let go
Go fight the flow
Let my eyes glow
Help me start living….
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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And when She cries...
Like the rain from the skies
Her tears start to fall
As it wells around her eyes
I can hear her silent call
And when she cries the leaving's over
I'’ ll take her to my arms and leave her never
Or at least until her tears subside
I'’ ll do my best to bid these feelings hide
As the lightning cuts the skies
My tears start to fall
As the thunder echoes loud
I recall our promised words
For when she cries my leaving’ 's over
I’ 'll promise once again to leave her never
I'’ ll stay until her fears subside
And hide my own down deep inside
With weary arms I unpack my bag
Remembering each and every hug
Recalling the feelings that I once had
How this foolish parting makes it all bad
‘ 'Cause when she cries my strength goes fading
It makes me think twice about my leaving
For when she cries my heart goes melting
Reminds me just how much she needs my loving
So when she cries my leaving'’ s over
I’ 'll hold her in my arms and leave her never
Stay right by her side until forever
‘ 'Cause every time she'’ d cry my leaving'’ s over
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Anger
Blank stares
Hearts beware
Emotions are shared
Pain that we wear
… how long can we stand
how strong can we get
the sand in my hand
is much heavier when wet
Sharp words
Mouth of lords
A dagger and a sword
A lifetime of discord
… how far can we go
how clear can we see
the clouds of doubt grow
it drowns us to the sea
Forgotten smiles
Bittered hello…
A mirror of lies
Reflect all but glow
… how deaf can we be
… how numb can one be
… 'neath shadows of a tree
… we choose not to see
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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As you walk pass
My heart throbs
as you walk pass
Hoping for a glance
A moment in a chance
… but you never looked my way
my soul cries out
as you walk pass
hoping you would hear
know that I am near
… but you never turned my way
my mind grows numb
as you walk pass
why are you so cold?
Why can’ t I be bold?
Have all my words been taken?
Speak what'’ s in your mind
Spill what’ 's in your heart
And let our souls be mended
For I cannot bear the pain
This sorrow in the rain
Or let love die in silence
I looked at you
As you walked pass
Hoping you would know
Hoping you would feel
But still…..
You kept your silence.
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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because You love Me...
If the sun shines not
If the rain falls naught
I shall not fear
I'’ ll stay put here
‘ 'Though shadows grow dimmer
And the nights grew colder
I will not shiver
Nor will I quiver
For I know that you love me
And I know that you care
For even sorrow may dare
And hideous death may stare
It shall threaten me not
It will quiver me not
Because you love me….
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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because You're mine
nothing else matters because I know you’re mine
no one else captures this picky love of mine…
the sun may fail to shine, stay hiding behind the clouds
my smile shall never wither because I know you’re mine…
the rain could keep on pouring, the shadows may grow long
my spirit can’t be dampened simply ‘cause I know you’re mine
the coffee can go cold, my toast be burned and charred
because you’re mine, none of these matter, I won’t give it no mind
no fear can ever frighten, no darkness can survive
“because you’re mine” is enough to brighten a sullen, pallid sky
the days can go all wrong, be some hurdle to reckon
my strength can never falter simply ‘cause I know you’re mine
tomorrow can go wandering, and be late for a day or two
I wouldn’t care to wonder for I know I do have you
nothing else matters because I know you’re mine
no one else captures this picky love of mine…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Bianca
Looking through your eyes I see
A magical world for you and me
Holding your hand I seem to feel
The warmth of the sun
The cool breath of chill
And what have I done to fairly deserve
Such beauty…
Such love …
That you bring my way… .
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Birds fly with wind 'neath their wings...
Open your eyes
And see through the lies
Look into the mirror
And vanish your sighs
The world turns anew
With every new day
A love can be true
So warm as it may…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Blindness & Confusion
Is anything ever clear?
Was the love you shared unreal?
I am confused until now
I thought I felt you cared somehow
Was it pretense that was in your eyes?
And your touch nothing but lies?
I wonder if you ever felt
How in your gaze I slowly melt
I try to memorize your face
Fantasize about your taste
I wonder if you ever knew
That my love for you is true
I must’ve been ensorcelled by your charms
A willing prisoner in your arms
Or maybe I just imagined it
Feel everything as I see fit
Slowly I turn in a blind eye
Not minding reason, not minding rhyme
I guess I had wanted it to be real
Did not even bother if things are clear
Confused fondness with true love
Believed that you did care somehow
Blinded by the sparkle in your eyes
Caught up in my own web of lies
matthewedanolivernpalma-à>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Broken
Broken arms
Binded souls
Dangerous charms
Twisted goals
My heart speaks its tears for you
The sadness it bore for love of you
Then suddenly the stillness
The slowly creeping madness
The eerie warmth of darkness
A soul that longeth for death…
Why do you flee with my advance?
Why so afraid to take the chance?
The things you hide…
The curse of each lie…
Your charms that cast the die…
My mind stakes its claim on you
The longing that it holds for only you
Then finally the emptiness
This fast approaching sadness
The inevitable despair
A heart can no more bear …
Fading lives
A fatal blow
Destitute cries
This suffering to know…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Charmed
Ensorcelled and embraced
I'm awed by your sweet grace
In a trance and in pure daze
You bid me so amazed!
Enchanted and bewildered
You to me are sacred
For you are more than kindred
To you my soul surrendered
A prisoner of your charms
I'm here at your command
I long for your sweet arms
A slave of your demand
Ensorcelled and embraced
For just a taste of your sweet grace
Enchanted and bewildered
You to me are sacred!
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Crying Time Again...
And its crying time again....
Now that our story's at its end...
And 'though I loved again in vain...
I know my heart will somehow mend...
But now, it's crying time again...
I can't help feeling the pain...
And 'though I can barely keep me sane...
I must not drown in this dark rain...
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Crying Time...
My eyes start to cry
As I hear you say goodbye
And then I wonder why
We didn’ t even try
And so it’ s crying time
As tears fall out of rhyme
And love acts out in mime
My heart starts to break
As I hear you walk away
And as I lie awake
I pray that you’ 'd be back someday
But now it’ 's crying time
As your arms slip off from mine
And your love’ s no longer mine….
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Darkness
I cover myself in darkness
I clothe myself in sin
With every impure thought
I act out my chilled revenge
Ignoring the light within me
Drowning it in stride
Hoping I could finally quench
This grief that imprisons me
Until I feel I’ve paid my due
For shamefully losing you
Until I think enough is enough
This gloom shall never stop
I cover myself in falsehood
Fool myself and wade in pain
For tomorrow can’t be tomorrow
Until you’re in my arms again..
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Derek
Melting in your eyes
My soul drowns
Believing all the lies
I hid each frown
… then a dagger, a sword…
a spell of danger, a word…
yet still I held on
your image I beckon…
with swelling eyes
my heart mourns
to have you or to hold you
my mind is torn
… then the truth, a pain
a pinch of anger, then more pain
yet still I loved you…
how much I love you….
With tired eyes
My mind aches
For with each poignant whys
My heart awakes
… and I cower
… and I fear…
the feel of helplessness
… a tear…
For ‘ 'though this can never be…
I can’ t deny me what I feel….
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Don't Hurt Me With Goodbye....
A broken heart
An empty part
The pain of loving
Pale shades of art
The hope in dreaming
Bright hues to start
Don’ 't hurt me with goodbye
Try to make up a reason why
Why you are leaving me today
Why how long is not for you to say
Don't hurt me with goodbye
Just go and feed me with a lie
A lie that I will best believe
One that will spare me from my grief
One that will give reason for me to live
Don't hurt me with goodbye
For without you I'd rather die
Just go on and make up some sweet lie
Just please don'’ t hurt me with goodbye… ..
Inside out I turn
Still easily I get burned
I can’ 't unload the burden
Of them hearts with jealousy sweeten
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Don't you know?
Don't you know it's me you're hurting
Everytime you say he's good for nothing
Don't you know he's my reason for living
The reason why I still am breathing
Why can't you let me be deciding
I'm the one whose heart is aching
Everytime he goes around playing
Let me decide to hold up or go breaking
Don't you know it's me you're attacking
Each and every time you question his feelings
Don't you know that with him I have something
The one thing that I'm wanting and needing
Why can't you just be approving
Be glad for my heart that is happ'ly rejoicing
Believe in the truth of the joy you are seeing
Respect this decision that I am now making
Don't you know he's my reason for breathing
So don't you dare say that he's good for nothing
Don't you realize he's my reason for loving?
The why and wherefore I am again living!
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Don't...
Don't say you love me
I might get drowned...
Don't say you care
I'll want you around...
Don't walk too close
Don't breathe my air
For I might get lost
Go fading in your sight
Don't pledge your love
Don't promise loyalty
I might believe it
I might accept it
Don't hold my hand
I might just tremble
Don't reach my mind
I might just give in...
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Dream of You...
And I dream of you ‘til morning breaks
Until the sleeping sun awakes
As dew drops clothe the leaves refreshed
I think of you and the love we made
Still I dream of you ‘til now
It has been years since you broke your vow
As tears fall down my tired eyes
I still can help but question why
And I dream of you as evening comes
Still imagining you’re in my arms
‘though I realize you’re far too gone
That our time is over and done
And ‘though I dream of you with every sigh
I keep in mind that bitter goodbye
That moment when my heart you broke
With every painful word you spoke
‘though I still dream of you ‘til morning breaks
‘though I still feel this deep heartache
I’ve let you go for my heart’s sake
And just dream of you and the love we had.
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matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Drown Me
drown me in the night with its loneliness and solitude...
you never cared so much for me anyway...
drown me in the day with its lies and deceit...
you'll never care to love me anyway...
drown me here...
drown me now...
I don't care how you do it...
just drown me...
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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dumBfounDed...
I close my eyes and turned my gaze
The way you touch my hand’s surreal
I feel my heart go skip a beat
With every sweet word that you speak
Dumbfounded and so weak
My heart’s been caught and tamed so quick
Dumbfounded and amazed
I’m so smitten by your charming ways
I touch your hair and meet your gaze
I’m brought to heaven by your face
With such soft skin beneath that lace
I am a prisoner of your grace
Dumbfounded and so charmed
I’m so comforted by your arms
Dumbfounded and bewitched
My soul’s been pledged for you to bid
With only you inside my mind
My thoughts can never be so blind
The way you make it simply real
I behold the magic of your ways
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matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Eloisa
Lost in your eyes
I can'’ t seem to find
The answers to the questions
That my heart just keeps inside
Drowning in your soul
I’ 'd keep resistance to a low
And feel the joy of losing
Immersed entirely in your song
Forever lies in your eyes
With every heartbeat I can’ 't help but sigh
For my heart has overtaken me
With all the feelings you awake in me
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Enamored
Enthralled with your charms
I’m enamored to your love
Endeared to your arms
I’m enamored by your love
Deep within a spell binds me
Right through my soul your smile beheld me
I’m not struggling to break free
For I like just what I see
Feel the depth of your love that binds me
So enamored I’m enthralled by you
So enamored I’m endeared to you
So enamored, So in love with you…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Fading
Fading with the sunset
Vanishing in haste
Locked up in this mind set
My feelings go to waste
I can'’ t believe that you are gone
That now I am alone
The promises you made to me
The reasons I held on
But now faced with this reality
I figured I was wrong
To love you as I did
More than I ever should
Rising with the twilight
Creeping in the dark
Wishing for what might have been
I’ m left without a spark…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Falling In Love...
I never really fully realized that I have fallen in love with you until now…. not until it
seems that I know almost everything about you… your favorite color… how you like
your food served… how you nibble at it before you chew it and eventually swallow it…
how you play with the salad with your fork… how you would secretly smile when it
seems I get frustrated… what you do before you sleep and before you actually get out
of bed in the morning… your favorite expressions… gel… clothes brand… shoe brand…,
it seems I have had you mapped out from the very mundane things about you to the
last minute detail of your idiosyncrasies…that inspire of this fact… I still find you
extremely interesting and enigmatic…. that I still feel and see each moment with you
as something magical and captivating… ensorcelling, spellbinding... I can’t believe that
I would know a humongously gargantuan amount of information about you in so short
a time… my academic subjects, if they can, would surely plot against me and plan my
annihilation because of spite and jealousy…for my knowledge of them and fondness to
them can and will never rival the careful attention and dedication I gave to you… my
family would surely curse us for coming only second best to you….and my dog has
been glaring at you and waiting for a chance to even scratch your silky smooth skin to
avenge his sudden trip to oblivion because of you… You… and your world… are mine
now… the ones you love I now love…. Your important things are my important things…
you r dreams now I share… your fears now I fight… your tears… I will share….It is like I
was never without you… nor will I ever be… without you….Its like my world and your
world never existed….. only OUR world ever did….
I never really truly realized that I have fallen in love with you until now…. now that I
wanted so much to share my world with you…. how excited I am to show you who I
am…. inside…. flaws and all… share my joy and beam proudly about you to my
friends…. introduce you to them….show you how the luckiest person in the world feels…
how tall I feel because of you… and never be anymore transparent to anyone but you…
I do love you…. from my heart of hearts…. I really do love you…. and I will always
love…. I have never really thought about all of this until now…. now that I know that I
have fallen in love with you….
meonp
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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fArewell
Horizons end as sea beds bend…
The sea breeze fades as seagulls wade…
An empty boat…
A shadow to loathe…
The depth of sea
A barren tree…
As earth and sky appear to meet…
And end…
… Lonely, lost, afraid and hurt…
….my spirit’s flesh sustains the burn…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Fate...
haven't we met? were the first words you said
That I look so familiar to you's what you claim
But I've never seen you and we certainly haven't met
So you begged me to indulge you to spare you from shame
Your pick up line was so overrated
You certainly are not whom I really wanted
But fate sometimes really is twisted
For you never gave up and downright insisted
You say I'm the one you longed for and waited
But for me you're the one I hate to have needed
Now fate's design led us to each other
And bound our eyes to notice no other
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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For Cory...
You stood life's test,
You did your best...
Now laid to rest,
You still flame our zest! :)
Prouder to be a Fiipino...
Again, Peace and all good, Tita Cory! ;)
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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For Derek
you came into my life
and took away the strife
you opened up my eyes
became the truth behind the lies
you are my life
you are my light
the one that guides me through the night
you are my all
you are my song
the voice that holds me to be strong…
you came into my life
you took away the strife
yet now you say goodbye
and leave me out to cry… ..
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Forever...
An eternity
A moment in time
This serenity
All my moments in rhyme
When we are together
It seems like forever
Everytime you are with me
Is a promise of love to me
As this feeling grows everyday
You’ re drawn forever in my heart
As you love me in every way
I know we’ 'll never be apart
Sent to me from up above
To teach me about love
The one I'’ ve waited for forever
Stands beside me for now and ever
An eternity
All our moments in time
Love’ 's serenity
Knowing that you are mine
matthewedanolivernpalm->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Gerwinne
Blue skies
No more showers
Fading sadness…
Touch me with the warmth of your embrace
Sunshine
No more darkness
Only gladness…
Fill my world with joy in your love
Darling you…
Gave me sunshine through the rain
Help me through the darkest night
And took away my pain
You shared your life
And you sheltered me from harm
When you touched my life
I saw the light
And you smiled…
As you said hello!
And you held my hand so tight
Now I’ 've found you…
I’ 'll never let you part….
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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Giving in...
To stand my ground
Or to yield to your charms
This question baffles
Leaves my logic quite ruffled....
How can you stand there and smile
Wear the cutest face in around a mile
While I summon all my energy
To resist the feelings you awake in me
How can you speak with a straight face
Telling me to run this race
When all I see are my fears going real
A failure for us, anyway we deal
How can you say things will turn out okay
That they will look up really soon, one day
When you don't understand how this love can't be
When you don't comprehend what you ask of me
And how can I let you charm your way in me
Why did I ever let you be
Now, I'm afraid there's no hope for me
For soon surely locked in your arms, I'll be
Like a knife in my heart
It cuts deep down inside
As this illusion starts
I brace for a bumpy ride.....
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
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gLimpSes
You still live within me
I still love you so…
You still haunt my feelings
I still want you so…
I saw you on the street last night
held your shadow in my dreams tonight
your memory calms my silent screams
your voice it haunts my every dream
You still move within me
I still need you so…
You still touch my feelings
I still miss you so…
I heard you call my name
and I answered without shame
I traced the shadow of your face
Then got lost in this love’s maze
You still live within me
How I love you so…
You still touch my feelings
How I miss you so…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
46
Good Night..
You didn’t say good night last night...
You didn’t bid me sweet dreams...
There was no “sleep well and tight” last night…
You didn’t visit me in my dreams…
And the pain breaks with the morning…
As my heart awakes in torment..
For there is this feel of burning..
The feel of heartache and lament…
You didn’t say good night last night…
No, you didn’t bid sweet dreams…
No “sleep well and tight” last night…
You didn’t care visit me in my dreams…
Now the day breaks with my mourning…
As my heart breaks in each moment…
And it never stops its sighing…
For lessons it has never learnt…
There was no “good night” last night…
No sweet words before I sleep…
Now the pain greets with the morning…
And my heart, in silence, weep…
47
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
48
Great Love
Forever’s a dream
Our joy may fade it seems
But if we hold on to our love
Our souls shall never part
For time will pass away
Destiny will have its way
But time stands still for us today
Until forever and a day
And all smiles shall fade away
Our blue skies will turn to grey
But joy bids our hearts to always stay
In love the way we are today…
matthewedanolivernpalma
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
49
Hanap...
Ang mga alaala
Ng pagsuyong kay saya
Ang tamis ng bawat yakap
Na ngayon ay nasaan na?
Ang mga gunita
Ang hatid nitong hapdi
Ano nga ba ang sanhi?
At ako ngayo'y sawi?
Ang ligaya at lungkot
Sa buhay na masalimuot
Sanhi ng tuwa' t kirot
Lahat ikaw ang nagdulot
Ako nga ba' y minahal?
O sadyang ako' y hangal?
Nang ibigin kang tunay
Buhay sa iyo ay ialay
Ako nga ba’y inibig?
O binulag lang ng iyong bibig?
Umasa sa iyong tinig
Pangakong iginuhit sa tubig
Ano nga ba ang dahilan?
At ako ngayon ay luhaan
Hinahanap ang iyong bisig
Malabo man ang iyong pag-ibig…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
50
Hardly...
Can hardly smile…
Can hardly breathe…
Still I wade through this ocean full of tears
Sooner or later
My tears will stop
But nothing can end the fears that I hide
Without you beside me
I won’ 't know what to do
Without you beside me
I’ 'd be forever blue
Can hardly smile
Can hardly breathe
Still wading through the pain that I feel
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
51
HAROLD
I gave him my friendship
I offered him my life...
And like a distant star ship,
Hovered through his darkened skies
It’ s true he made me happy
And I loved him more than much
I did my best and held on
To no more than thin air
I thanked him for the joys
I made him friend and master
I thanked him for the sorrows
I made him friend and teacher
What I received, it never mattered
For he’ 's my friend and all
Neglect me, if he must
Be cruel, he may dare
I said it didn’ 't matter
Even if he didn'’ t care
And through the joys and sorrows
I held on to lost hope
It broke my heart to pieces
My spirit in a loss
And ‘ though it hurt I bid goodbye
Yet deep inside I knew I lied
And I’ ll never know the reason why
I'’ ll love him '‘ till the day I die
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
52
Heart
Be still
Be calm
Don’t you challenge my will
Be strong
Be whole
Don’t you dare to be wrong
Flutter like a butterfly
Every moment she says “hi! ”
Burning like a torch of flame
A wary feeling just the same
For this heart never learns
With all these things that it yearns
Too close that it gets burned
With all the heart aches that it earns
Be still
Be calm
I can’t hold you in my palm
Be strong
Be whole
Don’t make me yet again a fool…
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matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
54
Honesty...
She said she didn’ 't care…
Yet with a cautious stare…
She watched me as I leave…
With eyes wanting to grieve…
I said she is my life…
Yet with a little strife...
I break and cannot hide
The fears, the pain… I keep inside…
We said our words are true
We promised to be true
Yet, both we fight and hide
The truth that lives inside
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
55
How Can I?
How can I live my life without you?
How can I reach for tomorrow?
When you’ 're gone there'’ ll only be sorrow
And in my heart the pain of losing you …
Tell me, what am I to do?
When my whole world is you
Tell me how can I carry on
When the only real thing is you
How can I live this life without you
When I can’ 't forget the sorrow
And the hurt I’ 'll feel until tomorrow
With the love I’ 'll always feel for you
Tell me what’ 's going on
Do tell me what is wrong
Tell me why this love has gone
Why forever’ 's gone too soon.
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
56
How?
How shall I ever understand?
The way I feel when you’ 're at hand…
How can I ever comprehend?
The day I hoped up to the end
Sadly shall I take deceit
Yet gladly I will take defeat
As long as in your arms I’ 'l lie
Even for a million times I’ 'd die
How sweet are the smiles that part my lips
How true the words that cloud my mind
How happy the thoughts I leave behind
How strange the beauty in things I find
How can I share in a dagger'’ s blade?
How shall I keep in silence laid?
How should I love the pain of death?
How could I think of loving death?
Happily will I stay beneath
And joyfully I would bear the heat
As long as you are here with me
A completely understanding soul I’ 'd be
How can my tears be sweetest be?
How can this pain be my endless sea?
How can I ever understand?
Just how I feel when you’ re at hand…..
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
57
I live behind his shadow....
i live behind his shadow
this man who brought you sorrow
the one who wrought the pain
along the heavy pouring rain
I'’ ll live behind his shadow
Perhaps until tomorrow
Until I'’ ve severed all the aches
Until I’ 've taken all the stakes
To undo the hurt he caused
To surpass the joys he brought
To know I’ 'll do it just because
You are the love that my heart sought
Until you’ re free from all the numbness
‘ 'til you believe in love again
I will stand through all this madness
Until I make you love again
When I’ 've undone the hurt he caused
When I’ 've surpassed the joys he brought
When you know I did it just because
You are the love that my heart sought
I’ 'll live behind his shadow
Maybe until tomorrow
After I’ 've severed all the aches
After I’ 've taken all the stakes
I live behind his shadow
This man who brought you sorrow
The one who wrought the pain
Who brought the heavy pouring rain
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
58
I wish it would be easy...
I wish it would be easy
I wish it is a breeze
For me to just let you love me
For me to be at ease
I had been burned and hurt before
I've been through hell and back
I really can't take anymore
Be pushed and pulled off track
I wish I can just let me go
Concede to what I feel
Let all my feelings take its road
Believe that you're for real
But torn and twisted I seem to be
Can't take the chance and risk
Risk to let what could just be
I fear again I'd miss
My heart's still all worn out and scorned
Still picking up the pieces of me
And though I love you more and more
I must start to think of me.....
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
59
I wonder...
I wonder how every day stays so bright
How each and every moment feels so light
I wonder how my everything'’ s just so right
When you wrap me in your arms so tight
You came into my life with the sweetest smile
Made each and every second that we share worth while
You offered me your everything and walked that extra mile
Now you’ 're the only reason that I smile…
And I look at you, sound asleep, here beside me
Spending your forever just right here to love me
Singing all my songs, dreaming all my dreams
Playing such sweet music that drown my screams
And I love you, for everything you are
And I thank you, for everything we are
Knowing that tomorrow is still a brighter day
With all the joy you bring my way
I wonder how my mornings feel so light
How holding you this close to me makes me feel alright
You came into my life with your sweet sweet smile
Made each and every moment that we share worth while
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
60
I...
I saw you in the corner of my eye
Staring at me with a ready smile
I dared not look your way
For I won'’ t know what to say
Should you dare come near me
I would run away… ..
I felt your hand reach out to mine
Touching my skin like a frozen sun
I dared not reach back
Cause you might be too far
Should I reach out to nothing
I'’ d shiver with fear… ..
Hurt was my friend
Pain my companion
Solitude my ally..
And so is isolation
I never knew love
Never felt care
Never glimpsed joy
A stranger to elation… .
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
61
Icon (for Tita Cory 2)
The icons of our youth have one by one passed on...
Yet bravely we must live, continue to move on...
To keep their legacy alive we should ceaselessly dream on...
Hold the future in our hands, claim their victories our own...
My simple salute to the late President Corazon C. Aquino;
for the taste of my first rally, the gift of democracy...
You shall forever be no less than a hero in my eyes!
Peace and all good! :)
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
62
If only...
If only you know how thankful I am when you found me….
If only you know how blessed I felt when I found you…
If only you know…
Maybe you had been kinder…
If only you saw how my life changed…
If only you felt how much I love you…
If only you know…
Maybe you’d understand better…
If only you realized how much you mean to me…
If only you heard my words and listened…
If only you know…
Maybe you’d stay here beside me…
If only you stopped and felt the melody…
If only you tried to understand…
If only you know…
Maybe I’d still be alive…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
63
If you go...
If you go
Then I’ 'll be blue
For you'’ re the only real thing in my life
The only one that’ 's true
When you go
I'’ ll be forever blue
For you’ 're the only reason that I live
The very reason I survive
You give me joy
You give me life
Without you there’ 's no sunshine in my sky
You give me hope
You give me love
Without you there'’ s no moon to light my nights
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
64
If...
If love is foolish enough… .
To think of letting go and holding on fast,
Then man is in…
A position so tough,
A place so rough,
In an impossible task
If what we have… .
We can call love…
What kind of love is it?
If what’ 's between us
Is friendship'’ s call
How had we come,
Got through it all?
And yet we see…
Not eye to eye
We hear the words
But listen not
Our minds apart
Our hearts are one
We’ re in one sea
Two boats apart… .
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
65
iNnOceNt
And I blame the wind for blowing too hard
Making those leaves fall to the ground
And I do blame the rain clouds for the dark skies
Pouring so hard and making it flood
But I can’t blame the wind nor can I, the rain clouds
Definitely not for my broken heart…
How I blame the sun for shining too hot
Scorching and burning my skin too much
How I do blame the seasons for changing too fast
Can’t even have a moment to adapt to the times
But I can’t blame the sun nor can I, the changing seasons
Surely not for my broken heart…
And I should be laughing instead
Not cursing and blaming and falling and grieving
And I should be merrymaking instead
Not sighing and shouting and crying and needing
And I blame the songs for sounding too sad
Making those tears well up in my eyes
And I do blame those poems that talk about love
Reminding me of the times we once had
But I can’t blame the songs nor can I, the poems
Certainly not for my broken heart….
66
How I blame those love stories for being too lame
Filling our minds with ideas of fairy tales
How I do blame those movies of romantic themes
Fooling the hopeless with empty promises
But I can’t blame those love stories nor can I, those movies
Absolutely not for my broken heart…
And I should be happy instead
Not lonely and needy and grumpy and angry
And I should be joyous instead
Not sad and low and depressed and alone
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
67
JayArt
The shadows that you cast…
Memories of our past…
As all these pain go pass
The peace I sought at last…
Now my love for you is unconditional
‘Though what we had is far from magical
And with all the friends around us cynical
Condemn our love affair that ain't traditional
And 'though I hurt
I'll refuse to regret
Nor shall I ever forget
The joy I felt when we met
Now my love for you is transcending
‘Though it seems the sorrow’ s unending
If it's memories of our love it is bringing
I’ 'll embrace the pain that’ s remaining
My love for you shall last
And my pain will come to pass
And I refuse to forget
Nor will I ever regret…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
68
JayPee
You do not know how much this hurts me
To say these things just truly breaks me
But I must say them anyway
To save you from cruel harm’ 's way
It must be painful hearing me say this
Must be annoying to see me patiently take this
But you don’ 't know how much I’ 'm hurting
How much I hate to face our parting
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
69
JonahLee
She had that simple smile
That makes all things worthwhile
She has this cunning grace
That is worthy of all praise….
Her face lights up the skies
Her hair reflects the night
I can only help but sigh
Rejoice in the pretty sight
She moves just like a child
In a wondrous happy light
She makes my heart go wild
A feeling I can’ 't fight
Now I’ 'm her Romeo
And she’ 's my Juliet
I’ 'd ride this rodeo
And take her heart just yet…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
70
Joshua
I wish you could see,
I wish you could feel...
That although I breathe
My world had stood still
I wish you would hear,
I wish you would know...
The pain in my heart
The hurt I can'’ t show
Behind the facade
Despite the parade
This heart is so sad
Caught in a dark charade
Within the mirage
Behind the happy sight
There is but only grudge
Masked in blinding light
I wish you could know,
I wish you could see...
Behind each radiant smile
My heart stops for a while
Despite the show of joy
There is a lonely soul
Around this happy boy
A place of only walls
Within the play of fun
A feel of numbing pain
In the sky, a setting sun
An endless pouring rain
I wish you could see,
I wish you would feel...
How I’ 'd want us to be
How I'd love you still
I wish you would know,
I wish you could hear...
Things I'’ ll never show
How I’ 'd like us to be…..
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
71
JoyRide
Close my eyes and barely breathe
Feel your touch and your heart beat
Keeping everything inside
Enjoy the bliss of this joyride
But I lift you up and let you down
Enjoy your face make to a frown
Leave you out under the rain
Drive you nuts and go insane
But you never give up on loving me
Believe the good in me you see
Pledge me your love under our tree
Love me as me and set me free
Close my eyes and gently breathe
Know you’ 're the one that I am with
See that I will never need to hide
Enjoy the bliss of your joyride
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
72
Just another goodbye...
Just another goodbye
Another tear to cry
As you slowly walk away
I can’ 't find words to say
To make you want to stay
Just another goodbye
No need to for me to die
It’ s just another goodbye
It should be over with a sigh
No need to fool me with a lie
Walked away as you said goodbye
Didn’ 't turn my head
I can’ 't know why
I’ 'm so enmeshed just thinking how
I’ 'd make it through another night
And it’ 's just another goodbye
Another ache for me to try
As you slowly fade away
A gloomy face of another day
A sad, sad tune of a painful prayer
Just another goodbye
No need for me to die
It’ 'll be over in a sigh
No need to fool me with a lie…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
73
Just for a while...
Just for a while
I tried to smile
But the pain won't leave my heart…
And after a while
I'’ ll remember our time
Then I remind me you have gone…
It's so hard to tell my heart
Even soulmates sometimes part
And leave their spirits all broken…
It's so hard to mend my heart
I just don'’ t know where to start
Travel this road we'’ ve chosen…
I look up the sky
As I wondered why
The love we have had ended
And although I try
I just can’ 't help but cry
The tears just keep on falling
It's so easy to pretend
But at night the pictures end
And the colors fade to sadness
It's so easy to get by
Yet somehow my eyes just cry
As the paintings turn to madness
Just for a while
I wanted to smile
But the pain stays in my heart
And hard as I try
My eyes just start to cry
As the dream around me flickers… … …
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
74
Lament...
And I pour out everything now…
For last night I cried…
I screamed…
I hurt…
and died..
once again I died…
and cried…
and died..
until I can cry no more…
die no more..
that left with a soul all broken…
left with a mind torn apart…
I can feel no more…
take no more..
be.. no more…
and so the last thing remains…
to sever the ties between body and spirit..
to cut the bind that ties me here…
to be free…
and I pray for strength…
for the sooner I depart...
the better things shall be…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
75
Lamentation
Someday, somewhere
I wish we could share
This feeling…
This love…
Your heart wouldn'’ t dare
Someday, somehow
I hope you would care
For this heart…
For this soul…
You’ 'd give nothing for to share…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
76
Lies...
The first time that you lied
I hurt and almost died
Almost all the time I cried
My tears just won’t subside…
There is no place for us…
Neither time nor moment that’s for us…
Yet forever in my heart
I will never let you part
I grew numb from all the pain
Couldn’t even care for rain
Got used to all the stain
Didn’t see the end just came
Every story needs an ending
But mine are nothing but beginnings
A new day to search for meaning
Another lesson I must be learning
The last time that you lied
My eyes no longer cried
I must have finally died
That last time you had lied…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
77
LIONER
Every story has a beginning
Every tale has got its end
Although chapters may go missing
Our life’s lessons must be learned
You came into my world
And calmed my fears inside
Like a knight in shining armour
You took away my strife
But alas life’s crooked trimmings
But alas fate’s playful design
Must stand and come between us
Saw fit to work against us
And now you bring the heartache
And now you cause me pain
Now there’s no more use believing
That there’ll be a happy end
You’ll be just another face
What we shared just but a phase
Another heart break to forget
Simply another page to turn
matthewedanolivernpalma -->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
78
Little thoughts, Random hopes...
The thought of leaving...
The lure of forgetting...
The chance to start a brand new beginning...
The reason for staying...
The pledge to keep remembering...
The hope that compels one to go on fighting...
Little hopes...
Random thoughts...
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
79
Lonely...
Still I feel alone… amidst the noise and the fun… the happier my surroundings…the
lonelier I become… every echo of a laugh… every reflection of a smile… with each
happy soul I see… the voice of loneliness screams in me…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
80
Love Affair...
We boldly take our chances
Try hard to keep it down
Play on with our disguises
Until nobody’ 's around
We hide and steal our kisses
Do our best not to be found
We have to speak in riddles
To keep “ US” secret we are bound
We coat the things we say
So we don'’ t give ourselves away
Stand apart when we'’ re together
Afraid they'’ ll discover we’ re with another
We wait deep in the night
To make love in this life
Spare our loved ones from this sight
For we can'’ t bear to cause them strife
We bury our secrets in our bed
Watch for the glimpses that we take
We feel the longings in our head
To keep this love affair we make…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
81
Love Me...
And where are you now?
I hope you hear somehow...
I know this is unfair...
But is it still there?
The love you pledged to me…
I need that love right now...
Now that he has left me....
Please love me through the night...
And help me to forget...
to banish all the pain that lives inside my bleeding heart...
Love me ‘til the morning light…
Embrace me 'til I forget…
Until the memories of yesterday completely fade...
I can never lie..
I have no reason why...
I do still love him so...
Even if I'm broken so...
But I've made up my mind...
this love for him I find...
I'm giving to someone else...
Please love me through the night...
And help me to forget...
to banish all the hurt I feel inside this broken heart..
82
Love me ‘til the morning light
Hold me until I forget...
Until my memories of yesterday completely fade...
mathewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
83
Love Song...
This sweet melody on air
It still reminds me of your hair
So soft and gentle to the touch
Just like this song we love so much
This sad old tune the radio plays
It holds all our memories stay
It brings me back to happier days
When we had our love have its way
For as every note that it sings
Hits a special chord in my strings
I remember the joy that it brings
This love song that we used to sing
This sweet old song that plays on air
This sad love song the radio plays
Reminds me of how we used to be
Fills me with memories of you and me…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
84
Love.. In Acts: Act 1
Shallow depths
A million aches
The rivers bend
A thousand deaths
… . And how do I love you
… . How can I love you… ?
… . In silence
… . In words
… . Mere acts in a play?
Uncertain thoughts
Unclear lyrics
The pain it has wrought
The hurt in mimics
… . So how can I love you?
… . Why do I love you...?
… . In Foolishness
… . A thought
… . A strong struggling feeling
Unfinished songs
Melodies unheard
A love that lives on
A heart that never learned
… . So I still do love you
… . I will always love you
… .through harmonies
… .through pain
… through dark words
And through rain… …
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
85
Love.. In Acts: Act 2
Winter’ 's cold
Autumn'’ s leaves
Summer’ 's warmth
The chill of spring
And what do we see?
What do we feel?
The abyss in a sea?
A colour-less wheel?
The coolness of wind
The freshness of water
The heat of fire
The nurture of earth
And how do we know?
Just how do we hear?
When tears start to flow?
When harm is drawing near?
The sadness of thought
The promise of dawn
The stillness of night
The colors of the morn
And so we do know
As plainly as we see
And so we do feel
As loudly as we hear
… in monotonous tones
In a mediocre of songs… ..
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
86
Love.. In Acts: Act 3
Empty words
Emotions taken
Sharpened swords
Reasons all broken
… So where do we sit
Where do we stand?
… What are the odds?
In this foolish game of chance
Precious thoughts
Promises pledged
Sanity sought
Standing on the edge
… And what are we both
Are we lovers or but strangers
… We’ 're sharing in this boat
In an ocean full of danger
Shadows in the dark
Stars run out of spark
In the stillness in the park
Ends the singing of a lark
… So where do we go
And what do we do?
… What are the chances?
Of us making it through?
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
87
Love.. In Acts: Act 4
Winter's morn
A breath of chill
As my heart mourns
The wind blows still
… Yet calmly you speak
And gently say… ..
… . All spirits fall weak
To find its way
Summer nights
Broken dreams
A heavy sigh
A silent scream
… Yet swiftly you’ 'd come
And surely aid
… as laughter become
But smiles that fade
Autumn leaves
The warmth of spring
As sadness leaves
With the love you bring
… and suddenly I’ 'd see
So surely I’ 'd know
… there always I will be
A friend to hold on…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
88
Lust disguised as Love
your words stabbed like jagged knife
and i bled
you were never near the truth
so i hurt
so consumed with yourself
i turn invisible
lust disguised as love is what you see
didn't you feel love behind that lust you condemn?
strong as i can be for love of you i feel
weakened by the lust you blame on me i reel
your words cut like a double blade
so i bleed
you have twisted all my truths
so i hurt
so high and mighty with your pride
i am invisible
matthewedanolivernplma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
89
Madness
This unending rain
It refreshes the pain
Can hardly stay sane
All my strength simply wane
Without purpose and meaning
Without reason or rhyme
My hopes are now fading
My life freezes in time
This perpetual sadness
Driving me to madness
Feeding my loneliness
Strangling all happiness
With darkness and shadows
I’ 've lost all reflection
With nothing but sorrow
I welcome damnation
Without meaning or rhyme
I still look back in time
When you were still mine
And the sun brightly shines
Now this gloomy reflection
My piece of damnation
The day you went away
When darkness chose to stay
This unending rain
Drenching me in loneliness
Refreshing all my pain
Awakening the madness
This perpetual sadness
Driving me insane
Striking down all happiness
Can no longer keep me sane…
matthewedanolivernpalma- >>>>>
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90
MAMOT
Whenever I see you… .
Whenever you’ 're near...
I can'’ t help but feel you...
I can’ 't help but fear… .
I’ 'd set out to win you
Knowing I'’ d lose my heart
Possess you and hold you
‘ 'Though your heart I'’ ll never have… .
Like a moth to a flame… .
I have only me to blame… .
For I’ 'd put myself to shame… .
If this heart I cannot tame… .
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
91
Masks
Remember how we hide
Keep our emotions deep inside
Try not to look in each other’ 's eyes
Afraid we'’ d see through our lies
But love so true cannot be stopped
There came a time we had to drop
The masks we wear and embrace the trap
The one that’ 's bound to break us up
Now destiny had set its hand
Just like a tight grip on the sand
Our fates slowly intertwined
Although in doom this love is bound
And after all the pain it brings
I wish that love had never found me
Afraid of losing everything
I sought to keep your arms around me
But time is both cruel and unkind
Made everything quite hard to bear
Should’ 've kept these feelings in our minds
Should’ 've held on the masks we wear
Remember how we hide
Drown our emotions deep inside
Never looked in each other’ 's eyes
Never should have seen through our lies
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
92
Melvin
No shadow
No light
No nothing but pain
An empty void of space
Beneath an ocean full of tears…...
Another time
Another place
Perhaps in that somewhere
Where there’ 's no season or space...
I should wake up to a lovelier place
Where you love me…
And you cared…
And keep me all dazed….
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
93
Michelle
The sweetest of eyes
The most mysterious of smiles
The dream that leaves me breathless
My heart beats its song for you
My soul stakes its claim on you
My mind craves for only you
This body feels for only you
And you flutter and enchant
Rival the fairies and their chants
As you embrace me with your spell
In your arms you bid me dwell
My heart beats its love for you
My soul takes its rest on you
My mind thinks of only you
This body longs for only you
The soul of my songs
The rhyme of my poems
The words that hold me tender
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
94
Music & Mimes
lost for words
lost for rhymes...
I can't make music
I can't do mimes...
My heart is not broken
For then I'd be open...
to every sad tune
that the soul has spoken...
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
95
My Best Friend & YOU
My eyes are yours alone
In my heart you are the song
You are my only one
In my universe, the sun…
But your eyes are not for me…
I am someone you barely see…
For your heart belongs to him…
The man of your sweet dreams
And oh, how it hurts me so…
I wish I could just go….
But I cannot let it show…
He’s my best friend don’t you know?
And the pain just surely starts
When you touch I fall apart
As your hands hold in sweet bliss
I pray to God, “spare me from this! ”
Yet ‘though it hurts me so…
I go down with the flow…
He’s my best friend, don’t you know?
Doesn’t he know I love you so?
My heart is yours alone…
In my soul you are the song…
But your heart is not for me…
I’m someone you barely see…
And just how it hurts me so…
Everytime my eyes would know…
That it’s my best friend and you..
Who share a love so true…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
96
My Promise
Here I am
And Here I’ 'll be…
To cherish you for eternity
Forever yours
Through life I'’ ll be…
Guiding you eternally
Here you are
And here you’ 'll be…
Beside me all the way… . You'’ ll see
Forever'’ s for our love to see
To share and cherish…
Eternally… .
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
97
My Refuge
You are my refuge
In you my soul finds rest
You are my refuge
You give me all that’ 's best
You are my refuge
I can live without the rest
You are my refuge
The light that shines my way
You are my refuge
The bright sun of each day
You are my refuge
Beside you I will stay
And if each harm’ 's way finds me
In you I will be saved/safe
Through dark clouds and through sorrow
You’ 'll see me through tomorrow
'‘ though in the dark I lose the way
your hand will pave my way
you are my refuge
the path that leads me home
you are my refuge
the part that makes me whole
you are my refuge
in you I will find rest… .
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
98
My Sadness and You
a void in time....
this sadness of mine...
feeling I don't belong....
believing I am alone...
then your touch.....
that intoxicates me much....
a feeling of bliss....
something that i've missed...
falling fast...
i said he was my last.....
until you came along.....
and proved me not that strong....
but i must get a grip....
somehow i must not trip...
can't fall in love again...
drench myself under the rain....
but how can this be wrong....
when you speak i hear this song...
the one that comforts all my pain...
bids my fears subside and wane....
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
99
No More
An eye to dry
A tear to fall
A hope that tomorrow
I’ll cry no more
But my hands still shake
My soul still quiver
‘Coz when my heart breaks
My mind still shiver
And drowned into this world
I sink down deeper
Longing for the strength
To pull me up higher
Yet twilight comes
Far too much swifter
And as the sun sets
The picture fades faster
So still trapped and cold
I brave the morning
Knowing in my heart your memory
I’ll be holding
Hoping that one day
I’d stop this yearning
Waiting for that someday
When my world goes on turning…
An eye to dry
A tear to fall
A hope that tomorrow
I’ll hurt no more…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
100
No second-trys...
Leave me now
Just go somehow
I see no tomorrow
Just bitter goodbye
Our eyes do not meet
Our souls do not speak
I'd sever our ties
I'’ d bid you goodbye
Tonight my soul dies
There'’ ll be no second trys
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
101
Nothing...
nothing quite painful
nothing so sad
than to realize the one you cherish
doesn't hold you in his eyes
nothing so hurtful
nothing quite bad
as to be treated undeservingly
by the one who holds your heart
and yet with each painful dawning
as you manage a bitter smile
you console your heart be happy
for at least he knows you're alive
yet still you can't help wonder
still you would ask why
why the one you gave your heart to
never seem to give you mind
and nothing too painful
nothing truly sad
than to know the one you love
will never choose to love you back....
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
102
Ode To Love
Loneliness… , why don'’ t you leave?
Free a heart that so long has grieved
Happiness, why don'’ t you stay?
Be with me.. forever, I pray…
Oh love… why can'’ t you be my friend?
When can my heartbreak mend?
When will this heartache end?
Oh love.. Please be my friend
I am lost in the dark of rain
I have longed to ease the pain
You had gone for so long it seems
But my love, I care for you still
Loneliness… why don'’ t you leave?
Free a heart that so long has grieved
A soul that’ 's lost in the dark of rain
A heart that longed to ease the pain
Happiness… . Why won'’ t you stay?
Be with me forever, I pray
She had gone for so long it seems
But this heart just cares for her still… .
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
103
of joys and sadness...
We laugh, we cry…
We smile… we try…
To shade the hues of grey…
And paint a bluer sky…
We smile, we laugh…
We cry… we say we’ re tough…
To hide the sadness in our eyes…
And pat our backs for being wise…
We cry, we smile…
We laugh… and walk an extra mile…
To leave our grieving far behind…
And search for joy we hope to find…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
104
Of what tomorrow brings...
With trembling hands you felt my heart
As ‘ 'though not really sure just where or how to start
With tears in your eyes you kissed my cheeks
Then your voice broke gently as I hear you speak…
“ I’ 'm not afraid to die, I’ 'm not afraid to lose
As long as you’ re beside me, THIS life I will still choose
But there’ 's one thing that breaks me, one thing that makes me blue
It’ s the fear that my tomorrows would be days that aren’ 't with
you… ”
With a weary hug I tried to console you
‘ Though I’ m not really sure if my words sounded true
With my kisses gentle I tried to appease you
Trying to convince you that we will make it through
“ I will never leave you, we will never part
The love that we have will forever burn in our hearts
And as long as the sun rises, long as the morning birds still sing
You must never be afraid of what tomorrow may bring… ”
With trembling hands I felt your heart
For I myself am not sure we will never part
But I simply can’ 't ignore this song that my heart sings
So for you I’ 'll face this fear of what tomorrow brings…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
105
Oliver...
Rain pours as tears fell
As I stare my eyes swell
Through the window looking out
It is funny how it feels like I’ 'm outside looking in…
Always included but never belonging
Trying to fit in a world filled with longing
On the doorstep staring out
It’ s still funny how it feels like I’ 'm outside staring in… .
Mist falls as souls rest
My mind dwells in an endless test
Through this window looking out
I’ 'm still outside looking in… ..
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
106
On Melvin...
Leave me now,
Just go somehow…
I see no tomorrow,
Just bitter goodbye…
Our eyes do not meet
Our lips do not kiss
We'’ re nowhere near sweet
Too far to see bliss
Forget that we’ 've met
Just sever the ties…
I’ 've had my mind set
Just can’ 't live a lie…
Our hands do not touch
Our thoughts do not ‘ twine
Your words don’ t say much
A barren dying vine
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
107
Once
Once there was a song
That filled my heart
It moved me like
A singing lark
But now it’ 's gone
I’ 'm in the dark
In deafening silence
Without a spark…
There once was a star
Above my skies
It shone down on me
Like butterflies
It sparkled so bright,
It was my light
But now it'’ s gone
There’ 's but pitch dark
Once you were here
Inside my life
You loved me
I held on you tight
You were my strength
My guiding light
But now you have gone
There’ 's only strife
There once was a song
It filled my heart
A star so bright
That lit up my skies
There once was you
Inside my life
Yet now there’ 's but me
Left in the dark
Once…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
108
Once Again
Once again in my dream you lie in my arms
And ‘though it was but a fleeting moment
It was more than I could ask
An eternity of bliss, the granting of a wish…
Once again in my memory I bask in your charms
Although this past may bring me torment
I’ll gladly hold to it steadfast
Pain and sorrow I will relish, to be with the one I miss…
Once again I believe in the magic of true love
For in the quiet of my slumber you have found your way at last
Endeared to me forever I reminisce about our time
A time of joy and jubilation for you were in my life…
Once again I surrender to the cloaking of the dark
Anticipating the very second that I’m taken to your arms
When you come to me in my lonesome, there is nothing I could ask
But to remain in sleep forever, once again lie in your arms
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
109
Our Favorite Tree...
Some sleepless night
A star-filled sky on sight
Dreaming of you and me
Underneath our favourite tree
Oh this feeling intense
That only makes sense
When your arms are around me
Whisper sweet nothings to me
Oh I have everything
As each moment you bring
Leads me high up the sky
There are no questions why
Your face I memorize
And I get hypnotized
I lie here and anticipate
The blessings of our fate
As I reach out for you
Deep inside me I knew
You’ 're not just an illusion
But simply my life'’ s reason
As you reach out for me
I’ 'm the best I can be
For you’ 're my saving grace
My meaningful phrase
Some sleepless night
With the stars just in sight
There is but you and me
Cuddled ‘ neath our favourite tree… ..
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
110
Over You
over you, I break myself in two...
and every little piece of me die...
but you don't see me...
you don't feel me...
you won't know me...
over you, I cry myself to sleep...
but every tear that fell froze...
cause you don't hear me...
you don't see me...
you won't feel me...
over you, I hurt myself at night...
but the pain turns into numbness...
for you don't see me...
you won't feel me...
you don't love me...
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
111
Painting
I tried to paint you last night
But the colors weren't so bright
I fell short of my emotions
I need to add some more devotion
Traced your face deep in my mind
Searched for the beauty that I found
You are so gracious and so kind
To your bidding I am bound
I tried to paint again last night
But I could not do justice to your sight
I fell short of hues and colors
Everything's a tad shade of pallor
Memorized your moves by heart
You still enchant me like the night
I knew I couldn't stand to be apart
Can't get enough of your sweet light
I tried to paint again tonight
Now the colors are just right
I've poured out all of my emotions
My complete and utter devotion! ¦
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
112
Paradox
Shadows fall
And I go numb
A thick brick wall
I lose my thumb
Calm my soul and rest my arms
You gently ease my weary mind
Caught up and captive to your charms
You mend my heart with your touch so kind
The light through my darkness
The song in my pain
My joy after sadness
The rainbow through the rain
You woke me from my sadness
Rouse me from my painful sleep
Exchange my tears with laughter
And banished all my fears
And then there is silence
A deep moving sadness
The folly of existence
A sweet haunting stillness
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
113
Parting...
I tried to say goodbye
Yet no matter how I try
I just cannot let go
Just why.. I’ll never know
I've taken more of what I don't deserve
You've taken more than you deserve
I've given more than I should have
You never cared as you should have
You look at me but do not see me
You listen to me but do not hear me
You touch me but do not feel me
You hold me yet do not take me
Now, Friendship is a two way street
Somewhere between we have to meet
I've done my part
Its now your turn
Or you can leave me out to burn
You said I'm just too high to reach
I had come down, I’m bruised and beat
It isn't me who's far too high
For you're the one who’s hard to find
You looked at me but never saw me…
You listened to me but never heard me…
Touched me but never felt me….
Took me but never held me...
And so I'll say goodbye
For no matter how I try
I just cannot hold on
Just can't do it alone
I'll slip then I'll be gone
I will just have to go on
In silence I will soar
I'll find me at my door
Don't ask me if I'm sure
I just can't find a cure
My soul just finds it hard to bear
This friendship that alone I share…..
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
114
Perfection...
and how my universe comes into perfection
that with you in my arms this ecstacy's unmatched
how with you in my thoughts my world is all just perfect
with your love in my heart every moment is all heaven
never leave my sight
save me from all strife
be my guiding light
share and bless my life
and how my universe comes into perfection
how my world with you is perfect
all my moments feel like heaven.
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
115
Please come back to me.....
I love you more each day
I miss you, every hour of the day
Longing to touch and feel you
To see you once again…
You told me you'd stay forever
That you’ 'd love me and leave me never
But now it seems I’ 've lost you
You’ 've left me all alone
Why did you ever have to go?
Why does my heart feel so alone?
I cannot face another day without you
Please come back to me…
I long to have you here with me
I miss the days when you are with me
Those happy times I’ 'll cherish
My memories of you…
Please come back to me
I can never face the world alone
Without you by my side..
Please come back to me… .
When can I hold you once again?
When can I kiss your tender lips?
Make love to you again?
I love you even more now that you’ 're gone
I long to feel your loving arms
I long to hear your voice and tell me you love me..
Please come back to me
I shall never breathe again
I will never love again
For my heart belongs to you
And I’ 'll never see another sunrise
Please come back to me
Would you mend my broken heart?
Would you wipe my tears away?
Would you brighten up my day?
Please come back to me… .
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
116
Preppy
It’ s not the moonlight
It’ s not the cool breeze
It’ s not the scent of all the flowers in the field
It is this feeling that blooms within me
It is the joy, the warmth that your love brings
And flying through the skies with wings of angels
I know deep in my heart that we belong
It'’ s not the poetry
It'’ s not the song
It’ 's not the hymn that all the bluebirds sing
‘ 'coz it’ 's this knowing that grows within me
It is the laughter that echoes with the wind
And gliding through the stars in hymns of angels
I finally found the place where I belong
So hold my hand and share my wings
Let’ 's hear our laughter echo through the wind
I'’ ll hold your heart and you'’ ll hold mine
So holding on together we will shine…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
117
rAin
It drops on me like pain….
tries to wash away my shame…
It reminds me to be sane…
but my feelings feel the same…
Dark clouds and cold breeze
the subtle trembling of the trees
The uneven blowing of the wind
Nothing I really haven’t seen
It drops on me like pain…
It reminds me of my shame…
wash away my insecurity
drown my thoughts of pure insanity…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
118
rAinDrops & tEarS
Sadness reigns
With every dropp of rain
As my tears fall down
In this feeling I am drowned
Raindrops fall endless from the sky
With each little droplet falls so many “whys”
In this endless pool of questions
I long for liberation
Tears flow down slowly from my eye
Streaming the sadness from the darkness of the sky
In this invisible cage of loneliness and despair
I am trapped in the bosom of the freezing stormy air
Raindrops and tears both go together
It seems like I feel the sadness of the skies
And as the clouds start to gather
My soul slowly dies
Sadness reigns
When raindrops speak of pain
As my tears flow down
I wear my lonely crown…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
119
Remember Me....
So alone and feeling lonely
Tears run down on my cheeks
I had to let you go
But babe, I love you so
It tears me up inside
I need a place to hide
Somehow I'’ ll find the strength to say goodbye
All alone, I am so lonely
I miss the days when you’ 're here with me
Why did I let you go?
I should'’ ve let you know
The pain is going strong
I just can'’ t help but cry
Someday I’ 'll find a way to see me through
O God, I love you But I have to let you go
‘ Cause the love we found is never meant to be
I know I’ 've hurt you but I had to can’ 't you see?
Please forgive me… and remember me
And I will make it
I will finally see me through
The memories we had will help me through
And I'’ ll remember all the love you gave to me
In my heart I will remember you…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
120
Roxanne
The sadness of the past
Has left me now at last…
As the singing of the lark
Echoes a fresh start
Your face…
Your lips… .
Your touch…
Everything about you…
I just love so much… .
Your voice…
Your shadow…
Your stare…
Every movement that you make…
Makes me aware…
That I exist…
That I breathe… .
That I love… .
For everytime you’ 're near me...
I AM ALIVE… …
The shadows that you cast
Have healed my wounds at last…
As the remnants of the dark
Remove in me its mark
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
121
Ryu's Eyes
That piercing stare
That makes hearts beware
An invitation to share
A precious gem that’ 's so rare…
He looks into your soul
He devours your feelings
Sends a trembling down the spine
When you hear his eyes calling
Ryu’ 's eyes has pierced you again
Ryu’ 's eyes has caught you again
Trapped in his stare
You become so aware
Of the feelings that you hide
Of the games that you play
He searches through your heart
He commands all your movement
Casts a spell and rules your mind
As you feel his eyes staring
Ryu’ 's eyes has done it again
Ryu’ 's eyes enchants you once again
Basking in his stare
You become unaware
Dare the feelings that you hide
Drown in the game that he plays
Spellbound
You hear no sound
Trapped in his beckoning stare
All this game of love’ 's not fair… .
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
122
Sadness & Tears
Sadness reigns
With every dropp of rain
As my tears fall down
In this feeling I am drowned
Raindrops fall endless from the sky
With each little droplet falls so many 'why's'
In this endless pool of questions
I long for liberation
Tears flow down slowly from my eye
Streaming the sadness from the darkness of the sky
In this invisible cage of loneliness and despair
I am trapped in the bosom of the freezing stormy air
Raindrops and tears both go together
It seems like I feel the sadness of the skies
And as the clouds start to gather
My soul slowly dies
Sadness reigns
When raindrops speak of pain
As my tears flow down
I wear my lonely crown!
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
123
Scrapbook
Somewhere in the scrapbook
Lies a picture of you and me
A glimpse of how we used to be
Some old memory that’ 's left in me
Somewhere in the scrapbook
Lies the rose you gave to me
All its petals have gone dry
Since the day you made me cry
Somewhere in the scrapbook
Lays the laughter of our souls
It echoes through the empty halls
Of this heart that for you calls
Somewhere in the scrapbook
There’ s the poem you wrote for me
And that photograph you tore in half
And now all that’ 's left was me
Somewhere in the scrapbook
Lay the promises we made
But I’ 'll close this book with one last look
And let these memories fade
Somewhere in the scrapbook
Was a love I sought to find
And with one last look I close the book
Of a past I leave behind
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
124
Sharon Mae
Sometimes I see you
standing close to me
sometimes I feel you
fading in my eyes
and the words just seem to falter
and the questions are unclear
and I cannot find the answers
to this slowly growing fear
sometimes I hear you
whisper in my ear
sometimes I feel you
feel your arms around me
but the moment fades in silence
with uncertainties I feel
no I cannot find the answers
to this slowly creeping fear
and I’ 'm afraid
afraid you’ 'd go away
I’ m so afraid
Afraid you’ 'd fade away… ..
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
125
Someday
I’ 'm sorry I have hurt you
I’ 'm sorry I declined
To engage in this romance with you
Refuse your offer of sweet wine
It’ 's funny how we cross our paths
And look the other way
I feel the pain that’ 's in your heart
But there was no other way
Maybe someday
When I am ready to love you
Then I'’ ll come back that day
Hoping to find that you’ re still true
That you’ 'd be warmer than I last imagined you
I’ 'll hold you close with a kiss to awaken you
Hold you so close so I'’ ll feel you breathe
Pledge I will never leave…
On that someday
Know that I’ 'm ready to love you
That beside you from then on I’ 'd stay
There’ s no other place that I’ 'd lay
But for now you must let go
Though I know you love me so…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
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126
Still
Still I live in the past
I make each pain and sorrow last
If it's the only way to have you here
I'll cherish each and every tear
Still I hope that you'd come back
That once again I'll feel your touch
To liberate me from this dark
Still I miss you oh, so much!
Still I hear your soft sweet voice
The way you speak to me those words
They can't be drowned by any noise
Cuts like a dagger or a sword
Still I hold your hand
And dream away to Neverland
A desperate hold on slipping sand
I still don't know just where I stand
Still I live in the past
Making each tear and sorrow last
I bid your memories remain
By embracing all these pain
Still!
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
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127
still In Love with You
Thinking of what could have been
Wishing for what might have been
No use fooling, confusing, convincing myself
That my heart is over you, done with you
For I am still in love with you
Reminiscing in my lonesome
Bring back the times you were still mine
Holding your hand, feeling your touch
Yes I’m still in love with you
Crying myself to sleep
Nursing this hurt so deep
I’m still in love with you
Holding you in my dreams
Wish you’re still here with me
Still in love with you
matthewedanolivernpalma—>>>>>
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128
Sunset, sunrise...
People come and go... they say
They touch your life
They cross your way
Then soon be gone, at each end of the day
People never leave... I said
They are drawn in your mind
In your heart they are laid
For each touch your heart in a magical way
People come...
People go... they said...
But I'd say they don't leave
'til your memories fade...
mathewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
129
the Calling
Come and rest on my peaceful breast…
You who are alone…
Come and taste my intoxicating wine…
And drown into my soul…
Look into my eyes and be tempted with delight
Come on and dry your eyes
Ride onto my back
Let’s shoot arrows in the skies
Just let our heartbeats rise
Forget about the truth, the sorrows and the lies
Enjoy the darkness in the light
Come now, be bright
Be witty and be wise
It is a game of lies…
I’ll dare you ‘til the end
Then leave you when you’re down
Don’t wear that foolish frown..
It’s me.. only me
Marching in the rain
Strumming all your pain
My words, with spears are but the same
A masquerading clown
My heart a golden crown
The truth, a mask
Adorned upon my charms…
Come on, let’s play
Let’s sever all the pain
And dance upon the rain..
And when you’ve drowned
In an intoxicating pain
Rest upon my arms
Until I vanish in the haze….
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
130
The Folly Of Friendship
I found him somewhere between joy and sadness
I indulge him though it is sheer madness
And like an ordinary fool I was,
Took him and held on him steadfast
I didn’ 't mean to love him
I didn’ 't mean to befriend him
But now it seems there'’ s no one else but him…
I didn'’ t mean to care
I said I will just stare
Yet now it seems, I did and dare… d
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
131
The Love Game
With every advance
A dare to take the chance
An invitation to a dance
A chance for some romance
As you taught me how to love
You also taught me how to lie
As you brought my soul to laugh
You also caused my eyes to cry
‘ Caught in a one way street
There’ 's no way to be discreet
Ain’ t it always a big shame
When we play love like a game
Used to be's no longer count
Now unsure of what we want
All we do is crash and burn
Hit the wall with every turn
Now trapped in a lonely street
Standing low so bruised and beat
Aren'’ t we even a bit ashamed
Taking part in this love game
In my dreams I see your face
But without even a trace
Of reluctance or of shame
In starting this love game…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
132
The Music Of The Night
I hear our laughter echo in the air
the short hearty giggles that we use to share
it comes without fail exactly around 6
there really wasn’t anything that we cannot fix
I see our shadows, they cuddle and play
But they fade much too quickly, I pray they could stay
It certainly comes exactly at 7
It reminds me of how it is to be in heaven
I taste our memories in a grand parade
It passes by slowly as it teases my feelings
It is sure to come at just about 8
And 'till then I do nothing but wait
I feel all our words they all cuddle ‘round me
They touch me gently and whisper so softly
They arrive nonchalantly at a minute past 9
remind me of the time when you are all mine
Then I touch our music that comes the last
It soothes all my aches, so heavenly it was
It ushers in the sadness that comes way past 10
When all I have left is our “remember when's'
matthewedanolivernpalma- >>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
133
The Reason
You’ 're the reason that I breathe
The why and wherefore that I live
The light that guides me through this life
The hand that holds me through the night
You are the reason I’ 'm alive
The why and wherefore I exist
The wings that bring me to the sky
The wind that takes my soul to flight
Until the sun falls off the sky
Until my poems run out of rhyme
My love for you will last
Until forever comes to pass
You’ 're my angel in disguise
The one that’ 's GOD sent from above
You are the hero of my life
My one and only love… .
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
134
This Could Be Goodbye...
This could be goodbye
This could be the end
No use in asking why
Can no longer pretend
We'’ ve had our times of joy
All those moments to enjoy
But happiness is dangerous
Its being fleeting is so obvious
This could be goodbye
This could be our end
But at least we had our try
Held on together ‘ til the end
We took our chance and dared
All those trials that we shared
We proved our love is strong
That we cannot go wrong
But nothing lasts forever
All good things come to an end
Let us enjoy our time together
Before we face our bitter end
For this could be goodbye…
This may be the end…
There are no reasons why
Let us no longer pretend…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
135
Thoughts
Leaving… I stopped… ...
I can’ t help but go back… ...
To face all that is before me… ...
And put them all behind me… ...
I stared… ...
Just stared...
I felt so scared...
I never knew... I dared…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
136
thoughts of hEr
how is she like now?
how has she changed?
does she still talk in her sleep,
still mumble my name….
what has she gone through?
how has she fared?
does she still need some proddings,
still requiring huge help…
how does she feel now?
what are her thoughts?
does she still keep them all hidden,
afraid to open up, to share…
and how is she right now?
how has she really been?
does she still smile as sweetly,
when she remembers my name…
matthewedanolivernpalma—–>>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
137
tO lOvE aGain
How sweet the air smells
How comforting your smiles
How tender is the sunrise
How calming is your touch
To love again after all these years
To take the chance after all this time
You must really be something special
You must really be heaven-sent
Yet the fear sometimes grips a heart beat
And the pain reminds the mind
As uncertainties unfold before my eyes
I think twice about this second-try
But how lovely the songs the birds sing
How enchanting your sweet voice
And how graceful the trees bend slowly
How your presence to me beckons
To love again after all this time
To take the chance after all these tears
You must really be something wonderful
You must really be GOD-sent
And although my heart does skip a heartbeat
‘Though my mind remembers the pain
Before uncertainties I close my eyes
I’ll just give this a second try…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
138
Today
If there is another way
I would stay here by your side
But I’ 've had enough a lonely day
I have had my last sad ride
So long to all my pain
Goodbye to all my tears
I'’ ll let myself out of this rain
Time to conquer all my fears
You’ 've always left me in the cold
With so much pain untold
I am down to my last cry
I’ m leaving you, goodbye!
Good night to my heart ache
Farewell to my sorrow
I will now claim my stake
For a brighter tomorrow
As my last tears had fallen
I would cry no more
As this last hurt I’ 've taken
I won’ t wait anymore
Tomorrow is too late
I can no longer wait
My dark clouds all drift away
For I am leaving you today…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
139
Tomorrow
Sorrows and heartache goodbye
I'll be going on my way
You have caused me so much pain
I don’t want us to meet again
The sun will finally shine on me
This has got to be your end
There's something bright in store for me
On each horizon's end
I've finally made the choice to go
'Cause I can't stand your pain
I'll let my inhibitions now forego
It's time to smile again
Dark clouds had finally left my skies
And storms all drift away
There's something good in me that lies
That is my brighter day
Goodbye to all my pain
Won't feel this way again
Not even a moment left for sorrow
For I am leaving tomorrow
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
140
Tonight...
Tonight… ...
I’ 'd love to feel your warm embrace…
Be one with you
Drown in your kiss
Tonight… ...
Do we have to fight again… ?
My eyes are tired
My ears are broken
Tonight… ...
Turn off the lights
Let’ 's lie in bed
Let’ 's break our hearts this time tomorrow…
Tonight… ...
I’ 'd love to see you smile again…
Let’ 's chase the rainbow that we’ re after
Tonight… ...
I’ 'd love to sleep in your caress…
Just let the devil take tomorrow
Tonight… ...
Why let the storm cast on our skies
The one who’ 'll love you '‘ til forever
Would love to see you smile … . Tonight…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
141
True Love
A moment without you is an eternity of sadness
My life without your presence can hardly be worthwhile
I’ve always believed that you will stay
That the love we share can never go astray
Yet there are these moments when I fear you’ll go away
And there’s nothing I can do but dread the coming of that day
And it broke my heart when it finally came
How it tore my soul as I slowly go insane
Alone and afraid I put myself to shame
As I tearfully walk under the heavy pouring rain
But the GODS must have been watching for they sent a helping hand
For soon the heavens brightened as fortune’s face broke to a smile
And alas back in my arms you mend my broken heart
As that fleeting dreadful moment in our lives have come to pass
Again you made that promise that we will never part
I knew then on that sweet moment I have nothing more to ask
So now I know that you are my only love
That no matter what happens I am the one you’ll have
And though there are those moments when life puts us to test
I’ll trust in our true love and aim only for the best
Each moment with you is an eternity of gladness
My life with your presence can only be worthwhile
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
142
Under the rain...
Under the rain I drench myself
Drowning the loneliness that I truly felt
With every weak step the things I will miss
Remembering the last of our bitter - sweet kiss
Under the rain I wash my pain
Struggling so hard to keep myself sane
Tracing your face in my mind as you leave
Undoing the tapestry of the sorrow it weaves
I walk through the rain with my head bowed down low
From a tearful goodbye we didn'’ t even know
With the haunting last glimpse deep inside me I grow
Weary that I’ 'll soon be weakened by this blow
Under the rain I walk through my pain
Make sense of what good that I may have gained
Hoping the cold would numb feeling away
From my skin to my heart even for just a day
Under the rain I drench myself
As I walk far away from the mess that I made
And with each lonely step I comfort myself
Resting my hopes on the promises we made… .
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
143
Unfinished...
Stolen stares
A warmth that’ 's cold
The pain we share
A tale of old
I am thinking of you tonight
And somehow I feel I’ 'll be alright
But the pain that lingers in my heart
Shows the loneliness I feel inside
And I can'’ t go on living all alone
Without you by my side
If it’ 's wrong to love you this much
Then I guess I just don'’ t want to be right
For this feeling I just can’ t stop
Overflowing with love for you it cries
And I’ 'd just go on living with the song
When you were by my side
I don’ 't want to live another day without you
I don’ 't want to go through tomorrow without you
In my heart our memories remain…
Even those that are filled with sorrow and much pain
Frozen touch
A smile that’ 's cold
A feeling to watch
The hopes we hold…
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
144
Unworthy...
so unworthy...
so undeserving...
of the love that i offered
of the care that I gave...
so unfeeling..
so frigidly cold..
that my touch freeze the instant
that my hand reach to yours...
so insensitive...
so inconsiderately cold...
that my words fall to silence
when you start speaking yours...
so unworthy..
so undeserving..
so unfeeling...
oh so frigidly cold...
so insensitive...
so inconsiderately bold...
that this heart you once conquered...
has long since let go....
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
145
Us
How many times have I sent you away?
And how many times have you gone back to stay… ?
A thousand tears
A million deaths
My feelings in fear
Shatter through depths
… . And here we are again
Both helpless and tired
… . Playing ‘ 'neath the rain
Of numbness and lies… ...
So how do we see… and how do we feel?
When we are together nothing is real…
Forever’ 's a dream
Tomorrow’ 's unclear
Our souls go unmended
We love without fear
… .So here we are again
As forever we may be
… .Playing with the pain
Of this love that cannot be… ...
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
146
When Love Is Not Enough...
When do we say that we have had enough?
How long do we brave our hearts to stay tough?
For a moment, a minute, an hour or a day?
Just when do we decide to finally go our way?
No more poetry in the pain
No more song heard from the rain
No more color in the stain
When love’ 's no longer enough
When do we say enough is enough?
How long do we still go brave the rough?
For a second, an eternity, ‘ till forever and a day?
Just when do we finally go our separate ways?
No more music in the rain
The poetry brings only pain
To stay together is insane
When love’ 's no longer enough… .
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
147
When....
When will I see you… when will we meet… You who will complete me… You whom I
need… You who’ll listen to me… part my hair… kiss my brow… touch my cheeks… You
who’ll hold my heart… who’ll feel its every beat…Or have I found you yet lost you?
Have I let you slip? ... You whom I’ll share forever… you with whom my soul
entwines…you with whom to me are special… My one and only you…
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
148
Without You
Without you, nothing is the same…
Without you… everything is changed.
Without you, all my world’s but black and gray…
Without you… happy moments fade away.
Without you…all the stars seem dim and dark.
Without you, the sun ain’t got no spark…
Without you … all the sadness just creep in.
Without you, misery’s my company…
Without you, I am never the same…
Without you… fun has left the games.
Without you, my arms are frozen cold…
Without you... I ‘ll have no one else to hold.
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
149
Words
lost for words.....
lost for rhymes.....
the absence of music.....
the sadness in time......
when have i lost my voice.....
where did i leave my soul.....
in a memory of our happiness....
in the fragrance of your soul.....
thus all alone.. still sustained.....
by shadows of love remained...
though' without much bliss....
in a numbness like this.......
without my words i can't make music...
without your words i can't make rhymes....
without us........ there's no me.....
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
150
Yesterday
You treated me right
You stayed by my side
I held on you tight
And cherished the ride
You started to change
Become so out of range
What’ s familiar’ s now strange
I now feel the rage
I held on my ground
Though it don’ t seem so sound
I am up for one round
‘ Though it’ s impossible I found
All my heartaches declare
Now the end is at hand
That I must now beware
As time falls with the sand
Wasn’ t it just yesterday
When you came my way
And brightened each day
With each word you say
It was just yesterday
When you promised you’ d stay
Never go out of stray
Yet my love you betray…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
151
You and I...
You are sun and I am rain
You bring good times
I pour in pain
You are laughter and I am tears
You echo sweet voices
I sob with each fear
You are the day and I the night
You break each bright morning
I darken its skies
You are the newborn and I the dying
You utter your first cry
I breathe my last
You are my love and I your pain
You caused me to live
I brought you shame
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
152
You Are....
I have often wondered
If you ever loved me
I was never very sure
That we can last forever
I have found in you
A love that never dies
And I have never ever loved
Someone as I love you
You are my life, my love
You are everything for me
You are my sunshine, my joy
You mean the whole world to me
You and I, we love each other
You and me, we need each other
I will always cherish
The times we shared forever
Every little single moment
That we spent together
You love me every moment
You make me feel so blessed
You have made me strong in love
A love that’ s true
A love that’ s sweet
A love to last forever
You are my love, my life
You mean everything to me
You are my joy, my sunshine
You are the laughter of my life
You make me live
You make me love
You make me feel so good inside…
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
153
You Don't Deserve Me...
With all the love I offered you
For all the care I gave
With all the things I've given you
For everything I shared
You turned a frozen shoulder
You took without much care
Still against real sound advice
I took the chance and dared
Yet here I stand quite bruised and hurt
As I realized too late...
You Don't Deserve Me...
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
154
You...
You promised me forever
That you will leave me never
With every step you give your hand
Through every storm
You are my sun… … ..
But now those days are gone
When both our hearts still beat as one…
Now lying here all alone
I can’ t believe that you have gone
Too far away for me to reach
Still too near for me to miss
Without a word you walked away
You left my heart in sheer dismay
And in my heart’ s silent tears I hear
The dawning of the things I fear
Then darkness fell as fears awake
Regretting each and every mistake
The fire that purges souls entwined
Has burned my skin, my soul unkind
And so forever in silence laid
I bid my sins forever paid…
But I’ ll hold you forever
In my heart you will stay
If only through memories
Fulfill your promises, …
You may… …
matthewedanolivernpalma-->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma
155
Your Love...
Your smile is the sweetest smile I've ever seen
It makes my sun so brighter still
And makes my world a better place to live in
Your touch is the sweetest touch I've ever felt
It makes me feel I am so blessed
And brings my gentle soul to rest
Your love has given me so much
It has taught me how to trust, to give myself, to love
And find the strength to brave the storm
Your eyes are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen
It seems to say 'I will be here'
And keep me safe all through the years!
matthewedanolivernpalma->>>>>
Matthew Edan Oliver Palma