ALL POEMS BRITNEY HOGUE

Poetry Series
Britney Hogue
- poems -
2
A Home is a Family is Love
Coming home after a long leave
Is always comforting.
It’s funny how a home is a home,
And not just a house or building.
A home is where a family resides.
Without a family there is no love,
And without love a home doesn’t exist.
A home, love, and family coexist
And without one the others don’t.
Is that why so many are lost,
Because they don’t have a home
Or family or for that matter love.
They look hopelessly for these,
But really never find them.
Home is where the heart is,
Love comes from the heart,
And families share that love.
I’m sorrowful for the lost among,
Because my three are wonderful.
Is it that some are not as blessed,
Or is it they just don’t look?
Britney Hogue
3
A 'Me' World
Walking home from the job I keep,
In this downtown city we call civilized,
I feel as if I’m the only one with eyes,
Unobstructed so to see the truth of matters.
There to the side of the overcrowded walk,
In an alley littered with the suffering,
Sits the small child dealt this hardship.
His hair matted, uncut and dirty.
His cloth about the same, torn and small.
He shouldn’t be there, sad and alone,
At home with a warm loving family,
In a beautiful house with luxuries,
With a yard, and dog as a loyal friend.
That’s the place where he should reside,
Not this crime filled, busy city street.
He’s too young to know this truth.
How the world cannot cope anymore
With everybody’s living for the “me”.
I walk to him there to the side of the trash,
Offer him my denim jacket off my back,
So he doesn’t freeze in the months ahead,
Give him the left over lunch I ‘bout chunked.
I stay a while; watch him take these little gifts,
And look to me with the sorrowful eyes
Of an innocent child’s soul in this pain.
It’s not fair to him to live this way.
He didn’t ask to be born unto this poverty.
It seem so unfair, that if he survives this
He will be just like the blood that created him.
Without having the parents to show him right,
He will learn the wrong, and fill the population
With more of the sinful crime and poverty,
Completing a never-ending cycle that multiplies,
Filling the world with more of that kind.
When will we ever wake up and learn the lesson,
That a “me world” inevitably ends with death.
Britney Hogue
4
A Tomb for You
I wish to run free
My soul unlock
Escaping these walls I’ve built
To keep you out
No one comes in
But no one ever leaves
Escaping these bricks
I’ve layer around myself
Brick after brick
And stone after stone
Built so high to the sky
That heaven touches the sides
Layer after layer
And slab after slab
Built so strong underground
The flames of hell
Won’t even see inside
It’s so tall and strong
But I'll find a way through
With my soul still inside
And when I finally do
I'll come and find you
And bury your soul
In this tomb
that I've built for you
I'll lock you in
And let you fight
The wrath of hell
You’ve put me through
It’s a nice float to the top
Where heaven is about
But a fast fall to hell
And the flames all around
Britney Hogue
5
All Gods Plan
I must say that not one day passes
That a memory of you comes across.
I miss you so much friend. So so much.
It has only been a few months
But right now I feel its been forever.
Just to pick up the phone and call.
Now that would be a dream come true.
To hear you laugh and say those words.
SIS. Everything will work out someday.
It's a shame to have to see your life end.
At such a young age with everything ahead.
Now I live everyday with you as a memory.
And all my decisions come with a question.
Is this what to do or is there something better.
If you were still here would you approve.
Or disagree yet stick behind me like a friend should.
I hate you left so early in this life but all is gods plan.
You changed the life of many including mine.
Where I am today and where I'm going tomorrow
Is all thanks to you. Bubba.
Britney Hogue
6
Alpha Wolf of the Pack
As twilight breaks
She awakes from her sleep
She steps from the den
With four of her young
Playing about her paws
She looks to the sky
As the full moon rays
Aluminates her hunting ground
She sniffs the cool night air
And knows the hunt is near
She sits head lifted high
And alerts her pack
With an eerie howl
She’s awaken for the night
And ready for the prowl
She starts ahead
While the rest follow
She begins the trail
Pursuing in a whispering run
Among the freshly fallen snow
A flicker in the glow
And she spots in the snow
A white fluffy hare
His small black nose
Sniffing the nights air
She’s on him in a second
Her hunting skills prevailing
And she carries her prize
To her patiently awaiting pups
Then back again she hunts
Britney Hogue
7
Armageddon (God Cleanse this Sin)
Its sometime in the night
Possibly even early morning
I wake from a restless sleep
Accompanied by a retched dream
A dream I know is coming true
As I look out my bed room window
And see it growing true
A bell tolls in the distance
Probably that of the churches
Amongst the neighboring town
My curiosity makes me look to it
But I turn away too late to realize
The igniting flames of the devils whoa
I grab the infant from her crib
And follow the husband from the bed
We flee once again from our home
And into the woods to hide again
Why don’t we stay in the trees?
This is been our home months at a time
Why can’t they stop the war?
I wish someone would make them stop
These enemies are destroying our hopes
Along with the futures of our young
Come help us God send the devil forth
Cleanse this sinful land, get our life back again
Britney Hogue
8
Awaiting a Spring Day
Nothing compares to a spring morning
The yellow sun shining to the east
And a fluffy hovering mist
That arouses from the grassiness
The little sparrows upon the tree
Sing the morning song to greet the day
And all is cool and peaceful
What about a spring day
The sun makes thing warm but cool
And things seem to grow by the second
Leafs bud out and grass spreads about
And all the animals seem to come around
No more jackets are needed now
Just bright sun touching bare skin
During the calm nights as well
Things are also beautiful and wonderful
The sun sets with beautiful colors
And a cloudy mist comes across again
All animals go to sleep under the stars
To soon wake and start another day
Life just seems refreshing on a spring day
Britney Hogue
9
Beach Side Romance
Its dusk now
As the sun begins to set
We sit on a soft blanket
Surrounded
By sand and salty air
And watch lights last moments
Before dark moves in.
The suns orange and pinks
The seas greens and skies blues
And your beautiful skin
And sandy colored hair
What is one to do but melt
As you hold me close
Looking deep in forest green eyes
Two red wet lips meet
And a had feels a soft cheek
The only sound heard
Is that of white ocean wave
But only shortly before
A group of sea gulls cry
Flying closely over head.
Such a peaceful serenity
As the sun finishes its journey
And we wonder to a beach side cabin
For a romantic candle lite dinner
We watch a shower of gold stars
Before we drift to a deep sleep
Only held in another’s arms
Britney Hogue
10
Better Than Before
Being with you has somehow changed me.
It’s as if nothing could go wrong.
The past is what I use to know.
The pain a suffering that a soul could suffer, did suffer.
The feelings were unlike any other,
But I thought that was how it was suppose to be.
Until you that is.
I’m amazed by the change that you have made in me.
These are feelings of true love, and not just words.
It’s good to have someone who cares as you do,
And has the respect I was never dealt before.
You care so much for me, and I know I feel the same.
Now that we’ve found each other lets never leave the others side.
When I’m with you I’m taken back to days of my early childhood.
Feelings I’d once lost in my struggle.
I’m taken back to the feelings of when I was young and innocent.
These are the times I consider my best.
It’s hard to explain in these words alone,
But just know for now it’s a great thing,
And I would do nothing to trade what we’ve started.
Britney Hogue
11
Blinded But Now Healed
Who knew a soul
Could be brought
To a painful death
By only one individual
My soul was as such
Dying a slow death
As a result of another
I must say I was blind
Or was I just numb
Unable to feel the burning wounds
Or unable to see the gaping holes
These he created
The night he went with another
And the year leading to it
Who knew a soul
Could be mended
And brought back from the brink
By only one individual
This such was mine
When I met the one
Who was but my other half
It must have been the bond
Or was unconditional love
That erased the deep scars
And sealed the holes
This my love performed
On a spring moonlit night
As our souls walked side by side
Britney Hogue
12
But What If (song)
On this one quiet night
A new soul was born
Two halves of a cell
Unite as one whole
But for this little life
Creation wasn’t planned
And is now no better than an illness
In the way of someone’s life
It’s only a group of cells.
A sucking little parasite,
That inevitably infects
Some who seek lustful pleasure.
Why not kill it the way you would a disease.
This earths over crowded anyway.
But what if
That innocent little life,
Grew up to be famous,
Grew up to save a life?
What if he was the one,
To rid the world of pain?
What if he could change the world,
In one unknowing act of courage?
What if he was the brother of Jesus?
Is abortion really the answer?
Is murdering the innocent
Now the way of simple lives?
While inmates live in luxury hotels,
For murdering innocents out on the streets.
If so, what is left to live for
In this hell we call life?
It’s only a group of cells.
A sucking little parasite,
That inevitably infects
Some who seek lustful pleasure.
Why not kill it the way you would a disease.
This earths over crowded anyway.
But what if
That innocent little life,
Grew up to be famous,
Grew up to save a life?
What if he was the one,
To rid the world of pain?
What if he could change the world,
In one unknowing act of courage?
What if he was the brother of Jesus?
Britney Hogue
13
Cats Our Teacher
Cats are such wonders
Stealing hears of owners
And attentions of others
But how do they do it
Hunting the little mouse
In the grassy field
Or the singing bird
Unaware upon the tree
They are the fiercest hunters
And favored heart stoppers
How could one creature
Be such a multi-tasker
Shouldn’t we be as such?
Impenetrable by the troubles
But as well
The strong unconditional lovers
Not so weak
From the days defeat
And not so hateful
To the needy we meet
Take a lesson from a cat
Who hunts but loves
And be true to yourself
And the others as well
Britney Hogue
14
Child Like Spirit
Why is it
That no one can see
What I can
The beauty in this world
And the miracles
In this one life
As if the majestic mountain
Wasn’t enough
Nor the fall leaf
Nor is the smell of rain
But all this
I cannot resist
We have this one life
And one spirit
This last chance
To honor what’s been given
But we pass it up
For what man has made
For once be the innocent child
Who runs and plays
With a carefree spirit
Enjoying Gods simplicities
And not mans catastrophes.
Or did we forget our true meaning
I wish
All could look to the sky
And the stars of heaven
Would remind us
Who we really are
And why we’re really here.
Britney Hogue
15
Child Never Born
Oh mighty God
How you created me
Your wonderful hands
They molded me
And inside this temple
You have placed my soul
You found me a mother
And in her sustaining womb
You tucked me in so warm
Nine months I stayed
Protected in glorious flesh
Until my precious birth
But what some do is blasphemy
Not to mention cruel and murderous
To take in vain your perfectness
And purposely destroy a life
Your wonderful and glorious creation
Killed off like some kind of disease
It only makes me wonder
What things you planned
For the innocent little life
That was ripped away
From his mother’s womb
And now cradled in your arms
Was it men to save a life
Or maybe even several.
Did its plans hold even more?
No one will ever know my God
The wonders the child would bring
Only you and the child never born
Psalm 139: 13-18
Jeremiah 1: 5
Exodus 20: 13
Britney Hogue
16
Clouds of Depression
I will cry the tears of hundreds
But Ill never once see where they fall
I will scream the sounds of thunder
But never once hear the echo
I will cover the glorious sun
Even though I have no skin
I am a lonely dark cloud
A depression of sorts
A draining illness at best,
the tears are always flowing
Either on the inside or out
What will I ever do.
Hanging high upon the sky
I can see all down below
And what I see saddens me.
The people down from me
They all are suffering as me
Where has joy and happiness gone
It is normal for my tears
It is appropriate for my screams
And I’m use to hiding the light
But not humanity
It is their job to remain happy
What has happened to this
Britney Hogue
17
Could This be a Dream
Sitting here in the sun
Our bodies close together.
I feel as if life couldn't be more perfect.
The bright sunshine is so warm
And the light breeze is so cool.
Your skin is so soft to my touch.
How did I find such perfect serenity?
Could life possibly be any better?
You lean closer to me
And touch your soft, wet lips to mine.
It's as if we are the only ones on earth.
Is this a dream, could it possibly be one
Only a figment of my imagination
I don't see how this could be real,
But it amazingly always is.
It’s never a dream
You’re so perfect to me.
Britney Hogue
18
Death Has Not My Fear
Many I'm sure contemplate there death
Including myself
Wondering the place and time and how
Many fear death even a peaceful passing
I however don’t worry
I know it's weird of me
But I'm probable not alone
I’m not even saddened by the passing of the loved
Death shouldn’t be a time of sorrow
But a rejoice of the passing to anew
In which we all will travel someday
All our lives’ paths begin the same
And have the same destiny
But the place, time, and how are ever changing
Resulting by the turns we take
In this life we’ve been given
I do not fear the end
For I didn’t fear the beginning
And nor the present do I worry
Just take lives path a day at a time
And handle what happens the best I can
That’s the only thing I can do
For that matter that’s all we can do
So why have fear of the end.
Britney Hogue
19
Depression's Life Strangling Anaconda
Do you ever feel lost?
In this struggle we call life
Like everyone has turned away
And left you all alone
For all the evil to claim as its own
Do you feel like your friends
Have turned from your side
And left you for death
No matter how you scream
No one will answer back
This must be what depression is
A filthy little divider
That preys on the weak
At a time that’s most unwanted
During a time of pain
It suffocates its victims
Like a large, slimy anaconda
That slithers its way into your life
separateing you from everyone
And this life that you struggle to hold
Defeat this life draining snake
Claim your life back as yours
And not the devil’s serpent’s
Life was yours in the beginning
Should it be as such in the end?
Britney Hogue
20
Depression's Life Strangling Anaconda (part 2)
As it slithers to your chest
Creating a lifeless feeling
There is one thing to do
To remove the devils hold
And regain your rightful life
Take the shield of hope
And block the fanged strikes
Don’t let the venom dripping fangs
Penetrate your already weakened soul
Killing you before having a chance
Take the sword of faith
And cut the demons head away
Let his soul sucking blood
Gush from his pointless veins
Enjoying the release of dieing muscles
Take the last ounce of strength
That gave you the will to fight
Lift the demons lifeless body
From your burdened chest
And free yourself from this
Now with your life back
Be the warrior of the anaconda
You should be knighted
For winning life hardest battle
So honor the title and new freed life
Britney Hogue
21
Determination
I was told it would never be so
My show lamb beating them all
The top female over all
Many said her breed wasn’t big enough
And the lines not pure enough
But I didn’t let it get me
I showed without a care
And didn’t have despair.
I knew she was good
And that’s all I understood
And really all that mattered
To the two of us
Then one show with all the eyes
My own bred ewe
stood out as a prize
She showed like an angel
With the glow in her eyes
She won that Grand Ewe Drive
And took them all by surprise
I knew she could do it
Even though they said she wouldn’t
We showed them all
What our determination could do
We walk away that day
Our heads held high
And a golden plaque
Hung by our side
Britney Hogue
22
Disease Attached to the Soul
They stand on the sides of the street
Like a plague, like a disease.
Evil fills their tiny brains,
Shrunk from so many drugs,
Too many for one person to conceive.
They only want to take
What they fill to be theirs,
Because god has short changed them
All during these years, so they believe.
It’s just so sad to me
That of what they have wasted,
The life that some are denied
And even for some is taken away
If only they could see
And if only they could know
That this life is not forever
And it’s only what one can make
We all fight for the easy life
It’s not just given to us
On gleaming silver platters
What we have is what we earn
Not given, free or stole
But what is sad is they’ll never see
And they will die with this spite
That attached to the soul.
Britney Hogue
23
Dreams
It’s what gives us hope
When all seems lost
It’s what makes us believe
There’s more out there that’s ours
It’s what gives us strength
To carry on through our demand
What gives us fight
For what is right
Who could dare?
Cut down a dream
An inspiration
For the despair
Who could stop?
What one has sot
So they would seem
The better off
Why down someone
When their dreams seem far fetched
They hope for high achievement
Even if not reaching
Means a long fall for not succeeding
Take it away and life seem pointless
But life without a our dreams
Now that’s pointless.
Britney Hogue
24
Eagle of America
Up in the great sky
I see with my eyes
A brave eagle that flies
Along among the clouds
Being watched by crowds
Of most curious people
Aloft it’s so graceful
Bringing atmosphere of peaceful
Making all so grateful
Being so brave and strong
Even when things are wrong
Even when the wars cripple
If it’s wings become battered
It wouldn’t much matter
She would still be the better
The most unconditional lover
And the best overall mother
For her children who are feeble
Britney Hogue
25
Eclipse of Night and Day
The salty ocean air
And the crashing white caps
Of the wide open beach serenity
In my wildest fantasies
And most vivid dreams
None could be conceived
As perfect as this scene
White stallion and black mare
Walking flank to flank
Looks as day and night
Walking together in one place
You support the day and I night
Joined in the middle
With my left in your right
We find the perfect sandy spot
Dismount night and day
And let them go their way
They stride straight away
In perfect uniform unison
They rear and paw ocean air
Before running to horizon
We look to the blue sky
As moon draws closer
To her lover, the bright sun
In an almost dancing grace
Moon slides in front of sun
As if in the sky they embrace
Creating the eclipse of night and day
Britney Hogue
26
Fighting in a New War
I walk across this thinning line of life
Overstep it and it’s unto the black abyss
The fury of what the world has finally become
With no one caring what tomorrow brings
Or even caring what becomes of all love
I see the red, glowing flames below me
As I sit on the small cloud of my sanity
One of the limited who saw this coming
Or wasn’t so convinced by the devils lies
Why does no one else see this happening?
The devil overtaking Gods beautiful land
Why do they all listen to these condemning lies?
Guaranteeing the grand and perfect tomorrow
Why do they become so inevitably blinded?
Nothing ever could be that perfect or great
We are only imperfect humans after all
What fun would there be in a perfect world
No challenges to push us to be all we can
I see below the suffering of every individual
As they burn alive in the fuel of there own sins
Armageddon’s dooms day must be so soon
Would god let the suffering continue like this?
Or is it already begun, and I am here to fight
Fight in God’s army against the devils flame
Fight against everything seeking to destroy
If this is so I’m ready for the looming war
God give me the strength I need to survive this
Britney Hogue
27
Final Days (High School)
Inevitably how happy I am
To walk these halls the last,
I know I’ll miss these times,
The best years in most lives.
I may never see y’all again
In the duration of my life,
But the memories in my soul,
Will remind me forever.
Even when my heart stalls.
The last pages of a chapter
Have been written for me,
But those I’ve left behind
Still have blanks to fill.
Load them with success
To make these years treasuring
For a better conclusions in the end.
In your only one book of life
For god to pick up and read one day.
This life will have its bumps
It will have its stress
Along with its occasional tears,
But if he didn’t think
You could handle the journey
He wouldn’t have wrote the intro,
The beginning, of your only story.
He is always there to guide,
And only a prayer away.
Yes have fun these years,
But remember the responsibilities.
I believe in everyone
To make right in this life.
Your future, you hold
Protect it with your all.
It is all yours to keep,
And all yours to shape.
Mold it for your own sake.
Britney Hogue
28
Forbidden Love
The lesser light shines
It’s full as you know
As the conversion occurs
A low growl reverberates
As a beast within awakens
Now you run on paws
And silver white hare sprouts
You give the presents of a hunter
And are completely lethal
To any prey in your way
My stone still heart
Yearns for something more
I dream of a mortal love
But with this thirst
It would only be a meal
I stand by a crystal stream
Illuminated by the lesser
You step from the trees
And stumble on my presents
On this lonely night
I look into your blue ice eyes
Only expecting a fierce battle
But what I find is forbidden by our kind
The love between enemy groups
Blood lust vampire and ferocious werewolf
We hold each other so close
You’re a completely mortal being
But no matter my strength
I could never hurt you
Nor is enemy blood appealing
We know our groups would kill
The innocents in out love
We are different that is all
So we shall run away
The moon and stars our only guide
Britney Hogue
29
Ghost of Me
It’s as wet as a flood
Red as the rose of love
Irresistible to the vampire
And it’s pouring from my head
My precious blood that is
A gaping wound that you created
There’s so much of it
Gushing from my veins
It’s warm, wet, and smells of iron
I think I’m losing consciousness
Yes, I’m slipping out of the world
And into whatever awaits in the next
Then a blinding light flashes
And all pain goes numb
I open my eyes to see my own body
Accompanied by you, staring at it
You have no remorse for my lifelessness
Just a smirk on your soulless face
I walk towards the scene
You and my uninhabited body
I glance at me and see the wounds
I flinch and then turn to you
Now laughing at the crime
That was committed this cold night
Now as a ghost, a newborn spirit
I’m able to see you but you not me
Now I will return the favor
I gather the strength and grab your neck
And you unknowingly fall victim
To the ghost, the spirit that you released
To lifeless bodies lay rest in the ground
One spirit will move to the next round
As I travel to a new life in heaven
To rest in peace from the life I left
While you fall to blazing pits of hell
Where you’ll live the pain you've dealt to all
Britney Hogue
30
Help Me Help You
It’s just so hard
To live in a place
with so many in vane
I look to the heavens
and know your there
watching us in destruction
but what can I do
im only one person
in this one big world
God,
Show my feet to cool waters
Guide my hands to plant the seeds
Tell me how to cure this land
Of its poverty and sin
I know im only one person
But when I have you
I feel I could move mountains
God please help me help you
I know your with me
I tell every time I pray
But im worried now
That you might just gibe up
The perfect race you created
Now swims in its own sin
And there’s not many anymore
Who still look to you as guide
But I know its not too late
God,
Show my feet to cool waters
Guide my hands to plant the seeds
Tell me how to cure this land
Of its poverty and sin
I know im only one person
But when I have you
I feel I could move mountains
God please help me help you
Britney Hogue
31
Her Undenied Infirmity
The gleaming silver blade
Lies upon the table,
In this abyss
She called a home.
It’s all so hard to abstain from.
To annihilate this agony,
This affiliation, she found herself in,
But its bondage holds her.
This cruel curse devastates and disgraces.
This looming doom is her guide.
The indignation inflicts the scares,
As the blade draws the blood.
Her soul becomes an infirmity,
And she is only left to die.
Britney Hogue
32
Hunted to Hunter
Why do I feel like the hunted
Like I have to watch my back
One wrong turn and its death
I don’t wish to live my life
Like the feeble pray I’ve become
But it’s what seems to choose me
I wish to run but have no way to go
The predators’ senses to great
They always seem to find me
Somehow and in someway
I’m tired of hiding and running
Its just so wrong that I’m silent.
Why do I feel like the hunter
Like I’m changing to a killer
I plea that its only for protection
Since no one else can see the threat
I can taste the lust of enemy blood
Its on the tip of my tongue.
I don’t typically act this way
I’m usually very quite, reserved
But I no longer can stay my ways
I have a family to protect now
If it’s a battle that awaits me now
Then I stand ready with all I am.
Britney Hogue
33
I Bleed
Love me for who I am
Not what you perceive
Were all imperfect humans
Just in our own little ways
I know I'm far from perfect
I never claimed to be flawless
So why beat me down
Don’t you know I bleed as well
I feel this pain
Inflicted by your insanity
I shutter at the clinched fist
In hopes it will miss
I cry the salty tears
As result of my countless fears
As you beat me down
So you can smile
Britney Hogue
34
I Hope Your Sorry
The irritated and bleeding wounds
Just don’t seem to heal
I hold this tight pressure
But they just don't seal
The scars are painfully deep
But I only have tears to weep
You tear me so far down
And then you’re so proud
What kind of person
Could find this as such joy
I'm not your lowly play toy
I can feel your inflicted pain
But I guess that’s your gain
How you get by with your own life
Is to see me in this spite
Someday I hope and pray
You’ll look back and see
The cruel things you did to me
And you feel so horribly bad
That it drives you insanely mad
So you can finally say
You’re so sorry for your way
Britney Hogue
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I Love You
I love you
To the one I desire
Who gives me all
My heart could conspire
I love you
My babe, my love
My all that ill ever need
Everything I ever dreamed
I love you
Oh so very truly much
These words are just a waist
To express my true emotion
I love you
To my closes friend
My only true half
I love you still and forever will
Britney Hogue
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I Set You Free My Love
My babe,
You are my love,
But during these times,
I must set you free.
Release you
Like a captive dove,
Into the world
To find your own way.
Fly far my love,
High unto the heavens.
I will wait for your return,
But don’t take too long.
I pray my patients to hold,
Just long enough,
So that you will know
The trail to lead you home.
Don’t be afraid to go,
To leave me for the unknown.
For I set you free my love,
And if we are meant to be,
The path you find
Will bring you home to me,
And if you shall not,
It never should be.
Britney Hogue
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I Went to See You Today
I went to see you today
My friend, it has been a while
And I knew it would be a long time
Before I would see you again
Its been way to long for us
The friends that we were
Too spend so much time away
We had spoken to another often
But nothing is quite the same
As seeing you in person
And seeing the body
That housed your voice
But when I would arrive
I found you not around
I knew you were already gone
And I realize that the flesh
Lying before me in this room
Was nothing but a package
And the contents were not present
I down my head as I disbelieved
And tears flowed down my cheeks
As little crystal water falls
But even though they flooded
It enough to fill the oceans
Still didn’t drown the pain
Of knowing your departure
I found my black clothing
That I wish I would never see
I reluctantly put them on
And wish it didn’t have to be
I drove off to the funeral
And wish it was all a dream
I watch them lay your body down
To be returned to the earth
As it was suppose to be
And somehow it felt wrong
Like this is not how it should be
You left me screaming up at God
Why would you take one so full of life
You left me screaming at you
Why did you do this to us
And leave us all hurting
But then I realized not long after
I was completely wrong
God had his reason, his purpose
And you couldn’t help it
If it was your time you had to go
Even though I’m still here
And the hole in my heart
Is just as big as our friendship was
I will be alright I know ill survive
Along with everyone else
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I just ask this one favor from you
When its my time
And God calls me home
Please be there to welcome me there
To give me a hug, tell me everything
I cannot wait for that
But ill wait till God is ready
Then we will all have a party
And sing for there is only happiness
Britney Hogue
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If Walls Could Talk
(This poem was writen to my grandpa who rebuilt a wooden chess that I had found in
an old barn. The chess was in bad shape but thanks to him it is restored and now holds
everything that is meaningful to me.)
If walls could talk,
what would they say.
What memories they would share.
What secrets a once living thing can hide.
That would be nice,
to talk to an old tree,
made into treasure a hundred years past.
What hopes it holds
and hard times it shows.
One persons junk
laid away in an old barn to finish its days.
The eyes of one young
to see its beauty and hopes.
It’s turned to a new treasure
to have more memories stored in its knot holes.
Each imperfection is not at all.
Only a story in history,
signs of the past, and what is to come.
A hundred years from now
it may look the same as it did a year ago.
Waiting for one to hide the hard times
and show new hope for the next generation.
To store their memories and dreams.
What joy a piece of restored hope can bring to ones life.
Now all there is to do
is to thank the rebuilder
for continuing the hope whom all need.
Thank you for rebuilding my chest of hope for the future.
Britney Hogue
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Illness of Loneliness
I never knew the power
Of the emotion loneliness.
When you are use to being
With people who love you most
Then forced to leave miles away,
This kind of thing tears away.
It seems to suck every ounce
Of strength and happiness
You try to put forward.
It’s an insanity at best,
Driving one mad upon the inside,
Eating away at the flesh
Like a draining parasite
That is immune to the antidote,
And only subsides in others presence.
I wonder if it ever dies
Or ever leaves the weak behind.
It must at some time
Or does your soul just adjust.
Does a soul become so warped
To deal with this affliction
That one can no longer feel
Any emotion within themselves?
Will I someday recover
From this emotional illness?
Will I one day not be lonely
And finally have a family
Or will this linger forever?
Britney Hogue
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Image of Love
There’s an image of you
That I cannot remove
Its so serene, so beautiful
It only happens once a day
When the sun touches horizon
And sends fingers of orange
Unto the sky
Grasping its last moments
Before the dark of night
Swallows it whole
The way the light hits the trees
Is enough to lure me in.
But when you hold me close
So close
That the rhythm of your heart beat
Could just as easily be my own
It's impossible for me to refuse
That feeling I wish could last forever
When the sun cast its grasping rays
Reflecting against our loving bodies
Creates the blazing orange aura
The visual of what love must be
This is the image I cannot remove
Eternally with me
For the rest of my years
That’s not a bad thing
I can promise you that
Just the feeling
Of a new chapter
And a different direction of our lives.
Britney Hogue
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Image of Love *revised*
There’s an image of you
That I cannot remove
From my memories imagery
It's so serene, so beautiful
It would be as so
It only occurs once a day
When the sun touches horizon
And sends fingers of orange
Unto the royal blue sky
Grasping its last moments
Before the dark of night
Can swallow it whole
The way the light hits the trees
Is enough to lure me in
But when you hold me close
So close that the rhythm
Of your precious heartbeat
Could just as easily be my own
That’s the feeling I wish lasted forever
When the sun cast its grasping rays
Reflecting against our loving bodies
Creating the blazing orange aura
The visual of what love must be
The show of passion between us
Britney Hogue
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Kindness In Vain
I was there for you.
I have always been there for you.
When you were happy
So was I,
When you cried
I held your head,
And cried with you,
When you felt the pain,
I did as well.
I have done and would do
Anything in my power
To make things great for you,
For I am your friend.
But now I look at this
And now wonder,
Do I not deserve the same.
If I was weeping,
Would you not console me,
Or in pain, would you not heal my wounds,
As I have for you?
I guess I am not worthy,
And all my kindness was in vain.
Britney Hogue
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Lady Liberty and Ole Glory (song)
Baby, do you remember
How we walked so carefree
As if nothing would disagree
Remember how I pick wild flowers
And twist them in your long hair
I miss those days so much now
As I sit with missiles flying overhead
Wish I was back home with you
And not in this unforsaken land
But this is where I need to be
To protect the land you walk upon
For you my love and so many more
I hope this blood stained letter
Never finds you back home
But if it does know that I love you so
And its my own little sacrifice
All for lady liberty and ole glory
I guess you now know
That those days are only memories
As the uniformed guard comes
Knocks on our door, speaking the shame
Hands you this blood stained letter
I know its just not fair to you
But it’s my sacrifice for you my love
Not something I would give away
But what I take for liberty and glory
But this is where I need to be
To protect the land you walk upon
For you my love and so many more
I hope this blood stained letter
Never finds you back home
But if it does know that I love you so
And its my own little sacrifice
All for lady liberty and ole glory
I know you must feel so alone
But im still alive in our children’s eyes
Tell them that daddy still loves them
And when there old enough to understand
Tell them of my own little sacrifice
So they could live in the freedom
Of Lady Liberty and Ole glory.
But this is where I need to be
To protect the land you walk upon
For you my love and so many more
I hope this blood stained letter
Never finds you back home
But if it does know that I love you so
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And its my own little sacrifice
All for lady liberty and ole glory
Britney Hogue
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Lamb of Life
In a pasture
So lush and green
A white fluffy sheep
Warms in the sun
She knows it will be soon
But when she’s not sure
It can’t be too far away now
In the grass
So far from the herd
She lays and waits
For the this miracle to happen
She knows it will be painful
But in the end
She will be grateful.
In the sun
A lamb is born
Cold wet and hungry
It's mom standing over
As It struggles to stand
Stumbles once
But tries again
In the herd
A new life has arrived
Such wonder and beauty
In life’s glorious gift
Find the meaning
And it's worth living
But find the pain
And it might go away
Britney Hogue
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Last of a Dieing Breed (Song)
I was born in a small town,
Spring of nineteen ninety one.
I was the product of love,
And five years of planning.
My parents remained together
Through greatness and hardship.
Something not many can say today.
I was raised in a small, country town
Where my family taught me everything.
From my Grandmothers and Mother,
How to sew, garden, and supply
From my Grandfathers and Father
How to hunt, fish, and survive.
I’m so grateful to be blessed by God.
It was just the other day I realized
How you don’t see my type much anymore.
So many divorces and broken families,
So much pain in the newest of faces.
Unfortunately for me that means,
I’m the last of a dieing breed.
Where’s the mothers, where’s the fathers
The parent’s meant to keep things all together
I was blessed by the love and strength
But what about the others, so misfortunate
It’s so difficult to be living in a generation
With a dieing breed
So many too worried about themselves
Where ever did we go wrong?
When responsibility and self-sacrifice
Has no meaning to the world any more
What did you expect to happen?
When we can’t take action on our mistakes
This world just falls apart
It was just the other day I realized
How you don’t see my type much anymore
So many divorces and broken families
So much pain in the newest of faces
Unfortunately for me that means
I’m the last of a dieing breed
Where’s the mothers, where’s the fathers
The parent’s meant to keep things all together
I was blessed by the love and strength
But what about the others, so misfortunate
It’s so difficult to be living in a generation
With a dieing breed
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Leaving Me Would Kill Me
How can I say it enough?
With all my heart I love you.
You are my bright shining sun,
When the clouds hover.
You have a warm touch,
That fulfills my every need.
You are my romance,
As you pull me to your side,
And create a rhythmic dance,
By the beat of our hearts
I must tell you this,
My one and only love.
You complete me somehow,
When before I was broken.
I feel a bond to you,
That of which I have never felt,
No other soul that I’ve met.
Must be we have fused together,
By the passion that burns within,
And the love that runs so deep.
You are my only love.
If you were to leave,
No other would fill the space.
I would have gaping holes,
That would be unfixable.
Never leave my side love.
Keep fulfilling this need I have,
To have you part of me.
Till the day my heart stalls,
And I rest near you in the cold earth.
Britney Hogue
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Lessons from a Hawk
Lying to the lush green, earth
The suns warm rays licking my body
I enjoy this overlooked gift of God
This wonderful land and miraculous life
To much to often taken for granted of
By the less observant of this generation
As I lie, eyes closed a shadow flashes above
I lift an eye to see what has block the sun
And above me is the most beautiful creature
A glorious hawk enjoy the earth as I am
I whistle to it as it passes overhead
And it returns the call as if a greeting, a hello
I sit to watch it in its actions of hunting
It swoops to the grassy field feet from me
In lightning flash it’s back in the sky
With a squeaking field mouse in clench talon
It settles a yard in front of me atop a fence post
Balancing on a talon as it feeds from the other.
As I watch from my spot of earth it sees me
It turns its head inquisitively and chirps lowly
I whistle back and lie on my stomach to watch
He continues to eat his lucky catch of the day
His beautiful wings stretch around himself
As if he’s proud of his small accomplishment.
So appreciative creatures aren’t the hawks
Happy for whatever degree of accomplishment
And only taking from this land what is needed
Is it so hard for us to notice his lack of greed?
And his appreciation in the smallest thing in life
Unlike us, the human, greedy and selfish
Britney Hogue
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Let Me Get Lost (song)
I wish my soul to run free,
Unaffected by this world of pain,
Unwounded by the suffering of loss.
I wish to drift among the clouds,
And free myself from all of this.
Would you take me far away,
To a dream world beyond,
To the land my fantasies belong?
Hold me tightly in your arms,
And never let me go.
Let me get lost in your green eyes.
And don’t give me a map,
To find my way out,
Cause I’m staying forever.
Far away from the actuality,
Of the troubled world abroad.
The world found deep in your eyes,
Is one I will surly never leave.
A million hundred years from now,
You know just where you will find me.
So lost in the greatness of your eyes,
But only if you take me away,
To your dream world beyond,
To the land our fantasies play out.
Hold me tightly in your arms,
And never let me go.
Let me get lost in your green eyes.
And don’t give me a map,
To find my way out,
Cause I’m staying forever.
Far away from the actuality,
Of the troubled world abroad.
Wish this life was perfect.
Just you and I would matter,
But that’s not going to happen,
Unless you can take me away.
Hold me tightly in your arms,
And never let me go.
Let me get lost in your green eyes.
And don’t give me a map,
To find my way out,
Cause I’m staying forever.
Far away from the actuality,
Of the troubled world abroad.
Britney Hogue
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Life & Death
This is life
I know it’s hard
so sudden and unexpected
almost seems to be a joke
I wish I could say it was
I wish it weren’t the truth.
But this is our life
and the cold hard truth
Now that is sunk in
That this is the real end
You begin to wonder
What was God’s purpose.
But trust me he has a reason
Clouded by emotion
It seems unclear
Time will tell its true end.
Britney Hogue
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Lightning & Rain
*Lightning*
A blazing streak across the sky
At a moments notices
And its gone on by
Its followed by
A roaring sound
That let's you know
Its come and gone
It’s as if God has spoken
The story he tells us all
That he watches from above
And needs not remind us all
He’s always here for us
To mend our broken souls
Whenever we fall far away
*Rain*
As wet droplets fall
We run for cover
Underneath it all
It sounds as music
In a pattering wave
And makes us dream
As it dances its way
It’s as if God is singing
A melody of his happiness
He sees from above
And knows his creation
Hasn't gone all wrong
He hopes we see it too
All the good this life can bring
Britney Hogue
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Love Trance
I love you
You know I do
The way the glistening lights
On every one of your features
The way your voice, so masculine
Speaks words so softly sweetly
The way your worked hands
My soul, they touch so smooth
Blinding is such as you love
A spell you’ve cast on me
I shall not fight it either
Kiss my lips so softly, innocently
Deeper in your love trance I fall
Never do I wish to leave this
Airy lightness as floating on clouds
Perfection serenity. I must never leave
Britney Hogue
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Lovers Crystal Stream
The warming sunshine on my back
And a light breeze blowing my gold hair
I sit on a bridge over a cool crystal stream
My feet explore the shiny rocks below
His protecting arms around me tight
To keep all harm from finding me here
He leans over and kiss me softly
As I watch and listen to the scene unfold
Upon a lush tree near the sparkling waters edge
A little sparrow chirps its enlightening song
And a colorful butterfly flutters its wings
As it enjoys the nectar of a flower nearby
We begin to walk the waters edge, hand in hand
Occasionally splashing each others legs
We never speak, letting the words of our hearts
Speak aloud through the air and the stream
Before I realize it the sun has slipped away
Lighting the horizon with oranges and pinks
We lay down in a lush, green meadow
And watch a whitetail deer and a fawn
As they nibble at the tender blades of grass
Before returning to the safety of the forest.
I roll to my back to see the stars appear
To watch over the world as it drifts asleep
The full moon joins the stars in the sky
As I curl up next to my lovers side
We enjoy one last embrace and a soft kiss
Before I settle my head on his chest
And listen to his soft heartbeat to relax
Then we fall asleep under the glowing stars
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Meaning of a Kiss
Truly a great feeling
To feel this closeness
A notion of more than friends
But of potential lovers
Something to lead so far
Or be just as innocent and simple
Just like the very first
As small powerful connection
To show all those feelings
One hides locked in a heart
Some are only a peck
Some can be a little wet
They can last an instant
Or some seem for eternity
Regardless, one with meaning
Can make a heart flutter
Make a palm sweaty
Cause a spontaneous blush
Or a total rush
Whatever the result
One kiss can have meaning
But what is seems to mean
Is completely left up to you
Britney Hogue
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Medieval Love
Tall, white and gorgeous as ever
As he runs along the sandy shore
His strong black as night hooves
Splash the salty oceans water away
The bright moon in the heavens above
Aluminates his skin like diamonds
His long wavy mane and tail flows
As he gallops gracefully
Never seen a horse so beautiful
But nothing compares to his rider
A knight out for a twilight run
No armor protecting his flawlessness
Just a sapphire studded, silver sword
Swinging about his waste
Shoulder length long blond hair
Flows in the wind created by the stud
And all I can do is watch in aw
As this perfect atmosphere unfolds
Unable to move, she makes the move
My midnight black mare steps forward
And takes me to my knight
I’ve waited to return from the battle
She moves with so much grace
As she gallops no sound can be heard
Only my scarlet red dress flowing
Could cause him to notice me approaching
As we draw closer under the bright stars
He turns his head as if expected me there
Catches a glimpse of black mare and red dress
And he jumps from his ghost white stud
I jump from the mare as she gets to him
And he catches me in his awaiting arms
He falls back holding me as close as possible
We hold close and greet with many kisses
And shed a few tears for his safe arrival home
Underneath the cool night sky
The black mare and white stud lay in a circle
My knight and I lay between their bodies
Held close in each others tightened grip
We drift asleep under the moon and stars
Nothing else could be more perfect
His safe arrival home after a war
And this cool night we reunited once more
Britney Hogue
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Never There for Me
I hold these tears of mine back
You brought them like a waterfall
I hold them back with levees
Hopeless to be breech any moment
I’m breaking down on the inside
I was mad, so mad, but not now
No! no longer is anger the main emotion
Now hurt resides in its place
I thought you would be there for me
Walk me through my needs
As I have for you so many times
I thought that’s how friends were
But I can see that you don’t agree
I can only give so much without return
Without getting support as well
But as I see, I ask too much in you.
Don’t fret because ill be alright
Already others have seen my pain
They come to my rescue
Just like you should have done
The others make me smile and laugh
And soon I won’t even remember
The pain you caused me
Because you were not there for me.
Britney Hogue
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New Generation
The orange sun sets once more
Alive at the end of one more day
All great darkness settles in
For its nightly ghostly reign
The great silver moon rises
In its full healthy glory
He howls in the vast distance
And I know who he’s calling for
I step forth on the earth
My last feast still on my lips
I look to the near mountain
And his silluette masks its top
I run to him through the brush
It’s forbidden this I do tonight
But I cannot stop the heart
Or what the heart desires
As I get closer I slow to walk
He hears my closing presence
And lets a low deep growl
To make sure that it is me
I call to him in a low rumble
And before anything else
He jumps to me and holds me
This has been way too long
The last time we were nearly seen
And that would mean death
So this time we go into hiding
Near a silver wondering river
Along a patch of wild garlic grows
We know my kind won’t follow
And my senses are weakened by love
So this has no effect on myself
We can now live here forever
Enjoying each other’s greatnesses
And living with the differences
We have created a family now
Me and him and our hybrid young
They will never know the cruelty
That was shown to their parents
They will enjoy the life of freedom
As our kind engage in pointless wars
And kill off our races entirely
We will survive and prosper forever
Yes we are different from the rest
But that is what has saved us
Otherwise we would battle till death
And the destruction of everything
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But here we have life and family
Britney Hogue
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Numb (song)
The things you’ve done
have no effect any longer
I’ve turned away
And there’s no turning me back
I'm now what I am
And what i'll forever be
I’m Numb
Numb from the pain
Numb from the hurt
Nothing more you can do
to change what is done
What is done is final
And there’s no turning back
And that’s why
I’m numb
So many things
that you hurt me with
And so many times
I try to forget
This pain that you put inside
The wounds are healed
but the scars remain
Now you know why
I remain numb
Numb from the pain
Numb from the hurt
Nothing more you can do
to change what is done
What is done is final
And there’s no turning back
And that’s why
I’m so numb
You can no longer hurt me
I'm changed to where I can't feel
no more will you get through
I've tuned you out forever
and forever that's how I'll remain
Numb
Numb from the pain
Numb from the hurt
Nothing more you can do
to change what is done
What is done is final
And there’s no turning back
And that’s why
I’m forever numb
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Old Country Road
Sitting in the middle next to you
In your diesel truck
Running down a dirt road
The moon and stars our light
It's a cold clear night
Perfect if you ask me
Wondering on some country path
Old country songs fill the space
Your arm around me
hand on my side
Mine on your thigh
Body held against you close
No destination in our minds
Just a road to travel
Where ever it may lead
I do not have a care
As long as I have you by my side
That's all ill ever need
Britney Hogue
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One Day you Will Regret
Here again I am
Stuck in a dilemma once more
I tried to help you out
But I guess some can’t be
You were my best friend
And I treated you like a sister
Now I have been betrayed
By a person who I trusted
A great more than I should’ve
I’m always there for you
Then you are there for me
Isn’t that how it works
Then again there are always exceptions
I was always there
Whenever you were in pain
Whenever you had a struggle
Then I ask just one favor
And you deny me.
I believe my madness and anger
Was only right and justified
When you deny what I deserve
I would have only been mad
For a very short time.
Most say I am a forgiving person
A lover and not a fighter
But when it’s something I’m against
I cannot deny my opinion
A simple sorry would of done
I would of went on with life
But to push me
“the hell out of your life”
Because of justified anger
And as you said
“I didn’t get my way”
Like some child throwing tantrums
Then feelings are mutual
I’m sorry it ended this way
I truly truly am
But you made your choice
And I promised I would stay away
A promise I will always keep
But remember someday,
Maybe sometime from now,
You will regret this decision,
But by then I’ll be long gone.
Britney Hogue
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One Last Breath
The sun sets again
Ending this day alas.
I look upon its colors,
And begin two reflect
Upon this one life.
I must say
It has been a good run.
Some times were great
While other were breaking.
Some I wish I could change,
And others I’ll leave the same.
Tonight
As the sun ended the day
I lay down one last time.
I close my old eyes
That have witnessed so much.
I relax the body
That has traveled so far,
And I pray it was just enough.
One last breath
And my life here is done.
Onward to the next
And I just pray I changed
At least one life
For the ending of mine.
Britney Hogue
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One too Realistic Dream
Why am I so deeply haunted
All I wish is for a restful, peaceful sleep
But all I get is this pain filled dream
That inevitably disturbs me nightly
So vivid, full of color and sound
It almost seems real, like I’m living it
I wish I knew what caused them
It starts simple and pleasant
Like everything in the world was great
No problems ever arose
And I lived in peace from all hurt
But then it hits like a wooden dagger
In a flash a storm hits, flash of lightning
Its pouring rain as I walk a dark alley
Behind the dilapidated buildings
That where once great prospering stores
I hear a low growl from in the shadows
And out steps the fear of my life
A human of sorts, but not completely
He walks with great stealth
Stocking the prey who stumbles his path
His crimson red eyes and white fangs
All I can see from under the black hood
He jumps from his spot knocking me down
And sits on my chest, halting all breathing
In one slow motion he leans down
Licks the entire length of my neck
As if tasting his catch before enjoying
One quick motion he bites, fangs penetrating
Before I react I awaken just the dream again,
But somehow something different this time
I’m still in my small, darkened bedroom
Lying in my soft, comfortable bed, like usual
But I can still feel the vampire on my chest
I can’t breath, like a great weight upon me
Then a cool breeze on my right cheek
Then a cold, wet tongue licks along my neck
Britney Hogue
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Only Me
I am me
A simple being with a simple life.
I’ve lived in the same place
All sixteen years of my life,
Never wanting to leave
But often wondering
What else this world holds.
The world is big, but I’m so small.
I am too small to worry
About the big ole worlds problems.
So why do I worry?
It doesn’t pertain to me.
I am me,
Short blond and shy.
Too shy to take many more steps
Out this back door,
But in one short year
I will have to go out the door,
Into the world to fend for myself,
As my life begins.
How scared I am to go
Into this big ole world,
But whether I take the steps
Or I’m pushed on my face,
I have to go, no matter what.
Britney Hogue
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Our Dream World
I feel as if
Im living in a dream world
That is since I met you
Its as if you knocked me out
With just one look
Deep in your beautiful eyes
And made me drift fast asleep
It feels as if
I’m floating on air
High upon a cloud
Drifting to a wonderful place
A place with just us
Where all that matters is us
This place, I never wanna leave
Its undescribable by words
Things are so bright and calm
So tranquil and peaceful
I will never leave your arms
Never resist your sweet kiss
That is until I rest eternally
Britney Hogue
69
Pain to Dull the Pain
She sits in a small bedroom
On the edge of the bed
Every illuminating light of hope
Has long burned out
And the only dooming illumination
Comes from the black light above
She feels that everything is pointless
Her life is nothing but in vanity
No one to love her like she needs
But plenty to take her every dream
She is blinded by life’s insanity
And feels there’s nothing left for eternity
She raises the silver sharpened blade
To her lightless, darkened wrist
She pushes it to her pulsing veins
And slides it across the entire with
Scarlet blood runs across placid skin
And a single tear falls from above
The physical pain is sharper now
But its enough to dull the emotional
It seems funny that more pain
Is the antidoted to dull all pain
I guess that’s why we burden ourselves
To dull the burning flames of life’s fury
Britney Hogue
70
Painful End
I sit in this quite, serene place
And watch the beautiful sun set
On this painted earth once more
I often wonder to myself
If he once expected this outcome
Of his most precious creation
Or did he know we would fail
Did he realize the monsters he created
An let us live our lives anyway
Or did he not expect this destruction
To come from his perfect hands
The day turns to night once more
But how long will this life go on
I feel someday soon the sun will sleep
An awaken to an empty world
Destroyed by its own inhabitants
In the night the devil steps forth
And with his billion followers
Ends the innocents against him
He’ll take a flame ignited by sin
And burn gods seven day magnificence
All that is great in life will be no more
I sit in this quite, serene place
And watch the beautiful sun set
On this painted earth once more
I know it’s all coming to an end
But there’s nothing more that I can do
I can only look to the creator above
With the deepest hopes that im wrong
And pray for the strength and wisdom
To fight in the bloodiest pending war
When the glorious life as we know it
Comes to an abrupt and painful end
Britney Hogue
71
Patients of a Lioness
She is stunning and miraculous
The way she moves among the grass
As she stocks the grazing antelopes
Every pound of muscle and strength
All wound into a silent, deadly predator
Its amazing, the patients and calmness
As she awaits the prize to arrive
How is something so patient
Never rushing, just calmly waiting
Waiting… Waiting… Waiting…
Till she knows the prize is in reach
Then with all her great strength
She grabs the unknowing prey
And enjoys her awaited victory
Should we contain such patients
Everyday seems like a life race
But for what gain do we run
We’re all headed to the same ending
Why not take our precious time
And await the rewarding prize
Instead of running head first into it.
Enjoy this life that God has given
Its only given once to an individual
To make it all that it can be
Why be in such a hurry to finish
Take a slow route and enjoy life
Stepping away from the fury of mankind
And realize the real purpose we have
Britney Hogue
72
Prey & Predator
With the moon in the sky
And the cry of the alpha
The hunt begins.
Several soundless paws grip the ground
As one by one they run the path
The path of the smell of prey
In the distance
an innocent rabbit sits quietly
it hears the wolf's cry
but doesn’t seem effected
It nibbles blades of grass
and enjoys the calm night
The alpha female picks up the sent
And is rapidly on the trail
The others follow behind her lead
And like ghost
glide across the ground
towards the unsuspecting
The rabbit smells the musk
It knows it's being the hunted
It turns to run but only a little to late
As the jaws open to collect it's prey
an owl swoops
and claims the rabbit as for itself
Britney Hogue
73
Promise Never Broken
Sitting on the edge of earth,
I watch the flames below.
When the devil is done
It will all be nothing but ash.
A once perfect world, destroyed
By the sin we couldn’t control.
I am one lonely straggler
That the evil didn’t take.
One of so few left now
Who were not cremated by fury.
Now we stand alone,
Wondering what is in store next.
Behind me a brilliant light,
And a most powerful voice,
“Come and fight with me,
And ill promise you peace again.”
I take his out stretched hand,
And I’m welcomed to his land.
We all wait for 1,000 years
In what I call a paradise,
For the devil to do his deeds,
And be overcome when evil runs dry.
Then with his mighty hands
God rebuilds our earth once more.
We all live here again,
With our God and our savior.
He never breaks a promise,
So we all live without pain,
Because death is now a past,
And love is all that is left.
Britney Hogue
74
Promise Never Broken 2 (This is Heaven)
We stand together now
In the entrance of heaven and earth.
Smoke still hazes on the horizon
And a few flames flicker.
This is what humanity did.
Oh god, please forgive us all.
Your majestic creation
Now lies in ash beneath our feet.
This, our product of sin.
We stand quiet, and look
Upon the waste land god steps forth.
“Fear not my wonderful children.
All will be well in due time.”
With his foot he scoots the ash
To reveal a small green sprout.
As we walk animals join.
No longer fearful they follow
In pairs of two like the ark.
Even though we destroyed all,
He forgives and blesses.
He keeps all promises,
And now he leads us to paradise.
It is now ours again
With his almighty over watching.
No more pain and sorrow
Life is wonderful, beyond belief.
“This, my children, is heaven.”
Britney Hogue
75
Rain Showers
It’s funny how
Two hearts in love
Aren’t bothered by much
Not only a little rain
Will ever detour them
Continuously walking
As the little drops fall
Soaked but that don’t stop
Running in puddles, splashing
Not giving a care in the world
After a too short while
The rain stalls and ends
As if they just swam
They walk to an open area
And begin to slowly dance
As they hold the clouds fade
A warm sun ray
Shines down on them
Drying out the wet earth
And warming their hearts
It’s just so funny how
Two hearts in so much love
Aren’t even bothered by the rain
Not much could detour them
So concentrated on one another
Britney Hogue
76
Scarlet Red Blood
This scarlet red blood
Against the dark dark sky
And my hands about my head
As you scream the lies again
Your wound inflicting fist
Clinched about your waist
These timeless mistakes
Occurring night after night
But this will be the last
For after you commit the crime
And leave for our bed
I will be gone at last
I’m now strong enough
To fight these fears
And eager enough
To clean these wounds
I will take this step
Out of this house, away from you
And free my spirit
And start anew
I hope when you awake
And find me gone
You’ll find your self sorry
For all that you have done
I doubt it though
Cause that’s how you role
But I don’t care much more
Cause I’ll be on my own
Britney Hogue
77
Self-Inflicted Insanity
Why have things become like this
So many watery, painful tears
And blackened, sad hearts
In the youngest of souls
I wish all this pain would leave
And flee all the tortured souls
Infected by this deadly disease
But inevitably its here to stay
No matter what the lies say
No perfect peaceful tomorrow
Awaits around the nearest corner
No easy life will be given for free
We all must work for our easy life
Not taking for the me but for the all
What is wrong with today’s times,
Is we are so deeply focused
On the easy way through life
Instead of the right way threw life
And as we all should know
But have forgotten somehow down the line
That the easiest is not always the right
That’s why we have this pain
It’s all self-inflicted insanity
By our laziness and self centeredness
Learn how to live the right way
For someone other than ourselves
And pain would surly ease
And life would seek less poverty
Britney Hogue
78
Sin We Spread
So much destruction the world unleashes
What is this human race shortly becoming?
Now falling fast into poverty
So many things wrong with today
To many who think they know it all
But they only know the wrong
So many who feel they know
The cure to the world’s problems
When they only created more while curing
Not much to do now but watch things fall
I only pray to God that we all awaken
And find the answers to stop the wars
I know, war is life, war is death
A never ending eclipse of events
But someone somewhere must know
All the answers to the havoc we created
And know the much needed medications
To cure this world of its wounds
God forgive the human race you created
Forgive us for all the sin we can’t stop
It’s over whelmed us now hovering like a mist
And draining life out of what once was perfect
So much of it now, I fear we are in too deep
Please help us clear this, this sin we spread
Britney Hogue
79
Sin's Stangling Hold
With all this sin
You’ve wrapped yourself in
It’s no wonder
You can’t see the light
Sin can be so dark
Not penetrable by the sun
It’s no wonder
The darkest paths are your pick
You can be freed
It’s not an inevitable trap
There’s light past its strangling hold
But only you can find it.
Turn away from these who drag you down
You no longer need them down the road
You’re strong enough to go alone
And I know you can do this on your own
Rip sins grip off your heart
And free yourself from misery
Find the strength of God hidden inside
And fight these bars holding you aside
Britney Hogue
80
Skin
It is like silk.
No I am wrong,
Its better than silk:
Soft and smooth,
Warm and kind.
When it’s a lovers,
Touching your own,
Makes it all the better.
When skin touches skin,
Its almost a current.
A little of a shock,
Of how warm and soft.
So who is to claim,
That silk is the same?
Not even a quiver or shiver,
From its insignificant fibers.
Skin,
The body’s largest organ.
What a wonderful gift,
That god has given us.
This wonderful protection,
And indescribably feelings.
Just from simple cells,
Bonded together as one.
Britney Hogue
81
So Many in Vain, Reasonless Relationships (song)
This was all such vanity,
Without the slightest purpose,
Without a half decent reason.
Like so many others seen today,
Our relationship was a lie.
It took me quite some years,
But I saw right through you,
And all the damaging fibs
You plagued me with throughout.
This, before you stole my innocents.
I was one of the smart,
Or was I one of the strong.
One who wasn’t afraid of you,
Or one that was too stubborn
To live with your unfaithfulness.
So many relationships like ours.
Where she is dealt this affair,
But most are not strong like I.
To leave you in your own despair,
And go about my own peaceful life.
I was one of the smart,
Or was I one of the strong?
One who wasn’t afraid of you,
Or one that was too stubborn
To live with your unfaithfulness.
Britney Hogue
82
Some Just Do
Hey friend
What’s your problem
Oh I see what’s wrong
Him
He’s never the same now
I know I’ve noticed too
But that’s how the alcohol reads
No it's not your fault
Your not the one inflicting these wounds
Physical nor emotional
Who knows why they turn
Some just do
I know you feel responsible
But you didn’t cause God's decision
The life you carried
In your womb
Was just not meant to be
We don’t know why sometimes
The smallest lives are lost
Some just do
I know your lost
It's such a hard time in life
But don’t be scared
Take the days slowly
He will soon heal
And someday life won’t seem so unfair
Just hold on
You’ll make it through
Some just do.
Britney Hogue
83
Souls Crematorium (Mirror to Hell)
A powerful blazing flame
Destroying everything around
Burning flesh of condemned sinners
As they scream silenced emotions
Being served the pain they’ve dealt
The sight is unforgivably horrendous
Every damned screaming forgiveness
As they churn in the devils stomach
Due to the extreme heated inferno
The flames have now gone white
Screams and cries are in vane
All silenced by damnation
Once in this white blazing pit
No one is ever released on bail
But here forever to stay
In souls very own crematorium
Britney Hogue
84
Souls Sanctuary (Mirror to Heaven)
A bright white light
Then standing on gold
Up ahead a twenty foot gold gate
And angels gathered around
Humming a welcoming hymn
A bright sun like figure
Standing on the other side
Touches the hand of a soul
The soul’s eyes light up
As life’s mysteries are understood
Things are so peaceful
As the weight of reality
Disappears from the shoulders
It’s more beautiful than everything
Nothing we know compares
Britney Hogue
85
Spiritually, Mentally, and Emotionally
I know that this is hard
To let me go, to let me leave.
Going from everyday together,
To only when time comes around.
We pray that this distance
Is not enough to end what we have,
Or even remotely strong enough
To tear us apart forever.
Remember a part of me is always there.
You hold it close to your heart,
Whenever those cold nights
Seem to drag on for eternity.
Know that I’m right there,
With every heartbeat, every breath.
I may not be there physically,
But I am spiritually, mentally, and emotionally.
Know I love you so much.
Probably more than life,
That is, since you are my life.
Don’t let the little worries
Break you down, destroy the good.
This is only for a temporary while.
Then we will become one forever,
And never be apart from each other.
Britney Hogue
86
Stars in the Night
Looking above
In the black black night
With the shining lights
Against the cold dark sky
It’s like tiny speckles of hope
In this darkness we call life
But after every night
Is a new dawn
A breaking light
And a new beginning
Look to the light
And start this day out right
Make this day
All it can be
And use each second
That you hold in your hands
Find good use of this time
Before night can swallow the light
But even in the night
Not all is lost
Think of the specks
Placed sporadically in the heavens
Darkness cannot block all the light
Like life is never completely hopeless
Britney Hogue
87
Thank You Bubba
I must say that not one day passes
That a memory of you comes across.
I miss you so much friend. So so much.
It has only been a few months
But right now I feel its been forever.
Just to pick up the phone and call.
Now that would be a dream come true.
To hear you laugh and say those words.
SIS. Everything will work out someday.
It's a shame to have to see your life end.
At such a young age with everything ahead.
Now I live everyday with you as a memory.
And all my decisions come with a question.
Is this what to do or is there something better.
If you were still here would you approve.
Or disagree yet stick behind me like a friend should.
I hate you left so early in this life but all is gods plan.
You changed the life of many including mine.
Where I am today and where I'm going tomorrow
Is all thanks to you. Bubba.
Britney Hogue
88
The Cat Landing the Leap
Loneliness kills me my love
It sickens me deep inside myself
Only the closest could see
How this was eating at my soul
Destroying my every aspect
I must admit I hid it well
But nothing gets past you
And you handsome green eyes
I saw you a while back
And the instant we met I saw
The hole in your soul as well
The inflictor was a different sort
But still the same I saw it
I knew I couldn’t just let it continue
A soul can only take so much
And I couldn’t watch yours die
We knew this step would be hard
Life would never be the same
But what is this type of life anyway
When you only have half a soul
When the rest of you is so far
And is in constant distress
Not saying this is without stress
But at least our soul is whole now
We jumped head first into life
And as I see we landed on our feet
Just like the cat always lands a leap
And as long as I’m with you
I will love you with everything I am
Because you are everything I am
Hand in hand we will face the world
As long as I’m with you, in the end
Britney Hogue
89
The Greatness of Fall
It’s such a beautiful time
Reds, oranges, yellows, browns
They all linger among the trees
Seems that the sun has drained
Every ounce of color from earth
And now shines it in every rise and fall
When the first leaves fall
And the air takes a change in feel
From hot, humid to cool, and calm
I know this season has arrived
And just around the corner
Ole Jack frost holds his blanket
I love this season so much
The air is so perfect and clean
Makes me want to spend forever
Feeling the suns warm rays of day
And the moons coolness of nights
The atmosphere couldn’t be better.
And soon the holidays will begin
Whether around the dinning room table
Enjoying a nice juicy turkey with dressing
Or around the tall lit Christmas tree
Enjoying our saviors special day
I know the presence is with my family
There’s no place I would rather spend
Enjoying the great ones HE put me with
Especially during this time of giving
It makes one appreciate the things
That at most times we over look
And thank HIM for none other… LIFE
Britney Hogue
90
The Rich Man vs. The Poor Man
And look at you, standing there
Looking like your better than me
Yea you have looks and money
But what does that help
You were born, you grew up
And you will one day die
So what makes you the better one?
You were born into wealth not love
You were forced to be perfect, not just kid
And when you die
No one will cry a tear
Just look for your will
And collect your riches
And be on their joyful way
I was born as the product of love
And grew up in simplicity
I only had to be me
And not some made up character
When I die there will be sorrow at my grave
And all the items
Worthless to memories
I hope you someday realize that
That is before it's too late
And you will make the realization
That we’re all equal in our own way
And you’re no more special than I
Or anyone else in the world
For all that matters
Britney Hogue
91
There is Not
There is not a day without life.
There is not a life without a scar.
There is not a scar without a fight.
There is not a fight without a peace.
There is not a peace without a life.
There is not a life without death.
Every day brings a new life,
But every life is inflicted with scars.
Every scar inflicted by a fight,
But with every fight brings peace.
Eventually there is peace in life,
But only when life turns to death.
Britney Hogue
92
Three Year Waste
So this is what it comes down to
A miserable three year waist
It's not at all my fault
It was your sin, not mine
I was the victim not the other way.
I did feel bad for you
That is, for a while.
But I'm tired of feeling sorry
It doesn’t help that you won’t let me forget
This pain I hide inside.
But I'm already moving on
Whether you like it or not
I’ve found someone new now
He’s kind and nice to me
Something you were incapable of understanding
He has picked me up from where you left me
And cleansed the bleeding wounds that you inflicted
But you still stand in my way
Constantly begging me for my forgiveness
Why would I do that now?
I'm finally well again, cured of the illness
And have better, important things to do
So this is what it comes down to
A miserable three year waste
It's not my fault as you should know
Let me live my own life
And you live yours
And may we find peace in this wasted time
Britney Hogue
93
Time and Worry
Why do people worry
Work themselves in such a fury
Over something that’s not there control
Worrying is such a waist
Pointless use of time and pace
That of which we have so little of
Stop all the worry
If you can fix it then do so
If you cannot just let it go
All and all it will work out
And be just fine in time
He guides us threw every step
Watches us threw our every move
If you falter look to him
A sign is sent to find you way
But instead you halt to worry
You’ll miss the sign sent by his glory
Britney Hogue
94
Two Halves of a Soul (song)
A beautiful new spring day
The grass, new tender and green
The trees, sprouting new leaves
A small rose vine climes a tree
And flowers pedals of scarlet red
‘A crystal pond paces away
All the little golden sun perch
Enjoying its fresh sparkling waters
A flock of pure white swans
Swimming their graceful way
A perfect wedding, for a perfect love
As we hold our hands so tightly
And look so deep in each others eyes
We know the other is the one
The missing half of our loving soul
Two collared dove light in a tree
And coo a sincere love song
It sounds like it was written for us
As we walk this pedal sprinkled aisle
Pledge our vowls and say “I do”
A perfect wedding, for a perfect love
As we hold our hands so tightly
And look so deep in each others eyes
We know the other is the one
The missing half of our loving soul
Britney Hogue
95
Unanswered Questions
Does time ever tick by
Have the played cards
Just seem to fold
Has life taken by surprise
And left you with nothing
Not even your soul
Does life ever seem fair
Or does it just take advantage
Was you born at a bad time
Or should you be alive at all
Has it all been a waste
Did you make some good at all
Lives many questions
From young to old
The accomplished and non
Have I fulfilled my purpose
Or do I even have one
When will I ever know
Life is so hard
In this forbidden society
Will we ever find the light
Will we ever know the right
So many question crossing minds
In the end will we know.
Britney Hogue
96
Wanna Be With You
As I sit here alone tonight
I reflect on how it should be
You sitting here beside me
I thought this got easier
I wish I knew a way
That things would work out
We would be together
And nothing stood in the way
I guess that I ask too much
But isn’t that how its suppose to be
I love you, babe
Why are we forced to be apart
All I want to do is love you
And be held in your arms
Safe all night long
Until the sun rises on a new day.
Britney Hogue
97
Water from the Heavens
Water leaks from the heavens
As they are from my eyes
I can’t help but think of things
Like the way life should have been
It happened all so fast before a blink
Like the way lightning strikes down
A flicker of light and then its gone
Just as the life left your blue eyes
The night you left me behind
This wasn’t how it was suppose to be
You and me together forever
But then you were stole from me
By the hands of death itself
What ever will I do my love
I don’t know if I can go on
With you cold wet tears
Falling on me from above
Britney Hogue
98
What We Are Missing
Aw the sunsets and sunrises
What beauty God has to offer
I find myself lost at these times
Looking to the vibrant pinks, oranges, and blues
If I could only capture the breath taking beauty
But I’m just incapable of this task
No item by human creation will ever compare
To the master pieces of Gods hands
And as I gaze around
I’m incapable to ignore
The perfect prints of Gods finger tips
Across the earth and in the heavens
His miraculous work is undefined
An under the stars and His watching gaze
This world below seems to fade
No one stops to watch anymore
To focused on human affairs to give a care
So why has this taken such a turn for the worse
To busy to notice why we’re even here
Seems a little crazy you know
For it is him who put us here
And for him we are to serve
Are we unaware to what really we should care?
I’ve noticed this now
And I’m glad sooner than later
So I can see what’s really to see
The beauty and magnificence that this world does wear
And to think were almost to busy to care
And so I thank you God for what were overlooking
And sorry I once didn’t care as well
Britney Hogue
99
What You Bring Me
I feel so deeply refreshed
By the new life I’ve been given
Finding you has given me hope
Along with this new lease on life
You’re almost different somehow
From all the rest that is
You care about me before all else
That means more than anything these days
In your arms I feel protected and safe
In your eyes I see Gods faith
You've changed everything that’s unfortunate
Into something that’s so great
Your better than my haunting past
I'm relieved of his pain at last
You've patched the wounds
Erased away the pain
And showed me who I need to be
Britney Hogue
100
Whenever Did We Fall
Where did we go so wrong
Whenever did our feet fall
Life wasn’t always perfect
But at least it’s better than today’s
Why did we find ourselves so deceased
Not only our health but our souls as well
How did we become such liars and stealers
Taking from the poor only for the rich
Was it when freedoms went away
Or when abortion was just ok
When the same married same
Or when under God was done away
Where did we go so wrong
So crime was just a game
And pain was just the way
Whenever did we fall apart
Why are thing so wrong
So twisted and strained this way
Life should be a sandy beach walk
Not a marathon spring to the end
When did we became so ill
And is it too late for the antidote
Are we sinking so low in much
That we will never stand tall again
Britney Hogue
101
Who Knew
Who knew a soul as mine
Could be brought down
To this, a painful death
By only one individual
My soul was as such
Dying a slow painful death
As a result of an others affairs
I must say I was darkly blind
Or was I just completely numb
Unable to feel the burning wounds
Or unable to see the gaping holes
These he in vainly created
The night he went with another
And the year leading to it all.
Who knew a soul as mine
Could be mended so quickly
And brought back from the brink
By only one individuals love
This such was my own
When I met the only one
Who was but my other half
It must have been the bond
Or was unconditional love
That erased the deep scars
And sealed the bleeding holes
This my lover performed
On a spring moonlit night
As our souls walked side by side
Britney Hogue
102
Wild Horses
We run free, our hearts and souls,
As free as the cool night air.
Our hooves thunder across the earth.
Our manes flow like the river.
We are wild. We are free.
We keep our families at our flanks:
Protecting, loving, and caring.
We live off the land that we were bred,
And never ask for more than given.
We are wild, We are free.
We rest among the greenest pastures.
We drink in the coolest streams.
We sleep under the brightest stars,
And reside in glorious mountains.
We are free, We are horses.
Britney Hogue
103
Your Not In Vane
I know how it feels,
Like you can’t go on.
The pain of the world
Has pushed you too far,
And now you can’t find your feet.
You hit rock bottom,
And the only productive things
Are the flowing tears.
I know you wish
All would go away forever.
You could spare yourself
From the world’s problems,
And end your seemingly pointless life.
What would that gain,
But just more pain and grief
For the ones you impact.
Don’t think nobody cares,
Because someone does.
Many people care a lot.
You’re just too blind to see them.
I care enough to write,
And take the time to understand.
God cared plenty enough
To make you for your life here.
We all have our purpose.
Some know just what to do,
But other haven’t discovered yet
The plans he has written.
One’s life is only in vane
If you choose to end it
By self inflicted casualty,
Otherwise you are needed in this life.
Britney Hogue