ALL POEMS ADRYAN ROTICA

Poetry Series
Adryan Rotica
- poems -
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Adryan Rotica
I heard myself asking you,
''What is this special magic
you weave Adrienne''?
And you replied
''It is US, that's the magic''
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- Black Elk Speaks
The power of the world
always works in circles.
The sky is round,
and I have heard
the earth is round
like a ball,
and so are all the stars.
The wind,
in its greatest power, whirls.
Birds make their nests
in circles,
for theirs is the same religion as ours.
The sun
comes forth and goes down
in a circle
The moon does the same.
And both always come back
to where they were.
The life of man is a circle
from childhood to childhood.
And so it is in everything
where power moves.'
Adryan Rotica
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* David
Your name still echoes
in starsgems,
cool against
inky blackness
where space looks at earth
and earth peers back at me
inside your binary planets
blue as frost, melting me
to an overture of mossy sodden
stones, drenched
in tune to our winter stream
while hickory breaths
steal away our silence
filling lungs deep into
our hearts
merging warmth
as we break our
stony crosses
and love so wholly
in the freshness of
our youth.
(For D.H., Wilkinsonville, Mass.; ''Qualm'')
Copyright ©2004
Adryan Rotica
5
A BOOGY MAN
He's a Romanticin
love with his
own spontaneous
vivacity and creativity
in his mind
he convienced himself
he loves you with
such reverance
You trust him
think he is a good
and beautiful man
believe he is someone
you know very well
and he knows you
inside and out-
He knows you alright!
He knew exactly how
to fool you
professing
that without you
there is no life
only existance
playing you
and your heart-strings
until you are opened
touching every fiber
to hum quivering
vulnerable, aching
in trust and blind love
until he's drained
himself of you
He leaves
you scared
as deep as
any scar can go
then doesn't know
what's wrong with you
or want to know
or understand
why you are so
enraged and hurt
and acting like
a lunatic, because
he doesn't care
and never did!
He had his fun
now, he's done
He loves you
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when he loved you
and when he's done
he doesn't remember
who you are
or what he said
just tells you
he's someone
who loves deeply.
Adryan Rotica
7
A DIVINE SPIRIT IS IN THE AIR
I never imagined
what a strong
influence you could have
over my entire life,
but it came thru us
and it was big.
How a few months
swept us away;
completely off the planet.
Between us
were hidden forces
that drew us together....
Such a force of recognition,
as if we knew one another
from another lifetimeas
if I had waited
to be born, just for you.
How natural it was -
so whole, so complete,
so safe, so totally loved.
How could I discredit
this mysterious gift?
This is why I protect
what was our gift in this life.
Now I have to let you go,
and I know what fate comes
with letting you go completely.
I will never come close to you
or hear from you ever again
and that, saddens me to the bone.
Time will eventually
take you away from me completely...
I can feel you forgetting me
as I write this
like a half remembered dream
upon rising,
eventually, I will be forgotten.
This thought,
that we will never be a part
of one another’s lives again
is heart wrenching.
So for now, I spend my days in tears.
This will pass, eventually.
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... but my heart, will never forget.....
(my heart will never forget You) .
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
9
A gleam of silent bliss
In the eyes of the mouth,
there is a silence
that I wish, I could mount on a shelf
of domestic quiet
to be understood by the heart of another
unfettered by wordsas
volumes are spoken,
without words
Copyright ©2010
Adryan Rotica
10
A Lesson From My Soul's Soul~
This is
the direct
feeling
with being
in the state
of illusion....
Songs
and
poems
are written
trying to
describe
the
indescribable....
therefore,
we are all
suspended
in a force
which has
no words....
Plant
a seed
and you
will know
what lies
beyond
the
ordinary....
I give you
the gift
of seeing
for the first
time....
Twelve Apostles
sat
next to
a man....
They ate
and
broke bread
together....
These men
are said
to have been
devotees....
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What
were they
following?
''Follow me
and I will
show you''....
but, what
we see
is not
interpreted
the same way
twice....
nor through
12 sets
of eyes....
So,
the only teacher
is
the one
who sits
on top
of your
head.....
You see,
no one
follows
the same
path....
Sorrow
follows
desperation
and
defeat...
To surrender,
is
to pass thru
the blood
and the
pain....
There is
only one
individual
who is
standing
12
with you....
Walk
in the dark,
in the light,
trudge
the path
alone....
Peace....
go find
your peace
and share
that
indescribable
envy
with others....
but
do not
try to
sway them
by boasting
triumph....
Just be...
and
the example
is set.
Copyright ©1995
Adryan Rotica
13
A Musing
Thoughts come
rising
without warning
traveling
through rich scented earth
and wet grass
inhaled, slowly
way down to my feet
and out through
my deeply embedded toes
that throw off
shimmers of dew
that glisten on trees
and alight the horizon
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
14
A New Way~
I've had enough
I've come undone
now every little thing's become
a trouble to attend to
I'm tired of waiting for the right time
tired of waiting
for the time to come
I'm going to fly away
and find a new way
it's just a new way
So many years have
come and gone
and still I feel
we don't belong
I'm getting ready
I'm going to fly away
and find a new way~
It's just a new way.
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
15
A Poem for You
What can I say
to erase the wilt
I cause within
your heart
that beats
for mine
and only wants
to be freed
not entangled
in this snarly vine
What can I say
to take it all away?
Except, I love you
Adryan Rotica
16
A Recipe For Love?
I'v been
skinned alive
de-boned
filleted
skilleted
devoured
digested
shat out
and forgotten
Adryan Rotica
17
A Song For You
When I am thinking
alone in my room
I get this feeling
you're thinking it too
and maybe I am wrong
to think this in my head
when my heart
sings this song for you
Some thing inside me
tells me I have met
a friend beside me
but only time can tell
and maybe I am wrong
to think this in my head
when my heart
sings a song for you
Loosing myself
in the clutter of attraction
Playing is fun
it's a matter of reaction
but maybe I'm wrong
to think this in my head
when my heart sings this song for you
when my heart sings this song for you
my heart sings this song for you.
Copyright ©2010
Adryan Rotica
18
a word to the wise
All wise men, within this world
need not say, a single word
because they, are like you and me
Tall and proud, they appear to be
but not in actuality, because they
are afraid, just like you and me
They have found, the golden key
to the universal mystery
and yet they,
are like you and me
We all weave, a web in life
we are all a strand
building all our lives
in the air (in the air)
All that's good, is within your heart
you can lead your life, from that very spot
if you want (that's if you dare)
All wise men, within this world
bleed and cry, just like you and I
they are, only human
Adryan Rotica
19
Ajax
that magic smell of
burnt wood
hangs over the antiseptic snow
as we walk and pull our sleds
the dog is
smiling and running
off a blinded white cliff drift
aerodynamically flying
into a snowy bank
that launches us
into laughter so hard
we can hardly stand
the fridged air
ripping through our chest
but the pain
is pure pleasure
as we make our way
to find
our faithful companion
buried up to his teeth
seeing only his
black eyes
poking thru the white
Adryan Rotica
20
Align
Spread your wind around the earth
divide the elements and sleep deep tonight
midlight delights will find a way back
the circle is not complete yet
when stillness envelopes and clears a path
the teacher will be, something unsuspected
Copyright ©2009
Adryan Rotica
21
Angel
An angel came to my door
I can't believe she heard my prayers
Reaching out her fine hand
she pointed to the dream I had
Guiding me onto a road
that takes me on my way-
Can this be?
''Just believe in yourself''
is what she had to say
''You're the obstacle who
is standing in your way''
Switched a gear
now I'm ready
loose the fearbecause
the time is here
Here I go
Adryan Rotica
22
Anger of a Warm Heart
Feeling hunted
striped to the bone
pared down by
your intentions
my anger
nourishes my proud heart
with a heart
that senses
your tenderness
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
23
Another Day
A mid light sun
douses dreams,
beating on
these eye lids
that flutter
awakened
to a palpable
hugged pillow
of half remembered
dreams
as this new day
rises
I rub away
the sleep
to face another day
until I close
my eyes again
to regenerate
the gleam
that shines
thru me
to shine upon
another day.
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
24
As a Butterfly
Winged
and dragoned
this flame flutters
kissing flowers
in a mystic dance
that exhudes youth
filling a cup
rich and fertile
with golden amber
open
beautiful
illuminating
a heart
intertwined
in a universe
destined
to burn her out
as she flies
over the land
and floats
above
the ground........
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
25
As A World
I dedicate this poem to Arsiema Berhane in response to her poem, ''War''
Children,
are the joyous praise
of our wealth.
Woman, we
are only just
beginning to
understand
the recognition
of progress
over our bodies
to achieve
rapid growth
of improvement
in the idea of
harmony, tolerance
and virtue
that puts out
an idea
with good intentions,
rewarding
global concerns
as an ideal.
Valuing human life,
encourages faith
as a basis for
recognition of this
relationship that
values people
as individuals,
not merely existing.
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
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Atlantic God
diving into
your mighty flesh
you are the tide
catching me
allowing my skin
to breathe
following currents
into the depths
we flow
swallowing sounds
churning light
spun with jades
translucence,
we glow godlike
astray in this place
that feels like heaven.
Copyright ©2008
Adryan Rotica
27
Au•ric•u•lar Archaeologist
Perked ears
listen for
audible wordslike;
Archaeological
treasure seekers,
picking through the underside,
to find artifacts
only of, ''Picasso Greatness'' ~
These audible diggers
steal off and away
with impressions, poised in timeto
later speculate on
their fresh new discoveries,
and maybe write poetry.
Adryan Rotica
28
Australian Rust
Stone age people
in a modern day world
whose desert home
makes red earth
sweat dry blood
and dissipate
across arid land
''Away from away, from time''...
Inland is lost and found
where mana beats
dreamtime drums
for these rusty
time-worn inhabitants
Adryan Rotica
29
Autumn
in shushed shuffles
of weather beaten
sound,
swirling around
the feet of trees
whipping
up the faint aroma
of decaying leaves
that ride on their backs
with the breeze
moving spectrums
falling
in burnt hues
that warm and reach
muscles, held tight
in inhallation
a breath, that takes
you to this
almost forgotten
freshness, deep
within lungs and lingers
for a moment,
before it brings
exhallationa
breath that hangs
breaking chilled air
filtered through
broken sunlight as it
trickles past, the arms
of Oaks and Hickory's,
illuminating autumn.
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
30
Bear Facts
I know
you don't mean to hurt me
with them big fat grizzly paws of yours....
'cause it's not your nature to be,
anything less than a bear.
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
31
Beautiful Dragonfly
Beautiful Dragonfly
flew into my heart
and cast a
cornucopia of
rainbows there
with her Love!
(written by my love)
Copyright ©2008
Adryan Rotica
32
Beauty in Imperfection
I'm a little bit airy fairy
but really, I'm not....
I'm much more powerful
than I let on....
it's what keeps me
accessible to people....
it allows them to relax
and just be
themselves
because with me....
it's ok, not to be perfect.
Copyright ©2008
Adryan Rotica
33
Bernard
i want to join you
on your journey away from pain
because the pain without you
is devistating
you are gone
and i don't know
if i will ever be the bright star
that you saw
i am gone
and don't want to continue
without you
you said, 'i made you complete'
yet I pushed you away...
i love you
and now that you have left this world
my world is no longer complete....
i am sorry
i never told you
what i saw in you
i saw, everyone i ever loved
we were family
my friend
my foe
my love
and now
my heart is disraught
Copyright ©2010
Adryan Rotica
34
Best China
This place and
all our encounters
are made of glass-
''fire it up''
with azure blue
and still
it is just a thin
wafer of joy
set up on a shelf.
''handle with care''
this sphere
is open for exhibit
but don't touch!
we guard ourselves
from being broken
loosing value
aware of cracks
chipped edges
when, ''quality counts'',
but only if you use
your best china
Adryan Rotica
35
Bicycle Cowboy
riding free
like a home boy on the range
he rode this hill, like it were his....
a straw cowboy hat, sat on his head
as natural as, a haystack in a field....
that's when I entertained that frivolous fantasy
where he'd been out all day, on the land
sweating and grinding those gears
up many a tedious terraine....
making a right, he turned his cycle,
that's when he started him coming my waywithout
even thinking, I yelled out to him
him, in his bare chested state,
''hey, where's your horse''?
pleasantly startled, he looked over my way,
surprised at first, but then he said
in a coy cowboy sort of way,
''thanks for noticing,
but I'm a modern cowboy''....
''oh, of course you are'', I remark
both of us grinning,
like two mud faced kids,
not knowing what else to do
in our perfect out of the blue
...then of course!
a second before
he was about to ride away....
a devilish smile
captured his earth blown face
''You wanna come ride with me later... tonite''?
I knew all too well, what he was insinuating....
but somethings are best to leave where it is
especially when we both got, exactly what we got....
we rode our fancy and neither one of us got shot
so to his gruff I flatly expressed,
''thanks, but no thanks, I got to work later''.
Copyright ©2008
Adryan Rotica
36
Big Apple
I grew up
in the ''Big Apple''
'almost traded
my soul for gold-
'people check out
your shoes first
before asking
how you are doing
and if they decide
you're ''worth'' talking to
they always ask
''So, what do you do''?
and if they are
impressed with that
you'll hear all about
Jeffrey,
who is a doctor
Adryan Rotica
37
Birds of a Feather
You bring grace
and healing to all
In tenderness
you move in and out
of people's lives
elusive but dynamic
You are
the essence
that enables
us to
transcend the world
in which artists stand
It is love
you transpire
Inspiring creativity
supporting
celebrating
encircling hearts
with a deep
quiet wisdom
that is forever
alive and radiant
(dedicated to J.H.)
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
38
Bitter Bonnie
I don't mind
sharing time
until you
step on mine!
Stay away
from who I am
you're in my face
you crossed the line!
I don't mind
sharing time
until you
step on......
Don't feel so free
to f- -k with me!
I'm not your friend
I hate pretense!
This game,
will not
be
played~!
Copyright ©2009
Adryan Rotica
39
Bittersweet Tragedy
A picture speaks a thousand words
isn't that what they say?
In every photo of (you and me) us
you're always pulled away
or giving me that sideways glance
as if my presence is pretence
I see it all so clearly now
since momma passed away
as if she was the only link
holding us together- or
is it that I frighten you with
the truth, I see inside you?
I am the families conscience
in every pore I breathe, I see
wolves, they come around you now
the old dogs of hierarchyswaying
you
it's you and themthey'll
pull you down into the muck
and have you crucify me
the one who loves
and thinks
only of your best interestbut
I am, too far away,
a mere inconveience
too much effort to continue
on with our relationswhat
makes me saddest
is, I know
you severed tieswithout
a word or argument
and just stopped caring
Copyright ©2004
Adryan Rotica
40
Black Love
Dominated
I've learned to
control emotions
to forget to feel
any emotion
at all
Blackmailed
so I won't go
ties me
to this situation
Imprisioned within
does not allow me to
let down barriers
so you have me
all to yourself now
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
41
Black Sunday
One moment you were here
and in an instant
you were gone
Head hung in a noose
eyes popping out
tongue hanging out
You extinguished
your life force
Love was not
enough
to kill the pain
that was killing you
in slow degrees
''Complete''
was not enough
with the girl
who made you feel
alive
and blind with love
It was not enough
to kill the pain
that made you
die a horrible
death
So I am left
with the pain
that you tried
to get rid of
Six months
of awful
suffering
and self torment
''I couldn't save you''
on the day of
your independance.
Copyright ©2010
Adryan Rotica
42
Bohemian Oasis
I'm going to blow this house
of vengence
It's a ''One Man Saloon'''
this ''Bohemian Oasis''
getting me high, high, high
on my own company -
This is -
where the world has got
a place for me -
and I'm not saving myself
or wasting myself
because it is NOW!
To take up space
there is no time
'because times like these
don't annoy me -
in this Bohemian Oasis.
Copyright ©2009
Adryan Rotica
43
Boode
i've seen it in your eyes,
we feel all yes....
and....yes, is all there is.........
nothing planned....
just a thing like sleepin'
it feels so good....
like high school poppers would....
You are with me in a dream....
here you are.........
so I try to pretend...
it's all pretend....
like the way that we came....
but when voices met the sound in my heart....
how could i ever betray.....
the familiar beaten path that we're on.....?
i can't help myself~!
Copyright ©2010
Adryan Rotica
44
Booz-wa-zee Bohemian
a treble with
his own beatthis
cultured
collective
''snap your fingers''
connoisseur,
melds himself
into an eclectic
creature
then considers
himself
a unique outcaste
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
45
Born 1959
...the end of the 50's era
1969 my fingers learned the peace sign
1979 two years fresh out of high school
1989 migrated to the land down under (Australia)
1999 where the hell am I?
2009 what's next?
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
46
Breaking the Spell
I danced with Beelzebub
I gave him my body
my love
my filth
my twisted
strangulated
poisoned
love
and he killed my soul
but, I gave him love.
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
47
Broken People
Why do people pretend?
There's no recognition
They walk right by
as they lie,
to themselves.....
Broken people run away....
Make themselves islands,
beautiful and safe
'Keep Off The Grass'
'Stay Away'.....
But I,
am not,
the enemy-
Things get old
and people get cold
when they bury their heart....
They close them away
and put them,
in the dark
Broken people push you away
can't look you in the eye
and have nothing to say...
and want you to feel,
less than you are
Even when, you open
your heart.....
If I came to you,
would you sail away?
Feel the wind on your smile
or dig a mote
around your heart....
Broken people break your heart,
'cause nothing you do
seems to matter at all
Things get old,
and life just rolls
So I guess
I won't play,
on your island-
Copyright ©2010
Adryan Rotica
48
Brooklyn NY
Our hearts are in the kitchen
we talk with our hands
we yell down from our windows
we laugh even louder
we hug
we eat
we kiss
''fa-get about it''
that's our neighbourhood
Bensenhurst,
it's the place
where everyday life
is good 'enough reason
to celebrate.
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
49
California Dreamers
Driving the Boxter
looking the part
making deals
on mobile phones
violating egos
desperados
live in extreem
desperate to trigger
'lucky charms'
mostly glitter
as nostalgia burns
under a battlefield
of stars
Adryan Rotica
50
Cat Girl
Cat girl~
lives in her paper doll world
snipping, slicing with her pen
linking slivers
pulling them
wider than arms reach
folding it up
folding it out
she'll do it again and again
'till finally
she sets it down
against the floors horizon
where 3D worlds spin
and tell tales of woe and foe
'till finally
it turns to dough
and so she makes bread.
Adryan Rotica
51
Celebrate
Come dance on the moon
where the waves touch the shore
and cling to the stars
when our arms reach the sky
Here we are, with the sun on our backs
and a passion that moves the way that we are
Taking time to rekindle the love
that gave us the spark to continue on
As midnight blends to dawn,
a new day begins to carry on
Shine in a light, that bathes day and night,
together we'll dance and celebrate!
You and I are like fireflies
the heat of our wings, could make a fire
so dance on a wave and sing with the stars
and together we'll flutter on and on
Copyright ©2004
Adryan Rotica
52
Centrifugal Force
She blows into town
and brings AIR
for everybody -
Her freshness
takes them out of
their way
''Splendid Inspiration''....
defies the laws of
centricity -
They breathe
as for the very first time
Newly born
Thankful to be alive -
Screaming
with vibrant awareness
that this, is their
bountiful frontier -
Grace
has stricken them.....
and it all comes
when she enters the town.
Copyright ©2009
Adryan Rotica
53
Claudia
Little sister, always big
teased me, when I got my tits
kidded me, when I cried
took care of me, when I was sick
loved me, when no one else did
worried for me, when I did not
made me look good, when I had no taste
did what you could, just because
now it is you, who is reaching out
assuring me, that you'll be alright
when I know, you are terrified
this front you pose, I see right thru
and makes me love you even moreyet
the words that flowed so effortlessly
won't come to me now, when I need them
I am dieing inside, knowing
what you will boldly be enduring
as doctors probing tests confirm
their prognosis; cervical cancer
Claudia, my strength is with you
and my prayers sing out
to hold you up and surround you
with all the love that is inside me
reaching further than the universe
I love you
Copyright ©2008
Adryan Rotica
54
Cock A Roach
there's a cock a roach
in our cabinets
kill it...
kill it...
I killed it
does that make me
a bad person?
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
55
Colors
From the moment I met you
I felt your colors shine thru
it's not the things you said
or what you do
All of the ways You Are
All of the dreams You Are
All of the days You Are....
Colors
When I first met you
it felt like all my colors
came pouring thru
something inside of me
felt new
All of the ways You Are
All of the dreams You Are
All of the days You Are....
Big Man
Spirit Man
Cool Man
True Man
Devil Man
Healing Man
Free Man
You Man
Colors
Copyright ©2009
Adryan Rotica
56
Corn Maiden
Listen closelyto
a cornfield
for it speaks
in low hushed tones
to soothe the leaves
that rustle in
deep knowing whispers
of a time
in an age
when lightening could
kidnap and stow you
below the earth
as did happen to
the ''Corn Maiden''
who still
to this day
is held captive
under this ground
where animals
continue to help
dig her out
so she can
burst out into the sun
and be ready
to feed the world.
Adryan Rotica
57
Courage Under Fire
they'll
fall away
one by one
as strands of you
milk the moments
you had
for what they were worth,
still smouldering
in the hand
even though
you knew
in your hearts mind
that
it was pretence
as they smiled
behind soft
contemptuous lips
that offer you
quiet resentment
instead of love
just because
you breathe
and are
uniquely you,
and that
makes them
uncomfortable
against their
square jawed
perfect,
materialistic plan
that can't afford
you
but can
their every whim
which makes them
sorely aware
of their
superlative selves
so they
push you away
thinking
you are less
then them
because
you don't fit
but you keep
steering steadfast
in the sanctity
of truth
inside of trust
as the most valuable
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integer
and they fear
''your being''
because
through you
they see
themselves
impoverished,
and their superior
ways collapse
in blind belief
as they continue
to make spaces
''for time''
more than sharing
or listening
or caring
for anyone else
because
what they want
is never enoughso
let them fall away
to be left
as dust
when matter
does not matter
and when you are
feeling raw and
naked and
real
then you can
afford
the comfort
of being
with another
and that is
what is true
and right
and real
and what you
are all about.
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
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Crossing Over
up and over now
she's goneleaving
you
guiltyfor
treating her
like an old fool
conflicting
love with hate
taking away
more than
dignity
it tookswallowing
her soul
to do what she could
to help you run
even though
every sentence
was her sentence
in total devotion
every day
never wavering
in honourable
service
she lived
existing
on the rest of her
days
worrying
about the
state of you
who
so unfortunately
caught on
too late,
to reconciliatewhen
all she wanted was
a brief acknowledgment
for the beauty
freely given
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Adryan Rotica
60
Cruel Love
a deeper love
I could never contemplate
but it formed, non the less
into a spectrum
of impossible love....
how beauty unfolds
and burns
into your skin....
then it's over
just like that!
how cruel mother nature is.....
she put us together
just to keep herself amused.
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
61
Cuba
There's nothing like a
''Black Market Meal''-
every bite tastes
so delicious.
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
62
Culinary Fairytale
Festering anger, sitting in a pot
simmering slowly, surface bubbles go pop!
Quietly blurping, suppressing its ooze
stays in the kettle while it stews.
Then temperature rises and contents move faster
spilling it over and ruining the past.
First burns the bottom, which starts to smell
then it thickens, turning to gel.
It's gloppy explosive bubbles erupt
scalding any object or person that's not
out of its way-
Continuing to sputter, it throws about
until most of its contents, are out.
Sides smoulder, smoke starts to rise
the odour is foul, it's burning your eyes.
Chest feels infected, it hurts to breath
and blisters erupt, where they caught debris.
''This is horrid'', you hear yourself say
when you catch a glimpse, of a doorway.
Through the cloud you instinctively go
reaching out for the knob, even before you are close.
It's flat, it's hard, hand moving around
then finally you feel, a steely round mound.
A turn to the right, it's moving away
first crack of light, a brilliant array
filtering through, billows of grey
streaming in arrows of conquering rays.
No longer confined to a most certain fate
you step forward, and away.
Instantly bathed in a clearness of light
you no longer have, an urge to fight.
Your body ceases, to pain
the sensation so sudden, seems strange.
Looking around, there is nothing to see
just endless forever in front of thee.
''Could I be?
Just moments ago I was in misery
but now I am happier than ever before
what could have happened, stepping through that door''?
No angel greets you
No harps playing song
Only echoing silence
You are alone-
Turning to the once opened door
it's disappeared, it is no more.
Searching for answers, there are no clues
what in the world has become of you?
''Wait, what was that''? A break in the silence.
Relief sucks you in, it draws your attention
to its hollow darkness.
Wet splashes fall upon your face
then a burning sensation, your whole body aches
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while motion sways you, from side to side.
''There's sound! Wait it's ringing again''!
You know what it means, you understand.
''It's speaking, it's asking, ''are you alright'' ''?
''Who could this be''? You haven't the slightest.
Looking up into space, comes to focus
a face, whose gaze is puffy and red
from tears that were shed, when they thought you were dead.
Being rocked like a baby, slowly coming aware
that you're being cradled by someone who cares.
You try to distinguish the blur above
but all you can feel is intense pain and love.
''What happened...where am I'', you start to say
when the face now smiling says, ''shush, you're okay''.
''I found you here on the floor, your hand reaching out
toward that door.
I noticed you covered in blisters and sores
you must have been here, since the night before?
Somehow you managed, to hit your head
there was blood all over, I thought you were dead
but your mumbles assured me that you were alive
so I sat here and nursed you all day and all night.
Can I tell you something, now that you are okay?
FORGET ABOUT COOKING~ IT'S NOT YOUR FORTE''!
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
64
Damn Shame
Bellowing in the dust
of this theatrical middle of the road
this milk of the land
dire and eliptical
going maiden in the wounds
that breed the lives that
ride this life....
sailing in the blood
of us all
the way we ride this life
in nights of blazing cries,
seeks to survive
the violence of life's tide
sweet does not
calm down
the writhing sounds
of the way
we were taught
to believe
welcome to the night
that slips into the blinding light
of the wreathing slime
that is a damn shame
as a mighty penny
won't shine
because it won't buy
a piece of gum baby
you just try to be free,
it's the source of dignity
but war is a spinal tap of degees
and the letter in the mail says,
'your son is dead'
so it's all one big friggin
damn shame.....
Copyright ©2010
Adryan Rotica
65
Dead Poet Society
** ''Things fall down, people look up
and when it rains, it pours''...
...poetry, once written is dead
no sense beating it, over the head...
real poetry, runs through you…
you've got to do what you do
when you do what you do'!
Adryan Rotica
66
Death Becomes You
Do you really think
you are alive
in my heart?
Slumber away ghost
I've been saved
from harms way!
The guardian of love
threw me a melody
a new song
so sleep deep
in the chaos
you spun.
Copyright ©2008
Adryan Rotica
67
Death Reborn
You got Darkness in you Boy!
I see it in your eyes
I'm not here to save you
Only touch you
I am a demon of grace
the grace that scares you
my power is rich
it's in my soul
Your mistake
is that you came in-
I touched you first
with my sin
It's the rythm inside me baby
to reach a heart
For your heart is broken
so I'll tear it apart
I'm here to save you
with my sin
to reach inside you
and turn you to gold
You are man
because you deserve to be
just what you were born to be
So I'll lay up inside you
and tear you apart
I am the saviour
of your heart
Dynamic and strong
is who I am
so I'll reach up inside you baby
and make sure you're a man.
Copyright ©2010
Adryan Rotica
68
Decay
Show people
enough shit
and they'll start
to pick out
the good shit
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69
Defiantly Yours
Wilful ways
are ways by which
we weigh 'our ways'
then decide,
if 'your way'
is the 'right way'
so don't show us
the way!
Copyright ©2004
Adryan Rotica
70
Dental Wisdom
When we are young,
life smiles at us
with a perfect set of
pearly white teeth.
When we grow older,
every time someone
we love dies,
it's like having
one of those teeth
painfully extracted
If we reach old age,
when there are only
1 or 2 teeth left
when life smiles at us...
it looks pretty scary!
Adryan Rotica
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Desire
slowly, slowly licking me
with all your grand influence
your deceptive charms
behaved as fire,
igniting basic lower elements
in me, that burned white hot
with sultry desire
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Adryan Rotica
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devil king's song
devilish long elve's ears
douse the sun
selling darkness
seeth the soul
slimy elven hoves
slink on hard rock
in the benign seduction
of the sloath
long live the dark
godless king's
evils sss....truth
rein night skulls
and drain
snake blood
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Adryan Rotica
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Devotee
He is a holy man, I do not deserve
Opens his power to, the whole universe
I can not explain, the simple law
that makes me serve him, and follow his path
The question is, why can't we stand
together as, woman and man?
Why must I do, everything he wants me to?
Must he control everything inside my soul?
Where am I, what about me?
I won't loose myself, just to be
his devotee
Adryan Rotica
74
Diamonds in the Rough
Into the caverns of space and time
we are the keepers of great stories
like priceless jewels
buried in dark layers of soil and stone
we are here to live and love
and assist others by creating
new visions to inspire
What kind of world we live in tomorrow
depends upon the stories we weave
today
We are the light that shines
to guide those who will live after us
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
75
ditto
I am just a mirror
reflecting back
what you see
in yourself-
...in words
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Adryan Rotica
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Divorce
remembering the good times....
and then
actually untieing the knot
directs emotions to track back
the more undesirable delusion
of unhappiness in peril
tho the moments slipped by so slowly
it was the pain that kept us going
like at the end
some miracle would transform
the small tedious stirrings
to up start the ether world workings
to boom into splendor
yet when all reasons eliminate hope
of ever teleporting the pain away...
the direction must divide
and go in their own ways
Copyright ©2009
Adryan Rotica
77
Do You Believe?
Everything is magic,
'just you look and see
the way we've come together
it's no mystery
'everything about us,
is extra-ordinary
'just like the rain
when it falls
and the flowers
and the trees
do you believe,
everything is magic
it runs with the wind,
it brings you to your senses
where everything is clear,
and makes you see what's real
when the going gets tough,
don't rush,
just like the rain
when it falls
and the flowers
and the trees
do you believe,
everything is magic
it's not just meant
for me,
don't take it for granted
for one day
it may not be,
so if you feel alone
just open wide,
don't hide,
'just like the rain
when it falls
and the flowers
and the trees
Do you believe?
Adryan Rotica
78
Don't!
I wrote the book of ''Don't's''
Look at Me'
I'm the only one
who makes what Not to Do
work!
Copyright ©2009
Adryan Rotica
79
Doves
no one will ever
know this
about my life.
no one,
except You
from the outside
looking in,
no one
could possibly
understand, US
You were my gift
in this life-
I hold your heart
safe within me,
for the rest of my daysstill
pure as white snow
where no one
will ever tarnish
this sweet love....
this love that I will
cherish and honour
forever....
...wherever you are,
I am.
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
80
Dream Home
When I wake up from this dream
I will walk along the sea
to find my way home
Everyday I close my eyes
hoping to find
my way home
Home...home...
I'm looking way up a road
to a place where I can sow
the fruits of my dreams
There you are
standing next to me
I only hope that we
follow the same dream
Dream...dream...
Adryan Rotica
81
Dreamer
life is a dream
within a dream
within a dream...
and this dreamer
awakens
to sparkle
in this dream...
within a dream
I am just a dream...
within a dream
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
82
Dreams
I am away......
I am asleep!
Now I can feel the way.....
Now I can just go......
I am dreaming!
Copyright ©2010
Adryan Rotica
83
Drunk Devil Blues....
drink up baby
make yourself numb
milk every moment
for the life you've become
you love and extend
all that you are
and feed those around you
who know what what you pour
yet those who have known you
since you were born
try to stop you from growing
so that they feel important
so drink up baby
kill the pain
when you know you've become
the best that there is
yet family falls short
and treats you like trash
when they are the ones
who come up short
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Adryan Rotica
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EARTH BOUND
Where unhappiness
fills blackness
let me talk with you
under the silence of
a constellation
distant yet full of soul
we should stay connected
with the sky
that fills and isolates us
Adryan Rotica
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Elemental
Simple, basic and fundamental
that is beauty in form.
Crisp, clean, and classic
these are the sensual aspects
of life
Encouraged and nurtured
by the senses
color, look, smell, and taste
all douse our sensibility
with tactile elements-
Hold, touch, smell
all visceral
Our homes
incorporated with texture and color
make life an altogether
more spirited and
rewarding affair
Adryan Rotica
86
Energy & Vibration
'Nothing'
is the basis for religion
Just be
and do
what you feel
has the enormity
of power and grace
to take you
to where
you want to be.
Amen.
Copyright ©2010
Adryan Rotica
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Epiphanies
We have epiphanies
everyday,
then forget them
before recognising
them as 'epiphanies'.
Gone dialogsflow
one over the other
falling away
with little sighs
emeshed with subtleties
that speak truth
but rarely get noticed,
because we sleep
our dream of livingwhile
our
bitter sweet companions,
faithfully whisper
irretrievable secrets
in anticipation of
one brief momentwhen
we are awake.
Copyright ©2004
Adryan Rotica
88
Ernie
This little poem's
'bout a friend of mine
He was not human
he was feline.
Even though he was a cat
he meant so much to us.
''Oh Ernie, where did you go''?
Ernie was a friend of ours
he had all the personality
of a warrior cat.
He was always friendly
and he guarded our house.
''Ernie, where did you go''?
You used to sit on my chest
when I was sick or feeling down.
You thought you were protecting us
when you followed us
and meowed, ''hey watch out,
you're too far from home now''!
Ernie, we will miss your heart
your strong body
your strong life-force.
You were the best friend
that we ever knew.
''Oh Ernie, we love you''
Adryan Rotica
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eskimos
that is how we kiss
rubbing noses
lip locked
wrapped
in the heat
of our hearts
warm and
entangled
in polar
bliss
exchanging
breaths
that melt
our iglooed
hearts.
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
90
EVIL MAN
I should have seen
those horns
that lurk behind
your friendly mask
and hide your
sinister interior
A Predator
who eats hearts
with no concern
or responsibility
for the damage
that you cause
In truest love
I let you in
and I let you in
because I loved you
and you tricked me
with words that
play with power
and molest
false intent
to lasso in
and pry open
the depths of me
devouring
the most tender parts
then, like a thief
you steal the pearl
and violate
everything pure-
You are a master of deceit
a criminal of lies
a swindler of loves
sacred offeringsyou
are the Wolf
in Sheep's clothing
Adryan Rotica
91
Extremely Bad
The tuning is awful...
My singing is awful...
My playing is awful...
But I had an awful good time!
Copyright ©2007
Adryan Rotica
92
Fairy Blessing
If I had a magic wand-
I would wave it up in the air
to turn frowns upside down
and make laughter part
of everyday.
Ahh, if I only had
a magic wand.
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
93
False Evidence Appearing Real
It's just
the silence
talking.
Bouncing off
skull walls,
reverberating,
inside
information
so quickly
it has a
life force
all its own;
travelling
to the centre,
right through
to the pain.
How easy it is
to submit
to this
garbage
of the mind
where all that
grey matter
gets to
shuffle the cards
and have all the fun
when, usually
nothing bad
happens anyway.
Might as well stand
on your
human head
and let your feet
do the thinking
because
FEAR
always recognises
you
before your
wits do.
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
94
Figment Of Imagination
Thru this screen
you came
thru the channels
of ether union
two became one
like a cocoon
metamorphis
to life
like fire-flies
our wings made light
but then beauty
flies away........
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
95
Final Phase
Where did all the hippies go
to a Bohemian retirement home
where they play the
''Grateful Dead''
to soothe their aged
techno heads
contented living out their lives
like the poem in their mind
where Altruism isn't dead
just hidden in the mesh of time
Adryan Rotica
96
Finite
All I got to say
is poem hunters
have lost their prey'
you have all lost your
savy mink, that makes
you rich with wit
So I abandon this rink
where boring people
sink into the abyss
of lady love's delight
and fall into the bleak
abyss of ordinary flight
Blahhhhh....
Is what I have to say
go to where you should
away
into the bored minions
of the bleak
not brave
so send your children here
to mend
the out casted disillusion
you pretend to be
when they are on
this end.......
Good riddance to all your
flubberences....
when you try too hard to be
the real thing
Pretend if you must
it's your game
plahhhh....
I am at the end of this
godly kamikazi game
where you believe
the contents of your
brains.....
I am honing now
the next refrain
from telling you
to find a way...........
other than words
Copyright ©2010
97
Adryan Rotica
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Fish Out of Water
Submerged below
the surface
I swim and splash
like a water nymph
until you come
and scoop me out
of my liquid heaven-
I flip and flop
with stealing gasps
of crusading breaths
to live, live, live
so cast me loose
into the pond
where water is
art and writing
Adryan Rotica
99
For the One
To know the rhythm
of your days
by the clocks tickings
beginning softly
as your mornings rise
my heart still ticks
for the goodmornings
that will never come
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
100
Friend of the Devil
A monster coils
inside
each of us
waiting to strike
breathing
blistering vehement
through us
wanting
to come out
of seclusion.
You may not
see its face
but several times
you've met him
and turned
to stone.
Best to
understand himhe
is part
of you and me
and we are
all very much
the same
in anger.
Adryan Rotica
101
From A Wool-Basket
Teasing wool
from a wool-basket
spinning a thread
with trembling hands
instinct weaves
a ball of passion
at the navel
into yards of love
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Adryan Rotica
102
From the Bone
I am a woman of substance
you will learn,
eventually
you will learn
that what I say,
what I always say,
comes from
the best source
and in the end
truth, always shines
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
103
Funeral For A Friend
You burned your bridge
and laughed at flames
when they danced so pretty
beguiling you with trance
believing it gives me pain
feeding your soul
they made you believe
they were caustic and hurtful
these flames
that burn your heart
taking your air
making you
blacker than the hell you dream
You think you made me burn?
Unfortunately, what is
left are the ashes
of your cremation.
Copyright ©2008
Adryan Rotica
104
Genetically Modified
Man with a crab claw
baby with a snout
no more butterflies
G.M.engineered them out
testing, altering, sterilizing seeds
wipe out those pest infested fields
increase farmers annual yields
while money gets greener
gods creatures disappear
criss cross pollination
'humm, let's see'
feed it to the 3rd world's
hungry sufferinghuman
guinea pigs
sow and care
for seeds that won't
bare harvest next year
and generations later
we may see
our species changing
while we're still eating
delicious french fries
spliced with pig gene
now taste this
it will open your eyes
are we still human
or are we evolving
a new species
whose future will witness
physical changes
that start to resemble
a gathering at a
star trek convention
money gets greener
but in the process
we loose the balance
between man and nature
will there come a day
when we'll tell our
grand kids
'When I was young
I could save seedsput
them in the ground
and they'd grow for me'?
Copyright ©2004
Adryan Rotica
105
Goddess
She breaks with tradition
empowered,
with a heart at ease,
one with herself.
Independent, creative,
loving, stable, abundant,
she blesses those that come
through the gateway of life
with love, healing and protection.
She is the actual warmth
of the midsummer sun
that gives breath of life
to nature and the newly born.
Nurturing herself and others,
the flame of her
inner wisdom burns
with divine intelligence.
She is an empowered heart.
She is the force behind
the ancient gods.
2005
Adryan Rotica
106
Good Poet Bad Poet-Most of Us Are Green Poets
To draw a line
divide
contain
compartmentalise
give it a label
distinguish
what is ''suppose to be''
homogenises poetry
like packaged goods
in accord
with those self appointed
''cultivated''
whose sure assumption
makes clear
''some, just don't measure
up here''-
but here, is where
hearts are worn
exposed on sleeves
and vulnerable
steeped in wiled
oats sown
here, is where
the poets come
to explore minds
all artists writing
here, is where art
inspires
observed and absorbed
while unfolding
our own wondrous
voice withinall
green poets
all growing
upon this sacred
poetry ground
Adryan Rotica
107
GOODBYE
''Goodbye''
is just a word....
when there is no
love behind it
But when we fill
''Goodbye'' with love....
it becomes,
a life sentence.
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Adryan Rotica
108
Goodbye's Aren't Easy
listening to the river
of the mind
flow
flooding
thinking of
torturing
balancing
then guiding you
back to the cold
hard reality
it's over.....
goodbye's
never feel good
see you when I see you
feels better
in this case
it's never to see you
or hear from you again
which is the saddest
goodbye
to live with.
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
109
Goodnight
I am with you in the nights
when you believe
you are in slumber
so when your dreams
remember me
know....
it was not a dream.
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Adryan Rotica
110
grand people
It's cruel
that time has
given us
so little time together-
We would have liked eachother
there is so much
to tell me
about what you know
Adryan Rotica
111
Great Minds Always Encounter Violent Opposition
The Philosopher
The Analyst
The Seeker
The Poet
'discovering the
microscopic
core of things
has gifted you
with the ability
to separate
the true
from the false
Some may detect
'A Glow'
(refined and inspirational)
and some
may see 'A Demon'
(a degenerate enthusiast)
but one thing
for sureyou
have a powerful effect
on anyone
who enters your worldchanging
us
by accelerating the pace
of our own growth'.
Adryan Rotica
112
Growing Pains
Confusion and delusion
on everybody's mind
Look around you
think you've found you?
For a little while.
See the future
and you'll wonder
why you're here today
Look around you
think you've found you?
Start all over again.
Copyright ©2004
Adryan Rotica
113
Hate is Love, Standing on Its Head
No apology can bring back
what we had.
No action is evil enough
to destroy the intensity of
what we shared.
You hate me now.
You are angry with me,
but as time fades,
reflections of a great love
still exist inside you,
distant as it may be....
it survives.
Copyright ©2006
Adryan Rotica
114
Hell in a Handbag
YOU'RE GOING DOWN
rock on the inevitable
forgiveness....
never in my vocabulary
die the way you lived
give up
You're going down baby
you're going down, down, down
to meet your maker
Forget about the facade
you wear in life
you're going down, down, down.....
Copyright ©2008
Adryan Rotica
115
Home
The people I love
take me home...
I want to love you
on my way home...
because we love,
that is home.
Copyright ©2005
Adryan Rotica
116
Home is Where the Heart Is
We are a circle
where we roam
near or far
it is our home
we are home
Any place
we come to be
just remember
you're with me
where ever we are
we are home
(where ever we are
we are home)
There are times
you look so lost
stand with me
and be a part
of the home
in my heart
our home is
of the heart
Adryan Rotica
117
Hooked on Wisdom
'It's all set to test you'
says the fisherman
who looked at me
with a half mocked smile
and a devilish twinkle
in his eye
as he fished
where motorboats
sped by
scaring away the fish!
Adryan Rotica
118
Hound Doggie
The hound dog is
going to work
he is going to work
he is out there
running in the woods
he is going to work
he is going to work
he is ready
he is going to work
going to work
he is out there
he is going to work
going to work
he's the hound dog
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Adryan Rotica
119
human link
a call came thru today
from a woman
I hardly know who said
her girlfriends husband
hung himself
he had five children
and a wife
did it over financial strife
I gasped
then, wondered how,
someone I didn't know
had made me feel
a mourning
''why make a drama
out of a crisis'', I thought
then it hit me
like, ''a ton of bricks''-
what I was feeling
was the ''link''
that connects us together
as human beings.
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Hummingbird
tiny wings
beat
fanning a buzz
that hovers
a single flower
held in my hand
that holds
a desert bouquet
while my eyes
witness
this mini oyster
of bliss
this fairy
caresses me
with a bellowed
breeze
from wings
that flash purple
irredecent crested
sweetness
that thirstily sips
nectar milked
unaware
that its
wonderousness
fills me
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Hungry Ghosts
We are Hungry Ghosts
of the poetry world
feeding off of
carefully picked words
never seeming to eat enough
to satiate our appetites,
discriminately browsing
to discover
the most delectable
predators
whose carcass morsels
taste most divine
on the tongue
than any other
feast we've eaten
but hunger
never seems to wane
and doesn't fill
the space within
our wondering souls
left to exist
on other ghostly banquets
that we attend
in thin veils
of dust and vapour
where, at every table
we meet
professional diners
who write
editorials on what
they've consumed
of blood, bone and marrow
some have even taken up
following earthbound cats
to lead them down
some meaty paths
where stuffing filled vocabulary
and pate' imagery
temporarily fill
a voidthen
back again
for another serve
of verse
too rhymed
it tastes of slime
and so, we throw
that one awayto
hunt another.
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I Am Right
You are
my left side
always
I am snug,
tucked in a kiss.....
we are air tight
You and I
I have not kissed
you enough.......
I am
your right side
always
with me
you'll never worry
you are
why I was born
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Adryan Rotica
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I don' t know
I don't know what to tell you,
no I don't know what to tell you...
I don't know what to tell you,
anymore......
It seemed like yesterday,
the world was ours to take...
now the years have passed
and gone, gone, gone
are the dreams
that make us strong...
So I, don't know what to tell you,
i don't know what to tell you....
no I don't know what to tell you,
anymore,
anymore.
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Adryan Rotica
125
I don't know
I don't know about anything any more
times like these
I want to walk right out that door
it's used to be, Heaven Sent
now you only put me
to the test'
So, I don't know anything anymore
You leave me to decide
what's got to be got
so You can go and do
whatever you want
I've got the weight of the world
on my head
so you can close your eyes
and meditate
so, I don't know anything anymore
no, I don't know anything anymore...
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I don't mind
I live a life with danger
I live a life with crime
I live a life with strangers
but I don't mind
no, I don't mind........
'cause when I go and
close my door
the world comes to
an end.
I don't really need to know
of economic crisis
or political injustice
in our world gone wrong
I don't mind
no, I don't mind........
I just go into my room
I sing a song then
pretty soon
it takes me to my bliss.
I live a life with darkness
I live a life with unrest
I live a life with confusion
but I don't mind,
no, I don't mind.......
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I Feel
....out of place
i don't know how I fit
I don't want to hide,
but I am already hiding
....where did I go?
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I Just Want to Burn Out
Passionately
Burning brightly
Full Throttle
Full Hilt
Until the end
of time.....
with you.
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I LOVE YOU
I trust you
I share
with you
what I would
with no other
I give you
all I have to give
I believe
in this love
in our love
in my love...
for you
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I Watch In Disbelief- A Hypocrite
Just like the preacher
(Jimmy Swaggart)
telling everybody about the injustices
in the world and about sinand
then, he's fucking
a hooker a half hour later.
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If you want a better life for your children-
No matter where we are
or how farbe
home for dinner
It all begins at the table
How we prepare our food
How we eat it
How we interact
all reflect, how we
interact in the world
If you want a better life for your children-
Cook.
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Illusionary Attraction
Her freshnessmeets
him
at the scent.
hungry for her
he listens
intently
for fear of missing'
a line
her words are
worth rescuingthey
sway in the breeze
inside his head
while the night air
makes
strange alterations
to the spark
that brought them together.
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Immobilised
Slick SMS text
message checkers
speak in hieroglyphics
as mobile lives
become immobilised
by timeless time
less time for time
working more
to make more
so we can work less
to play more.
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In the Line of Fire
Silver bullet zings
its sling
across - the air
catapulting into
harms way
Aiming horizontally
to pierce
the heart.
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In the process writing...
Sometimes ''we'' write the words
and sometimes,
we just write them down.
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In this moment
right here
right now'
in this state
no pressure
no moral discernment
just evolution in its prime
for all eternity
is with me
right now
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In Your Face
When it takes
'in your face truth'
I am right at the helm
of ruthlessness
I will make your day hell
as long as I feel, I am in the right
and usually, I am.....
Power screws youelectric
plans
don't renew you
You are in a factual
rouined
by the mind that thinks
it can sustain
the actual intentplans
go to waste
when there is
a good girl
at your sidefooling
yourself
you hide
into believing
that pologamy
is what makes you real
Baby....
there ain't no senses
to give you what you
already have
so pretend all you want
I am the best thing
you ever got
Yeah, playing is a game
but when you weigh it
there ain't no gain
stick with me babe
I'm not the same
as those babes
you think you need
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Incarnate
You have to feel it.
You have to remember.
Go back, go back, go back, go back
Go back to the Back Road-
You can see it in your face,
we can feel what you were feeling
You are feeling it right
now.
You are an old soul
but you are young
in the way you see the world.
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Incense
unsettled
spirits
doused by
jasmine
winding filaments
rise
on perfumed
coils of
euphoric air
filled
to enter
and swell
a heart
open
to the doors
of heaven.
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INCESTUOUS
My father
The Emperor
we were companions
After all,
we had a sexual relationship
I expected you to be married...
but, I loved you my father,
as one who devotes his love
to loving his daughter.
I kept secret,
the fantasy of our erotic dreams-
Pleasures, arousing
pure love, in our sexual behavior
between light and dark
A father and his daughter-
Look into my body father-
I was your temple
to sanctify
a divine love, between Us.
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Incredible Lightness of Being
Breathe...the corner stones of truth
Erode...the armour to become light
Untie...yourself from earthly bonds,
for only there are their delights.
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Indeciveness
Do it
no don't do it
okey do it
wait, don't do it
yeah, do it
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Individual
don't walk with the crowd
don't watch t.v.
own your own thoughts
and ideas
be the last of
a dieing breed,
be an individual.
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Information Age
Anything you want to know?
You have the information
right at your fingertips-
...they are so far ahead of
anything we are thinking
The future
Catches us,
pumping our brains
with enhancing Pro-Formance
Anything
you need to know
is at your fingertips-
How much do we need
to know for our recovery?
Is there such a thing as
too much information?
For me, I' m in a new phase-
Probably ahead of my time...
I'm on a, not need to know basis
Anything I need to know
comes to me.
Adryan Rotica
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Inside Our Head
Climb the highest mountains
walk though gorges
and frightening terraine
inside your headthe
physical world
keeps spinnng
'round and round
and round and round
but the mind shapes
the world we live in
inside our headexpand
horizons
open up
set yourself freeclimb
high
high
high in the sky
of your head
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Inspiration
You are here to guide me~
You are here to guide me~
You are here to guide me~...
We are inter-connected
by this lowly instinct
''A Love Supreme''...
just a lowly survival,
that travels
too fast to be caught,
hanging around in
this distant X-Panse!
Only by Inspirationand
that is only
the half of it.
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Instamatic Camera
We met
in a dream~
two strangers
sitting on a couch
waiting together
while I fixed
an old camera
to pass the time.
The tiny screws
almost fell through
the cracks of my fingers
until you rescued them,
cupping your hands
under mine.
So I watched you
put together the
minuscule workings,
so patiently
and, it was
in that moment
that I loved you,
and in that moment
you turned to me
and said,
''you are beautiful''
and I thought,
''the beauty he sees,
is a reflection of
what I'm seeing in him,
in this moment''.
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Adryan Rotica
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Internal Photo Album
The stills,
of you
flicker
clicked
in a static
collection
of moments
mirrored
behind my
eye lids
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Into Focus
Image
renders
into
a
tightly
fixed
optical
refractionnarrowing
briskly
into
contrated
sharp
detail-
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it's here
a few strokes
took us
where sight
is pure mind
and age,
is a non entity.
this presence
is soul
meeting soul,
a union
that breathes
tendrils
spoken
in words
of gentle love
that inspires
and renews
passion
thru sensual
imagery,
in this place
that 'kisses'
two lives.
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Adryan Rotica
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It's So Fu-kin Ridiculous
No Art exhists
people are too afraid
to speak
love and all it's estacy
are all that exhists?
truth and what that means
is just too much to remiss
turn your head
and don't mind me
I may just be on
someone's list......
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Adryan Rotica
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It's the Vibe
Get out of your way...
Dreams need room to flourishtrust
your decisions
Vision, motion,
freedom of expression
take you away
from being a slave
of circumstance
Movement
always needs to
be guided
by a sense of direction
Put it all together
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Adryan Rotica
153
It's the Weekend
we're having a heatwave
so slide over
we're leaving this city
'on our way to the coast
it's the only way
to escape this heat,
sitting bumper to bumper
on the way to the beach!
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Adryan Rotica
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Joan of Arc
My hair is shorn
In mourning-
Cut to a boyish crew
The way you like it-
As penance burns
For the passion served-
This crusader
Is at the stake-
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Joe the Barber
''Hey, Joe how was your day today''?
''I saw everyone from first haircuts
to a ninety three year old''
''Wow, you really should write a book someday''
''Hum, that's not a bad idea''
''If you write one, what would you call it''?
''''From Diapers to Diapers''''
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Adryan Rotica
156
Joy~!
If people dance
a little more,
sing a little more,
be a little crazier,
their energy
will be flowing more
and their problems
will by and by
disappear
OSHO
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Just Be It
Green mossy stone
found in its mossy depths
amidst ivy
speaks with a quiet
but persistent voice
of secrets
and mysteries
that elude others
underestimated;
but,
should not be overlooked.
One who loves nature,
and is gently aware
of its subtleties,
has ‘their ear
close to the ground’,
silent to hear
the voice of
the inner heart.
Created from
the mother stone,
on firm ground
is the abundance
of the universe,
with a rare heart,
transcending joy.
She is a generous heart.
A spiritual teaching.
Just Be it.
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Just Give It All
When I was young
I knew that I had
something to give
but I didn't know what
life would bring
it was so hard
finding the thing
that made a difference
coming 'round
I have found
nothing is, what it seems
everyone's lost
it's just a dream
being here now
is all that matters
give it away
there's nothing to keep
'cause the best thing in life
is just giving time
Everything's lost
when you are in it
nothing to loose
not even your shadow
just give it all
wherever you are
there's no where to go
except where you're standing
'cause the best thing in life
is just giving time.
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Just Imagining
Out of the blue
in my imagination,
I saw a taxi pull up
and out stepped a man.
I could not ignore
this recognition,
because it made
my heart beat faster.
My body soared
out the door
in what seemed
like an instant.
I was beside you
all sadness
of the past erased
in a moment,
I was just happy
to see you.
Look at you!
You, standing there,
I could hardly believe it
so I took your hand,
embracing the feel of it,
as yours clutched tight,
inside mine
letting me know,
the feeling was genuine.
This connection,
made everything right.
Then a kiss came
followed by
a warm embrace.
Not a doubt,
came between us
both acknowledging
we were missed.
''Can you believe,
I'm in damn Belkeland?
I'm staying with my son,
he is a nurse, just in case,
he knows the best doctors
around, so I'm in good hands,
here in this hell hole,
Queensland''!
I whispered, ''I love you'',
into your ear, then sensed
Leo was near.
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I introduced you both.
He took your bag.
I paid, your taxi fare.
We welcomed you
into our home, then
to the backyard
where the birds and
flowers seemed to be
dancing, in your honour.
Sitting on the back veranda,
enjoying small talk
the garden pleasure,
aquainting,
catching up,
I went inside
to fix some lunch.
The fridge was bare,
no food to offer.
So I said,
''common, we'll take you out.
Let's celebrate'''!
There was laughter,
and political banter,
as we shared a meal
and time together.
The food was mediocre,
but the company,
outstanding.
Leo and you,
got on famously!
Then he offered
his apology,
for the time you rang
and asked for me.
He thought you were a nut.
He was just protecting
the one he loves.
Now like me,
he loves you too.
In my imagination.....
Today, is a day
for rejoicing, You.....
(written for J.H.)
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Just One Dollar~!
'Around the clock
go around the clock
see my website
email me
see what's convenient
see what's coming
in your life
there's a hugh selection
see what you are missing
buy now
and save
don't just buy stuff
do stuff'
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Adryan Rotica
163
Karma, on a Grand Scale
Fond memories
fueled our playful embrace
without any effort or strain,
we loved and lived
our sexual innocence as youth...
these were simple pleasures
that engaged us
in the joy of
meeting as old friends
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164
Kat Girl
you make me jab
at the taste of
your sweetness
i made myself
open
to you
it can't be that bad
this centrifugal
blaze
it's making me
crawl
you are playing
the tease
oh missy
i wonder why
you make me
die like this?
i want you
i want to leave you
breathless
ink...
underneath this radar screen
i 'ain't faking it
so yes,
i'll meet you
in new orleans
where the cat is....
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Adryan Rotica
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Keeping Things Whole
In a field
I am the absence
of field.
This is
always the case.
Wherever I am
I am what is missing.
When I walk
I part the air
and always
the air moves in
to fill the spaces
where my body's been.
We all have reasons
for moving.
I move
to keep things whole.
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Know?
I don't know
is all I know
and all I know
is
I don't know
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Lamenting
our love seldom doubted
now seems dry
and jabs the sting of permanent gone
as a moment that was
and now is not
without devistation or demolishment
to finish a link to a past
dieing is no longer a sentiment
the years
not even belonging to dust
don't seem to count
when ice forms in the veins of one
who has let it slip away
without belief or emotion
there is nothing
to hold or remember
not even the death of Us
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language
we speak
with 1000
borrowed
voices
then wonder'
why we can't
trust ourselves
silence comes
only when
we've found
our own voice
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Laundry
the most rewarding
part of my day
is pegging clothes
upon the line,
this task allows
my mind to wonder off
without hurry
without guiltjust
fresh air and
sunshine on my skin
breathing out
and breathing in
and when the time comes
for folding,
on every article
of clothing remains
radiated ions
from the sun
the scented freshness
I take in,
with particles
of lively light ingrained,
ready to be neatly
tucked away,
then, (even on the
gloomiest day)
when they're unfolded
and get slipped on,
it's just like a shield of gold,
these clothes I wear,
they radiate.
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Leap of Love
I never thought....
who ever knew,
love would leap
from me to you.
From out of no where
it seemed to find us,
before we found
each other.
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Adryan Rotica
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Leonid's Meteor Storm
The cats are both sleeping
we are up
it's 2: 00am in the morning
we're still waking up
the stars up in the sky
are so clear tonight
and the Northeastern sky
will collide,
with Leonid's metorites
Have a cup of coffee
there's a chill in the air
as we breathe in the excitement
while we sit in our chairs
waiting for the storm
''Look, I just saw one
it's tail was so long.....
How did you miss that?
It was just like Star Wars....
There is goes again.....
And another and another! ! !
Meteorites, Meteorites~
We are so small.......
Earth, Sky....Stars.......Light*
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Adryan Rotica
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Let Mother Nature Create Her Own Disasters
This is the time
to look the other way
Raise up our glasses
instead of guns, dust and debris
Let it settle
so we might understand
our different ways
just give it time
we can become
all in one
just give it time
How many families will die
protecting gods, oil, dirt or pride?
Today's the day to make the break
this world is what 'we' create
Give it time
it takes love to elevate
in every holy book
it tells us not to hate
it's all in time
that the changes take place
so give it time
until that day
when we can all appreciate
our differences
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Let there be Light*
A dawn sun rises aboveand
thru my window,
the picture shimmers
with electricity
held in a tension of energy
that seethes out darkness
with abundance of light.
In this moment of shifting time,
in this space of time,
new life is ready,
just below the surface.
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Let's Do It
You're the sweetest grape
in the bunch
the sweetest apple
on the tree
the sweetest pumpkin
in the patch...
Let's make Love
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Let's Go!
Tell me where you want to go
I can think of something new
Time stands still
Then slips away
This is not our life
Let's get away
Let's go
Jump if you must
It's time for change
Let's go
don't loose sight
of another day
No string left to tie us down
We've spun our own thread
Now reel that baby out
Let's go Let's go Let's go!
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Life as we might invent it
everyday you see it
maybe it's not that simple
the thing is, you can't help but wonder
whether it's true or imagined
frankly, it's very strange
but it's all that we know.
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Lifeguard~
I married a lifeguardnow
he guards
my life
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Light Angel
Oh the precious moments...
there is no need to say goodbye
you were born of an angry star
that falls like tears
from a star
you died in the way
you lived
helping other people
that's something that clinches
people's hearts
...how fragile we are
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Light Wind
...the days are long
and the nights
wonder into gone...
I believe that light
tells us where to live
bleaching away
the curse
that gives up the ghost
of white washed
death....
but the light can't hide
what I see
blowing away~
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Adryan Rotica
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Lighten Up!
''What kind of fun are you''?
''No fun, that's the kind of fun I am''!
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Live it Up
'LIFE IS GOOD
life is good...
Life is good
when you have a life'!
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Living An Agenda
The thickest walls
are within the mind
killing our future
with the promise of
modernity
when our basic needs
are food and sanitation.
These economic
dinosaurs
they live in
extreme materialism,
a house of cards...
What about climate change
killing our future
in the prospects of
the worlds bread basket?
This in itself is
robust enough
to be the truth of
our reality.
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Lost in Space
Lost on a beaten path
tired but I'm not going to
think about turning back
just thinking of the perfect times
when I’d follow whatever trail
I happened to be wondering on
''oh, what a perfect life''!
Following my feet today
I know everything
will turn out okay
''just taking a step at a time
and then 'one giant leap
for mankind''...
''oh, what a perfect life''
Even with all of its strife
I just think
it's perfectly, alright
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Louise
to say goodbye...
requires 'us'
to be your strength
you know,
people will keep you suspended
and not really, 'let you go'
we make the earth change
when we follow that inside compass
to change....
it forces everyone we know
to change
yes...
they're supposed to
'let you go'
and give you the space to be
the one
they love....
Yes,
this is the light you need to flourish
the water that nourishes you
the earth that grounds you
'our love'
is the purest way
to send you
on your way...
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Adryan Rotica
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love and peace
it is the wake before your wake
and i am awake
and i am keeping you
alive in me
not to forget
wakeless emotions
grieve with me
as thoughts memorise
the sentences we shared
you made me see
how life tosses the dice
and you were on a loosing streak
but time changes things
and things change with time
until you could not face the pain any longer
so, i understand
why you wanted the pain to stop
you were love and all that is
real and truthful
yet the world senses
when you are down
and it keeps kicking you
i understand
i will not judge you
i know what you were feeling
i want you safe and happy
so this end was
tragic and violent
and to the point
like you
i feel responsible
but also realise
you had your agenda
planned for a day
someday, oneday
i am sad
the place you chose
is the place that we dreamed...
as fireworks
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hang in the air of
independance day
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Love Hurts
He crushes me in his arms
I'm alarmed, but I'm charmed
scratching me with his beard
it feels weird, yet I'm cheery inside
His body's, a ton
I can't breathe, but it's fun!
Love Hurts, any way you look at it
Love Hurts, even when there's tenderness
by your side, you can't hide from the pain!
He captures me with his smile, all the while
being childlessly devilish!
Scaring me out of my wits, it's the pits
when your hearts in your mouth
I turn around because he is a clown,
I just have to laugh
because...
Love Hurts, anyway you look at it
Love Hurts, even though there's tenderness
inside, you can't hide from the pain!
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Adryan Rotica
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Love Is A Great Beautician
He looks at me
and says,
''you look
as good
as those models
I see
in the magazines''
I say, ''yeah,
all 5 ft 1 of me'!
Who does he see
when his
eyes gleam?
I don't see
''that reflection''
looking back
still,
even when
I've just awoken
puffy eyed
and hair
all knotted
he'll say,
''honey
you look good
this morning''.
But it's ''he''
who has the face
of a God
and doesn't bother
looking at it,
just shaves it
when he's
in the shower
and that is what
I like about him-.
when, unsuspected
he gracefully says,
''you look better now
then when we met,
every year
you just get
better and better''.
How can I not
love this man?
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loves lesson
have I
lost the plot
thinking
I know you
when
all that is,
is a test
of stamina...?
and still,
I run this race
unsure,
if you are
in it too?
loves lesson
learns
the hard way
when
one heart beats
for two,
and wonders
if this is all it is,
a game
that makes believe
''we are'' a duo?
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Lumpish
dizzy-eyed
dismal-dreaming
full-gorged
infectious
elf-skinned
haggard.
you are a toad
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Magic Words
in a fleeting moment
they are lost,
unrecoginsed.....
''magic words''
that spill out onto the floor
complety un-noticed,
swollen with abundance
and pulling at our strings
a treasure trove
of blazing dialog
that reflect instantly,
a common collective
that steals away our brains
and touches our hearts.
sometimes,
we catch them
and gather them up
because of
a feeling
that tells us,
''these words
instantly communicate
a natural language
that is disadvantaged
unless we care enough
about them to communicate
them well''.
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Marriage Blues
Baby I feel sorry
but it wasn't my fault
You treated me unfairly
then nailed me to a wall
So how can it be
all put on me
when you kept me down
so you could
have all the fun?
You smoke your weed
and meditate
then jump in the Sauna
while I made
the breakfast that you eat
then you're out the door
'gone for a surf
before work
When you come home
so refreshed
I feel like the one
who's left with a mess,
so when I speak out
You tell me,
''Don't be ungrateful
for the life that we made
'cause, life is simple pleasures
honey it's great
so I don't know why
You're so upset''
The only simple pleasure
I can see
is that ''I'm'' working to the bone
so You can have Fun!
Shopping for food
Answering calls
while you nap
says it all
I'm only here
to serve You
and that's the mistake
you threw in my face
That is how it ended
it's all true
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Love can make
a fool of you
Now I'm done
with this Fun
and life is
sweeter than
I could ever dream of
'cause
''Life is Simple Pleasures
Honey, It's Great
so I don't know why
You're so upset.....
I'm only here
because of You
and now
I'm happy to the bone
and having Fun!
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Metamorphisis
Being slips away
on the breath
morning dies
on the breath
silent pores
begin a new
gentle morning
slipping past
the breath
gliding past
the past
slips away
on the breath
to rise awakened
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Miraculous
Some people
touch our lives
without even knowing.
They just pass thru,
almost half asleep,
not fully grasping
the keys they gave us.
Then, one day
they are gone,
and life becomes
hard living without them.
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196
Moca Java
Coffeethat
first cup
with its grainy
bits sipped,
start the day
to awaken
the brain,
separating
the fog
from the grog,
this cup
ever so gently
invigorates,
till 'almost
out of that
dream state,
but we all know
it's the second cup,
we love the most
for the sheer
enjoyment of,
the aroma
and taste,
it's this cup
that gets us,
up, up, up,
and through
the rest
of the day
ahh~
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Morning Blush
opening my eyes
this man
is so deep inside me
I wake with a rush
tingling inside
mounting in waves
of thoughts
of the smell of him
touching my soul
lingering gloriously
on the cushion of love
beside me
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Morning Glory
In the tenderness of
early morning
I will wake
pretending
you are with me
even before my eyes
see the world
I will be with you first
and my mantra will be
''I love you''
everyday
to permeate
outward
into the air
until one day
you will feel me
as tangible as if I were
walking within your
every step.
Everyday
that you breathe,
my breath will be
in rhythm with yours
Forever...
I will greet the new day
with you
and keep alive this jewel
of love
And in my heart
I'll hold you
until death
steals me away from life
I will do this for you
everyday,
for the rest of my days
and take comfort
in knowing
you are
in this world with me
In this way
I will love you
for the rest of my days
and in this way
you will rest into my life.
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Morphine
my coat of armor glistens
with the blood
of a victorious battle
I am wearing the karmaand
so should he-
I don't hate
I revel in the kill
'this happening is everything'....
BLISS
I am alive!
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Most Men
Most men
are mindless
but they mean well
most men
ask questions
but rarely
take heed of
what they're told
most men'
are delightful
in their sinful ways
yet childish
most men
can talk a bitter banter
yet they know
when the girl is right
most men
are the object
of what a woman wants
a man is quite the delight
and a woman knows
when there is a tonight
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Mother
You are a part of my everyday
In all the things, I do and say
I hear your voice, within my own
When I touch my heart, I feel at home
You've coloured the way I see the world
and given me so many precious pearls-
So I hope you know these words are true
when I send my love and wishes to you
And when you next feel a breeze
upon your face-
That is me, blowing kisses~
on your birthday!
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Mountain Cry
This new found land
was built upon
the blinding blinks
that dropped and dried
into this mountain of salt,
now beneath where
I pray on burnish knees,
hoping to atone the gods
for each silvery day
that passes.
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Mourning Dove
and suddenly...
kisses
are torn away
from the one
whose love was
put to sleep
forever.
Like a lone dove
I watch over your
lifeless body,
guarding what is left
of you
of us
in blind hope
that I can save you
from the preditors
and the inevitable,
maggot's.
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Movie Star
I'm living my life, like a movie
wind me up and I'll play my parts
you can dress me like your, favourite actress
I'm going to be your Movie Star!
Today I'm in another country
tomorrow, it's another time
next week, I'm on a distant planet
come on and watch
and have a good time
We're all playing parts, anywayso
what difference does it make
if you want to live like a fantasy~
it's not that different from the lives we lead
So I'm living my life, like a Movie
and oneday, I hope you'll know me
'cause if I've made you feel, ''the spark''
that's my stardom
because, I've touched your heart.
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Music History
The older we get
the further we get
from the music
that quenched our soul
and made us feel
so free.
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My Echo, My Shadow & Me
I remember you....
the one who
made me blind with love
the one who freed me
from my chains
the one who swore his
undying devotion
the one who
made me feel again
the one who
took away my pain
the one who
took my heart and
relished in
a whole new level of pain
the one who
rouined my life
the one who
changed my life
the one who
freed me from my life
the one who is
the one
who is dead
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My Grandmother's Hands
Looking down at my hands,
'these are my grandmothers hands'
these hands of mine
hauntingly resembling hersare
not pretty hands, like my mother's
but handsome, useful hands
smooth, long, polish free, practical fingers
made for use,
like my grandma's hands
that joyfully cut and sewed
birthday dresses
that made little girls smile
and metamorphose into princess'.
These hands of hers,
quickly spun yards of yarn
into ponchos for the springand
before the bite of winter frost,
cushy quilted bathrobes arrived
wrapped in bright red Christmas paper.
Every garment, every stitch, every touch
integrated
with enormous patience and love
This was her way.
So, when I look down
at my hands today
so many, many years later...
I see a 'gift'-
These hands of mine, of hers
act as if they have a life of their own;
sewing, playing guitar, drawing, crocheting...
as though, through these fingers
I witness
her wisdom passing through me-
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My Words
I got words in my pocket
words in my head.
Words that tap, tap
at your head-
Words that capture
a glimpse of sight,
recognised and put to flight.
Words that spy, then
catch the words
so we forget
about the words.
Words that play
with sheer delight,
not unlike, this poem.
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MySpace
like dancing vibrations
of cyber sited crystals
imbedding fortunes
upon tenticles that fly toward
mesmerizing
you are playing a game
in this mix matched facade
where photos entice emotions
to blink awake lust
and use rhinestone's to
lure glitter.
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NEW BEGINNINGS-2010
To see our hard felt boundries
when we are in it...
is dark and confusing....
yet, they too finish and
come to their end.....
and next to it,
there is light~!
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New York
New York! ! !
is never the city that sleeps
in every street corner
we have seen the mighty
and the unstopable heart
a pirate
from the bottomless pit
New York city
won't you help me see
redemption
these songs of freedom
it's all I've ever had
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New York; A State of Being
Bleary eyed
''coffee, make that to go''
keep up
don't loose pace
going uptown
grab that cab
take a sip
gets you where
you got to go
walking fast
feel the beat
concrete slaps
beneath your feet
brand new shoes
click and burn
worth every pinch
just to make men's
heads turn
they check you out
baby, you got heat
smiling from within
you milk it while you go
bling it right up
'cause, no zippo lighter
is going to shine
that kind of lightso
dive in deeper
slap it to the end
even if it looks like rain.
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Night Climbing
you climbed to the stars
on the boughs of a pine
way up to the top
to capture a cone
and make it mine
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Night Sky
I am earth
sky
and liquid
falling thru clouds
I am night air
crisp
wafting past your senses
cooling
inhaled breaths
compelling you
to look up
at my luminescence
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no one is perfect
no one is perfect
but we are necessary
to provide a space in time
we all make mistakes
and live our lives
of pain
it's difficult...
but don't ask why
just take your time
stay relaxed
be amused
you'll find the answers
it's your life
you can choose
just relax
and enjoy the ride
just enjoy the ride
for this
all of this
holds the answers
for you
all you got to do is ride
just enjoy the ride
because, no one is perfect.
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no place to go
The memories of
those honeysuckled summers
and raspberry, blackberry picking
are there,
but the place is gone
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Not Fade Away
time can not fade
the glow that flows
like a kiss;
I will miss your
kinectic vernacular
awakening me fresh
with emotional colour
lover.....
a hundred years from now
what will it matter
that you
are still buring
inside my brain.
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Ode to Sleep
''O, giver of dreams
great regenerator
arrest fatigue
and lull
REM states
to unveil the symbols
of our own creation
allowing monotony
to escape within
behind thin
kaleidoscopic eyelids
where emotions
exorcise
and rest in peace
deep inside
rested rest
so we can waken
up refreshed
and regenerated''
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ODONATA
A slender body
transparent wings
genus of the damselfly.
In human form, tiny and slim.
Generous and warm of blood.
Bright and intelligent, a lover of
love, and, of being loved.
The genus of a gypsy child - woman.
***(written by, my secret admirer)
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Ohhhh
the ''we'' sensation
on the touch
of rhythm
gives me
bliss beyond bliss
into the song'
of our rythem
it goes
and it goes
until we are into exhaustion
when the song of 'us' sings,
''the man speaks to me''........
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Omm…
''Omm...So Busy''
becomes a mantra
applied like analgesic,
camouflaging true intentions
hoping we'll slide into extinction
”Omm…So Busy'', chanted
multiplies the sentiments,
wasting valuable time
while worshiping our own.
Unless you're user friendly
words get in the way
so the ''holy spirit''
should be ''time''
instead of praying~
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on the beach
tuning in,
do you hear it
idle chatter, ocean tumbling,
scarcely touching runners as they,
glide past their shadows meeting salt
and spray on sweated skin, and thru this mist,
dogs pass walking their owners away, on days like this
time lazes captive, until time gathers us, to pack up our things.
we are water babies, once in our bathers, time turns back, like kids with nothing else
to do but leave our foot prints in the sand to be blown away, by fresh wind, on a calm
uneventful sea, as the world passes, noises ebb muffled on a distant swill, whirled up
in greys and blues and sombre greens of the sea, that 'watches us' playing on the
sandy shorelines immense beach playpen.
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one day
one day I will grow up
to be
a beautiful woman
one day
I'll no longer be a child
one day
I will stand on my own feet
one day
I'll grow into who I am
one day
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225
One Way Street
They don't write
all traffic goes their way
it never goes my way
it's a one way street
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ONLY YOUR NOSE KNOWS
I never suspected
the only thing
that would
connect Us
would be
our Neti Pots
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Ornery
Bitter old men
with pick axes
picking and spittin'
like cocky 1960's
Japanese Cartoons
babbling
over painted brooks
in their quest
to salute meanness
to make
themselves feel big
and serious
but too weary to dream
killing joy
wherever it rears
up
up
too close
to move on
so they pick it
to death
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Orphans
have been
disconnected
from their root
source
and existence
has become
lost
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Overdose
Overdosed when I was 2
on St Joseph asprin,
because they tasted so good,
I ate the whole bottle
just to proove it.
With child proof lid flipped
on the bathroom floor
daddy found me and an
empty bottle that morning,
so he sped to the hospital
in seconds flat
stirring policemen
to follow his tracks.
How I remember the
sirens roaring
with officers on motorcycles
pulling him over,
discovering the state
of his baby daughter
they royally escorted him
to the emergency room
where doctors quickly
attended me, on a table
putting a hose up my nose
and down into my stomach.
Being that my daddy
was a dentist,
those were the days
they'd let him stay.
So he gently pet my head
saying, ''everything's going
to be okay''.
I survived, in a hospial bed
with nurses lifting my head,
giving me seltzer instead of water,
I felt every bubble go
up in my nose,
where moments ago,
I had a hose.
How strange it is now
looking past,
at the suicidal child I was,
just trying to get back,
to the source.
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Paper Lives
Paper lives
in a rainy world
always falling apart
Trying to hold on
loosing it again
Efforts go out
in the right direction
A stepping stone
for better things to come
Everything
is it not your teacher?
It's the stuff
life is made of
Awareness
of everything
and everyone
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Participation Mystique
Born from a language
too pure to survive sound
her name ''permeates''
patience and grace
emerging out of clear
cool waterbeds
she rises
bathed in the glow
of the rivers lightblack
eyes
sharpening the air
makes even cicadas
fall silent
against motions of energy
that test strength and resilience
while enduring
the most turbulent storms
she ''lets go'' of
what does not work
allowing
the ''voice within''
to steer
giving the river
what ''it'' needs
to run smoothly
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Passing Thoughts
Do not believe
because you read it in a book
Do not believe
because you saw it on television
Do not believe
because science says so
Do not believe
because a famous person says so
Do not believe
because a wise person believes in it
Do not believe
because your best friend believes it
Do not believe
because everyone else believes it
Do not believe
because others have believed in it for thousands of years
Do not believe
because you've heard it so many times before
Do not believe
because you are told, you must
Do not believe
because others expect you to
Do not believe
because it gets you accepted
Do not believe
because it will make your parents happy
Do not believe
because it will get you noticed
Do not believe
because you want to believe
Do not believe
because you can't afford not to
Do not believe
because it helps you to cope
Do not believe
because you must believe in something
Do not believe
because it makes sense
Do not believe
any of this......
Believe only that, ''you are''
and do not even believe that
for that is,
beyond belief~
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Peachy Keen
''Isn't he just a peach''
oh so delicious,
sweetness on your lips,
to lick every so often
makes a perfect syrup,
drippingly devine
reminds you of a sticky bun
hot out of the oven.
''Oh, isn't he just a peach''
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235
Pearls
One more pearl
drops
from your lips
descending down
the string, it clicks
against a row of
pearl on pearl,
and grows a precious
strand of you.
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People Spheres
Down at the beach
the ocean and I
meet, with rays of light
that turn my skin a
chocolate brown,
where surfers
commune with Odin
then come ashore
transformed,
and young girls
flaunt their fancy
in push up bikini tops
pointing breasts
up to meet boys
with glowing muscles
against a blue sky
where water is dancing
off the distant sights
of polka dotted people
all playing like spheres
of coloured light
along this
sandy shoreline
where the ocean
and I meet.
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Perfect
...forever is too much to ask....
I only want to resonate with you.
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238
Picking Scabs
We bury our sins
We wash them clean
Nothing out of the ordinary
Whatever happened,
happened then
until someone or thing
thrusts us back there
caught up
in a wake
to be consumed
fighting demons
while they come
creeping closer
to investigate
a time when
you were lost
or broken down
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Play-Tonic
Cordial civility
courting
words
that act
one way
but mean
something else
Antennas highcoquettish
sentiments
intoxicate 2
exchanges
of dialog
going down
like
sweet vermouth
swaying us
into fantical
frangipani
drenched
charisma
blinded by
''never knowing
it could feel
so deep''
without even
seeing, smelling
or touching
one another
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Poetic Lying
Art is free
it serves to bore and annoy people
in order to
entertain that which was
before us
it won't come to an end
it stills life
freeze framing it
to the realms that exist
within each person
Did you get what you paid for?
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Polygamist
open
love sporns love
glorious love
we love
to love
love
kind
noble
gargantuan
devilish
screaming
love
and then
another
and another
shares you
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242
Pooooof!
I love everything about You
....just not
what comes out You!
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243
Precious
...I sleep,
in the unchartered rythm of our motions...
...I am captivated,
by the colors we make, in the sky...
...I weep,
at the gold refracted hues of incandescence
and dance on the humm....
where vapours of you spread into wings...
...and at night,
when the candle is burning...
there is no place I rather be...
than riding on the gentle, all consuming breeze
with you inside of me...
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Procreation
Swirling pink and purple
on the horizon,
we are a mystery of souls
caught up in the graces of
nature's trickery...
There she stands,
with rays of sunlight
caressing her form,
illuminated,
she hears the cries
of humanities internal wails,
yearning for lust to bloom,
so it can take us back,
back, back, into the womb...
In this crevice of prophesy
even hermits unearth their hearts
believing,
wanting to believe,
that she will ease their cries...
But by storm,
a tundra of corruption drums...
and the season arrives,
when the cords of Spring unravel,
and mother nature fools us, again.
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Queasy
Escaping a particular shade of greenno
gulp of air can rescue you
from the rise of muscles
about to contract-
How long can you go?
'Breathe in'
the air rushes thru you
as gravity pulls away soft muscles.
This unbearable light headedness
brings you to the brink of convulsing.
'Let go' and
secret waves take over.
Your head
half buried in a pale pink cistern
looses out to your
Soul, Mind, Breath
all parched,
like a birds brittle carcass
cracking on the
sunburnt desert floor-
Then the water turns
and you are reborn.
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Question
The best stories
are tragic and contain
misery, dispair and disappointment.
That's being human.
Love is life
life is love
expand your heart
and expel it out
into the wind....
Breathe it, as if it were
your last breath of air.
(inspired by Jerry Hughes poem Question)
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Racquel
Hey girl, you don't really know me well...
I am your aunt from Australia...
I always seem to think about you 'cause,
I noticed you are a very rare girl...
Someday we're going to get together...
It'll be just like a dream come true...
We'll laugh at everything and talk about...
the things that you like to do...
You were a baby when I met you...
Next thing I knew you were two...
Yesterday, you turned seven...
Where did all those years go to?
Hey child, you're perfect in everyway...
Like yourself and shine like a star...
It's okey, to be sensitive...
The world is bright, wherever you are...
Someday we'll get together...
It'll be just like a dream come true...
We'll joke, I'll show you how to play guitar...
We'll shine and have a good time
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Rain
Rain...
like the colours in a rainbow
splash against
my window pane
Listening...
to the water falling
'till it makes
a sunny day
Firmly planted
I will wait...
'till the colours change
their hue...
Unveiling misty patterns
of thoughts
that I misplaced
Rising up
a scattered trail
to a time
I once knew...
Sweet memories
take me away...
Seeing faces
I remember...
I remembered you
Tear drop
rolling down my face
brings me back
into the room
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Reap What You Sow
Mary...Mary...Quite Contrary
How does Your Garden Grow?
You talk about Me
You talk about Her
There's nothing good on your tongue
The seeds you kiss, reap only discord
Conspiring them before, putting them into the Ground...
Dear Mary....I've planted many a beautiful flower...
but behind my back....you pull them out
A beautiful garden....makes people feel good inside....
but when there is poison on the lips of a Gardener
It's Natural...the garden will die.
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reason enough
with the mental stamina
of a strong brave bear
you set to cleverly
out-smart yourself into a corner
to die an honorable death
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Rebellious!
Slipping away
from the light
and shadows
away
by the sidelines
away,
from cardboard lives
that seem strangely
offensive (to me)
all posing as apostrophise
with clear, common insight
at first glace
but they are not quite inside,
all bored with their
contemporary deflated
blurred lives,
they make me
want to go
outside myself
to escape them!
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Recognising Beauty
What makes her so beautiful
is that she doesn't know it
This little rug kitten
is a goddess
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Red Wine
A little bit of red wine
can help you to unwind
at the end of the day-
If Jesus drank it
you know
it has to be okey'
A little sip or two
and you're starting to feel
a little woozie inside
that tingle up your spine
puts a smile in your mind
now you're feeling fine.
You're a mellow fellow
when the world gets rosey
and you're getting cozy
with your best friend.
It's okey
if you have a little drink
sometime
you might start to find
life is as fine
as red wine.
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Reflect That!
Girl in the mirror
who do you look at?
a figment of what people say?
a figment of what you hate?
if you see someone
who does not exist
go away
that is not who to feel
your beauty excels time
it is the gift, you are.
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Reflective
I found a
weed
that had a
mirror in it
and that mirror
looked in
at a mirror
in me
that had a
weed in it
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Ressurection
Like, Jesus of Nazareth
you come back
like you brought
some secret
from the great divide
You are still sleeping
Your mind still stirs,
with logic that will not provide
No future recovery can heal
the truth, you hide
A more powerful heart screams out,
like it has a secret to tell you
Your awakening has arrived
You were going to leave this world
holding another persons
conscience captive forever,
wondering if your death
were their fault
You would have left someone
with this burden
for the rest of their life
How selfish and childish
are you?
Don't forget
that this person
will always love you.
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Rethinking Merits
I must be the last isolationist
just about expired
in the promise of good things,
people optimistic
and the idea of enlightenment
making life sweeter
in one form or another.
When life teaches...
You're just lucky if
the wind is blowing at your back
and that's good enough
because,
so much of what we believe is bogus,
but at the time
we can't see it
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Rhyme or Reason?
I don't want your mind
I just want
your body to make rhythm
with mine.
Is that a crime?
You think
because you string me along,
just because you canthat
''that'' makes your head big?
....you're wrong
I have no interest
in your mind
I just want to make our
bodies rhyme.
Is that a crime?
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Rise and Shine
Open my eyes
the morning sun
eats away at me
and I pull the covers
back over my head
wishing I could
die in my sleep
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Rising Tide
....softly, slowly~
I awaken your senses
and you become attentive
to my motions...
I am worshiping 'you'
with engaging rythm
and sensitive licks
that build and grow
and softly ebb
on a cloud of bliss~
going down into this world
of estacy with you
relaxed and at ease
safe and warm~
so deep, my throat takes you to grace~
so responsive, I welcome you
and try to free you inside~
savouring every irrepressible moment
of estacic joy...
together, there is a flow~
I hold the beautiful
and revere what is so sweet~
waking me, I swell in you
and take in all that I can give...
what I love giving,
taking you, ever so deep into pleasure~
until your love potion
fills me with your fire of love~
you touch my soul...
this air swirls for both of us~
the words 'I love you'
do not suffice...
they seem so small~
and in your laughter, we embrace the joy
where sleep comes so well
and the air does not give
more to one, than the other.
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Rubble
the earthquake
rose up
toppled a kingdom
on human flesh
taking away the breath
it consumed passion
with blood on its lips
then smiled back
at its distruction
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Sacred Sun Tea
It is dewlike
drinking
liquid sunshine
requiring only
a jar to make
this holy brew
only takes
fresh water
tea bags and
some patience
these two together
with the sun
do the work
allowing time
to make this
drenched refreshment work
so be kind to yourself
in the process
it takes nothing more
than unwinding patience
because in the end
there is nothing like it
partaking of this
divine substance
fortifies the heart
brain and body
stimulating
tastes of heaven
scented
with acrid earth
that mark
summers simple pleasures
brought to you
through amber hue
pure and close to nature
You can't always read
the tea leaves
when this sunshine brew
is working on you
yet, every pore
will let you know
''sun tea'' is so good
for your soul
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SAIL IN MY THEIGHS
You are at the helm
of my centrenavigating
thru a silky sea
of succulent
persimmon nectar
setting me a sail
thru orange yellow
sunshine sensations
that ever so sweetly
erupt into motion expressions
that arc and quiver
as you steer and captain
me to my depths
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sarcastic
predictable words
ambling
to the rhythm of
1,2,3, 1,2,3,
1,2,3,4
provoke
word wranglers
to lasso up
art
thinking, it replaces
religion
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SAUNA GURU
that man
of mine
can sit away
the day
boiling in his sauna'
until he is baked
while I make'
make his
day worth
getting up for
while he meditates
and makes
our lives
all the more
worth while
by setting
presidence
in the vibe
that permiates
our everyday
existence
as he meditates.
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Screen Door
That old screen door
squeaks,
sounding off
a welcoming warmth
to anyone
who enters
even
passer-by's
hanging on as
evidence
of their arrival
as if to say,
''just passin' thru''
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Sculpters of words
in all dimensions
we are nothing more than
artists and entertainers
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See In The Dark
I see the dark
in the light of your eyes
tender shadows
sparks ignite
darkness
runs with you tonite
Fire burns
cool on your skin
melting laughter
you stand and grin
gyrating light
lost within
you see the falling
under your skin
to see in the dark
Drink in Aphrodisiac
Quench in Prowness
Chanting with the Mighty
You dance with the animal within
Flying high
down below
spirals turning
blackness grows
because the falling
stillness knows
you see in the dark.
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See Me Walk
''See me walk
so straight and tall
I won't let my basket fall,
eyes ahead
and don't look down
keep that basket
off the ground''........... (Romper Room)
Through the years
I've come to learn
the things life teach
just unturn
the way I am
is the way I go
so you may think
that I don't know
but, I have learned
through all those tears
to stand tall
and have no fear
see, I can feel
a bright sunlight
shine on me
even at night
''See me walk
so straight and tall''
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selective memory
keep your doors
and windows locked
time is slipping
stay far away
from those
uncomfortable strolls
down memory lane
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Senile
How dare you tint the past
with the illusion of goodness
what happened was dire
you spun disaster
you damaged this woman
plunging deeper than any weapon
maniacally cutting me to shreds
with a scapple
allowing me to bleed
as you profess innocence
'call the police'
'get a lawyer'
accuse me of stalking
to hide your conscience
you cowardly creep
you left me for dead
pretending it was
'Scotch under your belt'
'no harm intended'....
'you felt sorry for me'
'I took it all wrong'
It was a senseless crime
you turned me into the criminal
when I needed you
to stand up and be -
so kid yourself now
believe what you want
scum of the earth
the worms are waiting....
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Sensitivity is the Key
sensitive children
of the universe
feel the ignorance
of people's hunger
we watch them act
so important,
forgetting how to
just be humble
fantastic creatures
how they'll strive
to achieve power
at any cost,
in their ends
will they find
they've merely
lost their hearts?
our heads create
our worlds
so I know
our dreams
hold the answers
they are the key,
to who we truly are
just listen in,
it's easy
then go follow
your heart.
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Sent From Above
Just wrote you a song
something to string us on
so that I remember
all the ways that you belong
Sitting alone
this lady bug crawls
on my toe
I think that she
wants me to know
she was sent
from above
and kisses me
from you with love
and tells me
you are here
Just open up my eyes to see
all the ways that you show me
your kisses are still here
and that you will always be with me
''Adryan
one day when your life is done
then we will be together
but until that day comes
know that I am with you
all the time
showing you the ways I care
in all the little daily things
For I miss you
just as much
and am sorry that
we can no longer touch
For I would try to
live again
if I knew how much
I'de be missing you
So all my gifts from above
try to show you
how much I love
and want to see you
smile again
for I know all the sadness
that I bring
Until that day
my love
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I will try to show my love
in all the little daily ways
that make life sweeter
for you babe''.
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Settled
With Her
you met your match
With Me
you met yourself
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Seven Year Old
So you want to play
with dolls,
what's the harm
in that?
She says, ''No!
Boys don't play
with dolls,
it's just not
the done thing''.
You want to play
with dolls!
What's so bad
with that?
So when she
goes away
you play,
play and play,
escaping
into your own
dream doll fantasy
until she comes home,
then back you go
in to home sweet
home reality.
As all secrets
eventuate,
the day came...
you got caught!
Now, mommy is
very angry with you,
''You bad boy,
go to your room''!
Instead of going
to your room,
you decide
to run away!
Only on the run
can you escape
punishment to come.
That thought alone,
that she is going to
scold you,
sets your feet
in motion.
You are in trouble
Big Time,
but there is no place
to run to.
How long can you roam?
So you go back home.
Upon your arrival
you say,
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''mommy I am sorry,
I learned my lesson,
and I learned it
the hard way''.
At the end of the door,
comes a smile, that
welcomes comfort
instead of a scold.
Her love, surprises you
when she is just glad
to have you back home! ! !
So now you are,
a good little boy!
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Shadows
Shadows follow us around
never making
a sound
twin breaths
shallow threads of air
turn around
and they're not there
Constant companion
miracle of shape
leads us to
the door of fate.
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Shaved Bohemians
Good to enter
the warmth
of this cafe'
makes sense
instead of the chaos
going on
in this age
on the brink
of bohemian
rage
a refuge
this place
gathers
a world
collectively
motivated
by sophistocated
minds
'a buzzing
in caffine
'a celebrating
a perfect
resolve
to the ways
of the human
race
in this
current disgrace
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Shining
Shining
I am shining
because we found one another
within this world
Rest assured
I will help you
I'll be there for you
'cause you know,
time is short
Don't tell me
it's not perfect
just let goand
come here
Laughing
you make laughter
a part of our lives
it lies within your heart
Light
you shine through me
bringing heaven to earth
showing me the way
Shining
we're both shining
when two people feel something
inside of them
they should know
this is happiness
It's the union that transforms
life to love
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Shoot You
you don't think
I'll shoot you
but I will
you don't think
I'll shoot you
for the thrill
you don't think
I'll shoot you
for the kill
you don't think
I'll shoot you
but I will.
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Simple
I am not
I am not
No; I am not
a Gordian knot.
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Since Forever- Soulmate
Since Forever- Soulmate
Playful affectiontwo
animals loving
wonderfully suited
in deep concentration
reunited
on an ancient mound
in golden light
of autumal sunset
surrounded by waters
of memory
sharing a profound
understanding,
reborn of the sun
and mutual love,
'two souls'
tuned in to something
greater than themselves
sense a home-coming
and an enduring friendship,
with feet on the ground
and head in the stars.
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Sister
You are laughter under my skin
from the smiles I feel within.
They kiss stars and dance with
the light of memories we built
in skies from the other side.
God touches us when we are with you.
Shinning a dimensional glory
on a world that would seem black
without you in it.
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Slivers of Life
thinking silhouettes
fall like dew
in a place where
lives cross
inside of
yesterday
today
and tomorrow
mingling scented
times of time
where circles
chase themselves
and people
come and go
without ever
knowing
where time went.
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Smoking Is Good For You!
The gods are happy
if there is more smoke....
You smoke....
and that is a sign
that you love
Incense
is a sign
that we care
and let
elements travel
in the form of wind
We are all smoke
carried on the back
of the final blessing
that is
the wind
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So Much Hate
so much hate
so much hate
when did there become
so much hate?
I seem to remember
a time when
they said there was
a fine line between
love and hate
now,
so much hate
so much hate
when did there become
so much hate?
a time......
long time ago
when there was
a heaven
and an earth,
the sky opened up
and we were star struck
now,
so much hate
so much hate
between
love and hate?
when did this come
into our world,
when did this come?
when did this come
into our world,
when did this come?
''to err is human, forgiveness is devine''
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Sociological Observation
I went into the world today,
it didn't hit at once.
Feeling fine, it's a beautiful day,
winter chill is finally gone.
I need a few things at the grocery store,
'think I'll pick them up.
Made a list and put it near the door
''Don't Forget''!
Exhaust fumes, crowed parking lot,
hard faces of parents with their kids,
coughs and sneezes, cigarette smoke,
obese people grabbing for the chips!
Am I so easily shattered,
unprotected from the gruel and the grime,
I guess so, 'cause everytime,
this predictable scenario repeats itself!
Is this what life is all about,
I get so frustrated!
Is everything just a waste of time,
or am I going crazy!
I went into the world today,
didn't hit at once.
Feeling fine it's a beautiful day
spring is in season.
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soft-lit love
Sparks fly
with a wink
twinkling
on the porch
where
two mouths
kiss
in slow motion
drifting
on whispers
of sweet, angelic
stars
that slip through
this night
and sift into dreams
so suddenly,
and we are
falling
into
love
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Soli-tunes
In my silence
I hear music...
it must be the echo
of someone's radio
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Soul Tripping
Instantaneously,
cold, crisp sheets of billowing waves
thaw memory sensations...
as withered sounds
vibrate from a box
and raise the dead in you
the sound... rebounds again
and verberates the skies
where now is then
and you have transended
relinking the past
with the moment
where summer lies in conviction....
''Rock and Roll will never die''
dripping tender green memories
that bud open a gateway
with every minute of rhythm
beating in your ears
tuned in
the tip of your mind melts
into a place you know so well...
you got the top rolled down
smoking and finishing a six pack
served with tart slices of,
''if anything should happen,
I am not afraid'' youth
oh, those fertile moments......
slide down the drain
of rhyme and time
over and over
as you live on the edge
overdose trippin
on sonic energy
getting you high, high, high
showing you a good time
I still love you
and the dreams
you whispered in my ear....
''Oh, those golden dreams of my YES-terday''
those days are not gone...
You wear those, 'those days are not gone clothes'
on the inside....
''So you think you can tell Heaven from Hell''?
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Oh yeah, I am there~!
''Baby, gonna shake that thing''
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Space
there was a space for me....
it's as simple as that
if there was a space,
then there was a hole.
if you really loved her,
there would be
no space for me.
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Space in a Place
I know a man
whose heart is set on this spirited girl
she reels him in
and they go to places that spark
barefoot friends
'and just for a time
everything's beautiful
And when she's gone
he dreams of this place
where they dance so free
and lives on the sense
that, she will be coming back
'cause, just for a time
everything's beautiful
and in that time
there's a space in a place
that opens for them
Take a Heart
Throw a Stone
Make it Bleed
Just to Feel
Just to Hold
Whatever....
Just be there
He will wait
For a time
When their Hearts
are Open and Ready....
'cause just for a time
everything's beautiful
and in that time
comes a space
in a place
that opens
for them.
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Spinning Top
Sideways spin
making head way
to the door that I won
seeking the way I
have become
I move sideways
as I continue to spin
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Star Shine
Star Light
feel you touching me
Your Heart
reaches out to be
Sky Light
feelings on the breeze
Where you fly
higher than the sun
in my eyes
Clouds Glide
erase your body
from mine
And this Life
is just a Twilight time
Nothing more
than hearts in trees
So you fly
flying is good for you
This Love
dances on the breeze
Where you fly
heaven meets with me
So you are
the brightness I see
Where you fly
higher than the sun
in my eyes~
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Stoned
Stone aged people
in a modern day world
techno
religio
polico
bizzare expectations
when our ideas
are stagnated
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Strands of Life
That awful sound
uttered so lightly
''he's dead''
passes through you
rising roots intwined
that softly dim
cheerful eyes
into tearsfinding
the body
of a man
at the base
of one of the seven pillars
makes the question hang
in the air
like a bad smellblood,
full red
with lifes own heat
taken by
firey pride
left to rot
by the side
where
seven pillars stand
like a simple stone
joining a brook
where water
isn't far
to follow
strands of life
on a restless spirit
and just as stiff
on an endless night
where every thought
has power
and things really don't mesh
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Stranger Danger
He appeared again today
a few years later
and a little too late
a bit grayer, tall and lean
eye glassed, expressionless
I felt him
somehow he knew
as I walked about
feeling those
magnified eyes
burning through
my skin
In the windows
reflection
I saw him again
following me
intrigued somehow
by my being around
I felt investigated
sorted out
my heart pounded
and I caught myself
a few years later
and a little too late
for pure
physical attraction.
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sun lovers
a desert stretches
eyes to see
a horizon hovering
with the soft intensity
of two wavy lovers
melding together
embraced in
fahrenheit degrees
scorching
in this inevitable
heat oasis where
hearts cauterise
and sear as one.
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Sunbeam
dressed in eagle feathers
against a burning sun
a Woman
is both tenderness
and wildnessa
determined
strength of heart
under a thundery sky-
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Sunday's Child
Sunday's child is always praying
for the right thing to come
what she can't see, is the truth
inside of her
not something else
Sunday's child is always praying
for someone else to come
what she can't see, is the source
inside of her
not somebody else
How do you contemplate outside yourself
when you are infinite?
Can't you see, come full circle child,
you are it!
Two hands clapping make one sound
where does that come from?
There's no one around
except, Sunday's child
Amen.
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Sylvester R.I.P.
From the jaws of my beast (cat)
I rescued you
just in time because
fat Fred meant to eat you!
So tiny
you fit in the palm of my hand
''baby sparrow''
you were shaking
you were more than scared
you were giving up
you were trying to die
when I spoke up
''don't close your eyes,
'common wake up,
try to fight, stay alive''!
amazingly,
you brightened right up
you shat in my hand
then you sat up
perching yourself
upon
my index finger
beginning to trust
this big human
so I sang you
a made up song
and when I looked down
I witnessed your eyes
focused on mine
half disbelieving, I looked away
''You were, just a bird''
so I continued singing,
''Fly, fly, fly like a butterfly''
looking down again
how intently you stared
your eyes were still fixed
they told me everything.
You had never heard
such intricate sounds
from any kind of bird around
a whole new world was
opening up
for the very first time
you were awe struck
I offered you flight
but you just flapped
so I put you upon, the clothes line
you struggled to balance
then managed just fine
sitting high up
watching birds swoop by
you were like them. You felt alive!
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It was then, I wondered
if your mother
threw you out of the nest
because you were
weaker then the rest?
Old fat Fred only found you
in the scrub
because you were abandoned
from above.
He's 16 now and most likely
never going to find
another opportunity like this one
in his lifetime
he celebrated, he felt the thrill
his last hurrah, the final triumph
of a full victorious hunt, again
''He's the King'',
''You'' gave him that pride
even though, I stole lunch
from under his eyes.
Now the sun sinks
several hours have passed
on this Saturday 'noon
it's close to dinner
I have to cook
so I took you down
made the finest
bread basket nest around
and put you alongside
an open window to look
and breath air from inside out
But, ever so slowly
you began to fold in
turning your head
under your wing
drifting off
you never returned.
How sad I was
I couldn't save you
then going over
this day
being your last
you experienced something
none of your siblings could ever
you were truly living
you had a blast
you touched our lives
not even knowing
so I burned incense
where you were buried
and today, a flower grew
in the rested spot
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where your beauty continues
even when you are
not.
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Tattoos
songs
that vibrate
poetically ripe lyrics
with a depth of sound,
etch and engrave
rhythmic images,
onto us
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team spirit
''Go on,
splash around
be a sport''
get a grip~
there's only
sea-sickness
around here
that's no fun
what hits me
in the face is
you either play
something
or someone
Sport...
I dispise it
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That this man....
once loved me.
That this man
loved ME.
Look at his heart
it's beautiful
Look at him
he's beautiful
everybody loves him.
how blessed are we?
how blessed am I?
Look at that....
you touch so many-
I want everybody to
Celebrate You.
Oh that Manlook
at him.
Brilliant!
....and this man, loved me.
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That's allot of love
You were my teacher
my soul-mate
my greatest love........
We met ourselves
in the other
Now, I know the difference
with You
I learned what love is
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The Art of Art
where passion pulls
follow
never question this
it may be
the only chance
in your life to
be truely alive
with the source
pulsing through
your veins
even if the journey
goes down
a futile path
it still
is not in vain
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The Awakening
Darkness is gone~
with a heart overflowing...
as I walk with the night air
still on my breath,
and make ''my own love''
while searching under stars,
for me.
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The Back Road
Summer adventures
took us into the woods
we survived on fantasy
we made believe
that's what we did back then
when we were kids
I'm going back to the start
where blackberry picking
turned to jam
and got sold at people's doors
for the price stamped on top
of old 'Smucker's' jars
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The Best Thing In Life-
When I was young
I knew that I had
something to give
but I didn't know what
life would bring
it was so hard
finding the thing
that made a difference
'coming round
I have found
Nothing is
what it seems
everyone's lost
it's just a dream
being here now
is all that matters
give it away
there's nothing to keep
'cause the best thing in life
is just giving time
Everything's lost
when you are in it
Nothing to loose
not even your shadow
just give it all
wherever you are
there's no where to go
except where you're standing
'cause the best thing in life
is just giving time.
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Adryan Rotica
314
The Big Easy
Players spend half their lives
playing to make their lives, easy
you need designer drugs
hooked up on an I.V. drip
a one way ticket
and it's easy, to make yourself easy
we're booked on a lifetime span
and things pass faster than you know
it's easy to be (a player)
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The Crossing Line
Split down the middle
two hearts
beat for love,
trespassing vows
that betray trust,
to find a balance
without destroying
their other halves
Two lines crossed
in secret,
betray trust
to find the balance between,
trespassed vows
Two hearts
yearning for love,
betray trust
to yearn for love
Two lovers
torn apart,
betray one another
to repair the trust
they have broken
Two loves
now irreparable,
inconsolable,
loose loves luster,
never again, to shine.
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Adryan Rotica
316
The Diner
Alone, she desires this cluttered atmosphere-
An old woman takes off her plastic bonnet
revealing a mastery of curls
hardly disturbed by the rain.
She sits fumbling with her pocketbook
tugging it tight
between her breasts and thighs.
Eyes cast down
she is
unmistakably, fearful
Through the silent glances
I watch
masked faces, etched in disappointed frowns
poisoning her air
and yet she is unaware of being conspicuous.
She only wants the company
and does not care about the stares.
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317
The Door
I open the door
to barking dogs
heart beats roar!
I slam it closed,
lean against it
hoping to
shield the terror
that eats me alive
Deep inhalation,
calms the beast inside
while guttural pitching,
reverberates into
jellied knees, wobbly stomach
then, snap! chaos into order
'I firmly resolve',
strength building within
'with the help of thy grace',
to face my demise
or whatever it is
Opening the door,
with grim expectations
I'm greeted by jumping
and licking Dalmations
definitively marked
in black and white
lavishing me
instead of biting!
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318
The Game
To make
what is false
into something
that's real
takes believing
that what we did
was really real
seeing yourself
and thinking
it was real
makes
what we did
real.
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Adryan Rotica
319
The God Particle
Scientific Theology
casts incandescent light
roaring soundlessly
like a little lost feather
spinning its charms
colouring superstrings
balancing
absent-minded principals
testing
playing with mathematical myths
in search of god
in astral science
it is man's perilous folly
to make sense of chaos
and god's wickedness
that gives man
potato salad
and death!
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Adryan Rotica
320
The Great Burden of Life
Our lives,
are mirrors of mists,
metaphors and reflections
defleshed
then, stripped to the bone
by death,
which is unavoidable
yet,
name your truth
before you rest into death
and, your greatest burden
is lifted.
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Adryan Rotica
321
The growel
I felt my chest had exploded
and the bear stirred
he gazed into my face
his wild animal smell
bore every pore
of my being
then
one soft growel
danced inside
of me
and I surrendered
to him.
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Adryan Rotica
322
the hallway
There was a hole in ceiling
on the way to the kitchen
a whole in the ceiling
that winked as if it were
a magical passage door
''a hole in the ceiling''
I do remember thinking
but never said anything
to my mother
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Adryan Rotica
323
The Heavy Beating Of Wings
This damselfly
shampooed and jubilant
alighted by the light
of full sun
now wakes to sleep
in all that falls away-
I grieve alone
as I wake alone
drying my wings
crumpled, cracked and broken
finding warmth in caves,
surprised at dawn
as though it were
the end of time
in total blackness.
From earth's insides
words open
like diamonds.
I witness love
in this calm
but the mind is no substitute
for this inflated heart ache
suckling to cling
to a diseased love
so black
so sweet
hoping it will come out of wolf's clothing.
Adryan Rotica
324
The Law of Opposition
A mutiny of strengths
stubbornness and defiance.
who will take charge
of the little space
we inhabit?
every inch
of territory rumbles
to a constant battle.
every decision
over ruledan
obstacle
in the way
of our journey.
inside pressures
pulling at our gracethe
unresolved,
slowly killing us
against impossible
obstacles
that re-confirm
our differences,
adding too few
similarities
to be explored.
perhaps it's time...
to turn to silence?
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Adryan Rotica
325
The Lion
something about
the raging lion
entralls raw life
not evil
merely natural
in his own
impulsive darkness
he is amoral
but not crude
merely untamed
power driven
and dangerous
not bad tempered
simply tremendously
tangled in his own
fiery energy
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Adryan Rotica
326
The Lovers
follow your heart,
take a risk?
he took something
he had no right to take
the hurt and pain
hit hard when
trust was broken
he left you desecrated,
vulnerable and insecure
your head
spins with rage
your heart
broken
he walks away
with no remorse
Adryan Rotica
327
the magic that you do
spells that cast
a heart to wakeso
you have done
to make mine ache
with molten words,
tenderly poured
from your heart~
to mine
Adryan Rotica
328
The Myth Maker....
just imagine
the unimaginable
when
a stranger
adorned with
war medals
dressed in an
army uniform
walks into your
daddies wake
stands up
and tells a story
about a man
you never knew
who crawled thru
muddy trenches,
dragging and
carrying him
for 14 miles
saving his life,
instantaniously
changing your memories
of your dearly departed one
into the status of
''a hero''-
the ''Myth Maker''
re-invents lives,
pushing a man
out of this world
on a high horse
and a cloud
by raising everyones
energy up
to help release
a souljust
imagine.
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329
The Picture
She sits, surrounded
by the ones who
mean the most.
Each person reaching
to connect with her
selfless current
while her right hand
touches the lap
of her husband
her left hand
envelopes the wrist
of her son's wife to be.
She is aglow with love.
The centre of their world.
Look, how they adore her.
Adryan Rotica
330
The Poet
Roasting on this craggie shoreline
keyed to the sounds of the island
I am gathered, however ragged
to my full potential
still unwrapped
while driftwood fuels their stoves
my trash will become craft.
Adryan Rotica
331
The Power of 'I'
the word 'I'
depicts
our 'total being'
with one
majestic stroke.
this lone letter 'I'
even when sitting
inside the alphabet
still stands like us,
alone.
'I' numerically
is like the number '1'
equaling the total
count of 'I'
(I=I=1)
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Adryan Rotica
332
The Power of the Bear
At one
with his own heart.
He is secure in the rhythm
of the earths beat.
Content
he takes his time.
He is able to sleep deep
in the way he lives.
Gentle, yet protective
he is fierce
when defending
the ones he loves.
He is the Bear.
(ishta-deva)
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333
The Same Old Story
it's the same old story
'only this time
it's happening again
so much confusion
'perhaps this time
we've realised
it's the end
tell me
where we're
going wrong?
in the 'final hours
can we let go
of the sorrow
and the pain?
'just feel the glory
of what
brought us together
as friends
tell me
how we got
this far?
tell me
before this story
ends
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Adryan Rotica
334
The Seductive Garden
the sun is breaking in and out
ripe darlings
you fling your droplets
sprouting delicacate green grasses
to grow this bed
enticing me to lye down
in this garden
where devious meyhem
rolls a spirited ride
and April fools seigh, 'ahhh'
to mischievious awakeningsso
pour me more of this liquor
and squeeze May's blush
so I may dive
into June's sultry
pool of life.
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Adryan Rotica
335
The Storm of Life
The sun is a star
and the stars are suns
as we climb up
the ladder of life
nature stirs
genius and madness,
compassion and cruelty,
all the drives
of man,
life and death
this spurt of living,
indulges us
a short history
of progress
as mankind adapts
and prudently turns,
art and culture
into a new way
to raise the stakes
of survival.
Adryan Rotica
336
The Suicide of Summer Sweet
He is done with the game....
free from the worries and the pain
as I sit by the window
and watch the seasons change....
Summer sadness
reels inside the fun we almost had
as the BBQ is cold
and the chairs get put away...
Quiet stirs an empty batch of
confusion and heartache...
as I sit by the window
and watch the seasons change
and remember our last kiss
and the steps that took you away.
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Adryan Rotica
337
The Sum of Our Part
We live a life
We sacrifice
We do our best
to make a difference
We make our mark
then, when we dielife
simply goes on
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Adryan Rotica
338
The Zone
When life becomeschasing
the numb and the dumb
into a pace
where you are just cruising-
''You're There''
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339
'Till Death Do We Part
I watch you
with ancient eyes
in a dream
in a trance
with the wonder of life
at our side
in a dream
of a courship dance
until, the arrows
of others wishes
pierced our hearts
and we died
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Adryan Rotica
340
time heals -
the light has not dimmed
it only rests and meets with
softer energies of the air...
new growth grows, gains grace
and rises sap that strengthens,
illuminated by recognition of,
remembering details of a past
that faced poor conditions.
it happend so fast (in dreamtime)
striking at the heart
it made our pulses quicken.
now, we return to real time
where old business changes
yet, we have sustained the course
with the beating wings of
courage, love and hope...
time heals-
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Adryan Rotica
341
To Dream the Impossible Dream......
''it was our quest
to follow that star''.......
we traveled where
love stired
and this dreaming
made our lives
meaningful
now,
we can not move
forward or back
caught in paralysis
unable to pretend
two swords lockunwilling
to forgive
so only the dead
see this dream...
that haunts
counting sheep
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Adryan Rotica
342
TRIUMPH
It was two against one
that was not nice
I was on my own
this excited them
no one to defend me
I united them
with a common cause
I was out numbered
this sparked them up
I lost composure
this got them off
fed their need
for lust, not love
because sex is
all their relationship is
a sick symbiosis
that feeds off another's
pain and anguish
! ! ! TRIUMPH! ! !
Let them winthe
whole thing was
a power trip
they played this game
on an immoral playing ground
he uses her
to fight his battles
she uses forgiveness
to make the world think
they are happy
defeated
Thank God he's gone
go kiss the ground
I'm not stuck
with him around
she's got more worries
coming with him
he feeds her lies
because he's not loyal
he's just pretending
because he knows
how to pluck
a woman's strings
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343
TROLLOP
She took over
your senses
and was everything
you sin for.
A Gypsy free spirit
whose fate
now demands sacrifice.
My heart has been filled,
so now I must be killed
for a bridge to be made
for you to cross.
So make your life
sweet again
you must
for time stops here
and bids us farewell.
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Adryan Rotica
344
True to Yourself
I could give you what you want
just to hear you applaud and cheer
but that is not what ''I'' want
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345
Twinkle twinkle little star
Just like a star in the heavens
...I think of you
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Adryan Rotica
346
Unconditional Love
Is it possible
to get bored
hearing someone
tell you, ''I love you''
when you know
it comes from
a space so deep
in the abyss?
To love so wholly
is to be reborn
regardless of any wrongs
done in the past
A synthesis of
awareness
is all it takes
to recognise
love
A joy,
an inspiration,
a simple saying,
I love you.
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Adryan Rotica
347
Under Beautiful Water
.....is a place
where leaks in your thinking
merge into clear coolness
and deep cries
know no boundries,
only rise as bubbles
that shatter and meet with air
this place
is where taking a breath
will take you beyond
the two realities
but the choice
is in the moment
it's a place where
weighty concerns flow
and no straight line exists
only wavy motions
that move beyond
shallow concerns
in the appearance of life
under beautiful water
is where two realities merge
without pause
beyond
the bubbles that meet
with air.
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Adryan Rotica
348
Universal Torch
''Oh the occupation of the heart,
it puts us in a little prison of our minds''!
Writing is such that it is.
As words seek the spirit...
let yours touch others
with a common image.
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349
unrequited love
we were as happy as
two crickets in the grass
strong and lovely as
an outreaching tree
spilling words with promise
you captivated my heart
my body, my soul
you gave me your heart
...just as I gave you mine
given the marvelous gift of language
you put such effort into every tiny detail
and fed me your sweet nectar of goodness...
then, just like your life that bares the world on your shoulders....
you make war in your heart
and give up the girl of your dreams
wrapping her in a tiny bundle
with crumpled socks and T-shirts....
and send her away!
now, all your love is gone
and I have no rest or peace
from this awful estrangement....
our paths have become tangled in ugliness
so I cringe in self comtempt
knowing that your hands know too much
I have already lost my mind....
I am stuck
in this sort of idiot re-inactment
play-run theatre, that incessently
drags me back to you
I can hardly bare those images
that hang in my breast
and batter away at my sore heart
when...
I still love you.
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Adryan Rotica
350
Un-Slant!
when does water unzip?
doors unwind?
flowers unhinge?
life unstart?
rocks unglue?
windows unfold?
trees unwind?
god undress?
air unslip?
walls unscrew?
grass unpack?
infinity unturn?
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Adryan Rotica
351
Urban Cowboy
Who do you kid
when you talk about yourself
Feeding us lines
lying like a snake
Do you hear
when your eyes are open
Do you care if we live
You are the Cowboy
in the neighbourhood
People call you crazyyou're
just misunderstood
When you're around
you're upto no good
Everyone's talking
all over town
But you know they'll miss you
when you aren't around
'cause you're the Cowboy
in the neighbourhood
...''Yeah, I'm riding out a sunset-
Anybody want to come, be ready ''!
There's a moral to this story
see, you can't ever tell
when you think you're going to heaven
you may end up in hell
Listen up people
when you think you're so good
you may look down and find spurs
on your boots!
Then ''YOU'RE'' a Cowboy
in the neighbourhood.
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Adryan Rotica
352
US
We filled in the spaces
that were held captive.
The spaces, that spanned
into eons
and our thoughts aligned.
A total coincindence
that created our love
with a healing polaric
interchange
that radiates between us.
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Adryan Rotica
353
Visual Enchantment
spirals spin
a twirling dizzy
cosmic shrapnel
sparking glinted
snapping
visual movement of
a god synapsis
from above
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354
Walking
I'm gonna to take a walk today
taking my time
because it doesn't pay
to hurry up
keep it up
pick up my heels
'kick up the pace
just suffle along and enjoy the day
It's okay if I talk out loud
'just let this head go up in the clouds
I'm going to take a walk today
no use in hurrying me on my way
I don't mind, walking alone
as long as you are there, when I get home
I'll be back before the sun goes down
to bring you treasures that I have found
I'm taking a walk today
just taking my time
airing my mind
all I need is a little space
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Adryan Rotica
355
Walking for You
I went out walking
I saw your face
every where I looked
I met a trace
of your style
your smile
the way you walkyou
get around
Mirrored in spaces
inside my steps
you swallow my days and nights
every where I turn, I see your reflection
are you ingrained in my eyes
or have we merged?
Hearts and flowers
go together
makes everything nice
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Adryan Rotica
356
Walking the Path
Dancing on the light
at the end of a spark
I am burning white hot....
''A Sparkler''
shooting rubber bands
at the stars,
from the snap of my fingers!
Boing, boing, boing! ! !
I am mad with Joy!
Madness, they say -
is the inevitable path
of enlightenement -
Walking Between
two worlds -
Comfortable
and yet ill at ease -
the magic possess -
and nobody understands...
Walking the path
always alone
is ok.
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Adryan Rotica
357
Watermelons
Green Buddas
on the fruit stand.
We eat the smile
and spit out the teeth.
Adryan Rotica
358
We Will Rise...
If Martian Luther King
only knew
what he gave his
life for
The standard is
dropping
not rising.
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Adryan Rotica
359
Weather the Storm
It's okey
it's going to change
everything passes
you'll get through it
don't look back
learn as you live
there'll come a time
another day
takes away the troubles
so hang in there
and weather the storm
When things get rough
just stand still
you will find strength
when you remember
''it's okey
it's going to change
everything passes
you'll get through it ''
The worst times
turn to good times
everybody knows
ends bring
new beginnings
''it's okey
it's going to change
everything passes
you'll get through it''
Listen in
to the confusion
there'll come a time
another day
will take away
your troubles
so hang in there
and weather the storm
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Welcome to Paradise......
Loved one takes you by the hand
brings you to this promise land
now you both wear full time tans
and you stop making useful plans
Waiting, warming tired bones
you sit together but you are alone
chatting, reading, eating lunch
you are the fatal ones
Welcome to Paradise.
Pristine water, tourqois air
old ones come to spend their years
sitting, staring out their fears
Welcome to Paradise.
Do you know where you will go
when your bodies gone
and time moves on without you?
Welcome to Paradise.
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Adryan Rotica
361
Well?
''Well''......''Well''......
if you say it enough times
maybe you'll strike oil!
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Adryan Rotica
362
Wet Worship
tender loins
ache
aware
of first touches
encircling
a moan
that takes you to the fringe
and fills my mouth
with Godliness growing
attentive
tasting of musky girth
and stamina
your precious cock
craves to be suckled
by lips
that flirt and dance
in wet worship
attuned to your sighs
that measure
the sweetness of
ecstasies brew
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Adryan Rotica
363
Whatever Happened to You?
Tick Tock
so misunderstood
when you were
dancing and alive
Now, ''poof''
you are gone
and all that's left
are recollections
''Lord is looking now
so you better say
nice things''
Why is it
the living
only recognise you
when you are dead?
You were just
someone they
measured themselves
against.....
You were much too bright
and that made them feel
like they were
rotting next to you
morbid bores of a life....
You lived
Shadows illuminate
the millions of
sinful and
wonderous things
you have done
Let the spirit
carry you
away from
this fickle
supersticious
world
Mail me a letter
when you get there
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Adryan Rotica
364
Wheel-House
all of us running around
closing ourselves off
when there are hands
reaching out
to connect
to care
and yet everyone
is burning with
all this pain
because
no one is honest
with themselves
making their own trouble
loosing sight
of what is real
wearing masks
and telling lies
to inflate themselves
while they deflate
their capacity
to love....
so, rare
if you stumble
across someone
who is open
and sharp with
vulnerable love...
they are where
truth
and true beauty
live
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Adryan Rotica
365
When I Am Not
A vestil virgin
trusted
this powerful passion
beating
with a pureness of heart
She extended her hand
to dance with you
until the end of time
But you drove
daggers into her heart
to kill her off
Dead.
Her truth,
survives
in you.
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Adryan Rotica
366
When I go
I got what I got
and I give what I got
and I got what I got
when I go-
I give what I got
and I got what I give
and I'll give what I got
when I go-
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Adryan Rotica
367
When Your Words Kiss My Ear
Swaying me
like violins 'a playing
Rising up
where dreams flow thru
Kissing away
the lonely tears...
is you.
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368
Where did I put them?
Wish I could find
the things
I misplaced
a smile
a heart
a sense of humour
just don't remember
where I put them?
I know they're
only just misplaced
just wish
I could
find them
before I leave.
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Adryan Rotica
369
Where There Is A Hole
our lives
interwove...
now
un-darned threads
release the mistake...
a knowing
that is
an end to the end...
splendid isolation
is all you ever needed
not me...
the very last kiss
was the only link to love...
you don't need anyone
in splendid isolation
that's the island where you live...
a hang out,
in meditation...
dividing you from people
you hide
in safe haven
away from everyone...
the mindless,
is where you live...
crashing down
where lonliness is your only friend
and budda does not save you
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Adryan Rotica
370
Whirling Dervish
My name is, Adriacus
I come from ''that part''
of the world,
where they snap their fingers
-and twirlspinning
to the music
white skirts revolve
in cosmic friction,
melting into
mass motion,
inter-connected
like, particle dust
forming planets
merging separate
solar systems
in unison with
heaven and earth
transporting us
without
a space ship
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371
White
Inside a snowflake
stardust bloomswith
pure purpose
it drifts
stilling air with texture
it intercepts quiet
radiantly tweaking,
as it joins resonance
amongst a symphony
of glitter~
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Who?
Who do you say
good morning to
now that I am no longer
tucked under your wing?
Who is this one
who has won your tongue?
Who eases your sorrow
for me, and bandages your
aching heart?
Who do you tell
these deepest thoughts to,
now that we are not?
Who is the one
I wish I was
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Adryan Rotica
373
Winged and Dragoned
Darkness
rides upon
fumes
of the dragon
scaled with
tendrils
of devilish
science fiction
demise
oiled and righteous
skilled by natural
disorder
slapping its tail
snarling
surreptitious
curls of Fahrenheit
diction that melt
into the dire.
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Adryan Rotica
374
Winter
Leaves burning color,
now down on the ground
while dew frosted windows,
make crackly sounds
within sheltered places,
we call home
where family sleeps safe,
cosy and warm
One morning we'll waken,
to blankets of snow
and see children's faces,
turned a glow
with excitement and awe,
as they see their terrain
transformed to a wintry,
wonderland
Awakening this spirit,
can make you twinkle
whether you are young,
or have lots of wrinkles
It begins with a tingle,
then like an ember
kindles inside you,
until you remember
the awe of our own,
wintry impressions
that got tucked away neatly,
until December!
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Adryan Rotica
375
Woman have the Power to Create Life
It is my prayer
that you
never experience
an unwanted pregnancy-
Conceive a child
free of ignorance
because, terrorism
begins in the womb
No nation can rise
higher than
the mothers who are
the first teachers
of the children.
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376
Words
Words...Wooor-rrdds!
wondrous words.......
Push them down
watch them fall
with might
and such delight
when pen pulls
across paper
building up
movement of shape
in dimensional
impressions
that measure
a life
fashioned by
the devotion of
energy and light
onto clear
white paper
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World Tree
I am....
a magical sensitivity
a strong healthy tree
re-aligned with the sacredness
of the land
withstanding
winter, spring, summer
and autumn.
I am....
a labyrinth
grounded
at the centre
in balance with the earth
re-energised
by a secret
fight of the heart.
I am....
a tree
whole and at one
with the universe.
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Writers Block
This mind is restlessraising
this body
in the night,
to crinkled words
that are thrown down,
on the ground
like food
for animals to eatwhile
eyebrows fly away
like exclamation points
crackling beyond
this page and
into this inkwell
a world is completely rinsed
of everyone
fast asleepuntil
the first nip of pink
appears in the skydawning
recognition
of their existence
as I survive
on vaporous hope of
a few more parallel lines
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WTC
Twins
numerical prodigies
standing side by side
innately mathematicalnever
one,
these two strengths
were a once
a dynamic duo
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XS'
Dancing their tango
gliding past
those hovering demons
haunt my path
because I know
exactly where they've been
as I stand in their wake
wondering,
how long until
I too become,
one of his X's?
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''YES''!
'YES'!
play with me
slowly, slowly
you open me up
I let you in
the deepest part of me
you....
...take my breath away
then make me bleed for it
steal my heart
with excruciating love
then torture me with this love
yes play with me
like a cat would a mouse
destroy me
with this love
this love I love
''YES! I am the love of all your years,
the child born in the womb
of your imagination''........
your love marks
are all over me
how do I
forget you?
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You
Slumber takes me alone
and even in this twilight state
I dream of your embrace
''my groans''
slowly waken me
to your smile, like
dawn break after darkness
arising memory
of your scent
so safe and sweet
''You'' take me to a place
where all is quiet.
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Adryan Rotica
383
You gotta do what you do
'You gotta do what you do
when you do what you do
You gotta do what you do
when you do what you do
You gotta do what you do
when you do what you do
You gotta do
what you do'.
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YOU LEFT ME SOMETHING
''You are the love of all my years
condensed to one explosive...
YES!
YOU + ME = US
You were born to love me...
WE ARE
ONE
AND THE SAME...
Without you
there is only existance
You know as well as I,
there is no life
without the other
I will only be happy
when I am in your arms
the only place I belongis
in your arms
I want my last breath
to be, in your arms
You are the last great love
of my life
You know as well as I
we are dead without the other
I am bereft without you
with whatever is left in my soul
I love you''...
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You See In The Dark
I see the light
in the dark
of your eyes
tender shadows
sparks ignite
darkness
runs with you tonite!
Fire burns
cool
on your skin
melting laughter
you stand and grin
gyrating light
lost within
you see falling
under your skin
to see in the Dark
Drink in Aphrodisiac
Quench in Prowness
Chanting with the Mighty
You dance with the animal within
Flying High
Down Below
Spirals Turning
Blackness Grows
Because the falling
stillness knows
You see in the Dark!
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You think you can tell heaven from hell
Never mind your fears
someday
you'll be free
just keep on walking
just lay your dreams
and someday
somewhere
you will sing your greatest song
just keep growing
courage is not freedom from fear
it is freedom from doing it
again and again.
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Your Alison
You get your better half
to critique your
proposterous
hideous
selfish
fiendish
self
on this site
Good Luck.........
May 2008 be great!
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your name
now,
I live
for your name
to see it
assures me
you are
still here
in this world
still resonating
within the molecules
of my being
and this
must sustain me
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Your Time Is Going to Come
Your karma is gathering
like the infected pus
at the head of an angry pimple.
Just the sound of your name
reverberates backs to haunch
in abomination of Your character
who is hacking up blood and phlegm
on the lips of a T.B. sufferer.
Your existance, spews a venemous slime
that balances ''Greed'' on the pin tip
of the lives invested in, ''YOU''.
Money, is at the helm of your Hell
because with all your riches
you can not have happiness
when you steal it away from others.
So bellow in the idea that
''YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON''
as your empire crumbles
and ''People Know''.
(dedicated to my Landlord T.S.)
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You're It
You breathe,
you laugh,
you see,
you feel...
don't fall into the abyss...
love is all around you...
and everything you are looking for...
comes from within yourself.
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Zaroastrians
With fire as a
symbol of God
this ''fire of fire's''
still burning
as the keepers
of dawn
appease darkness
with a flame
7 centuries going
yet,21st century keepers
are in inexorable decline
and a potent vitality dims...
Who will preserve
the Endless Light?
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