ALL POEMS OF JAY AGUINIGA

Poetry Series
Jay Aguiniga
- poems -
2
Jay Aguiniga
Natural Gas Tech. Eastern Utah Mountains
'In the end we're all just chalk lines on the concrete, drawn only to be
washed away. For the time, I have been given. I am, what I am.
3
A Moment in Time
With each step time passes,
Each exhale of the breathe
Our time moves like this succulent summer breeze,
The coolness caresses our molded bodies
Starlight guiding
Billions of possibilities fill the heavens
By chance here we are binding
Stepping into our future
Carrying our love from the past
No matter the distance traveled,
Life will not be without you.
One can only live,
If aware of their own existence.
I would rather not exist
If you wasn't here to share it with me.
Life is about what is dear to you,
And you my dear,
Well you are my life.....
Jay Aguiniga
4
Angels Letter
We always knew
chance might come some day.
Like a whisper in the wind
Across the sky, I go far away.
I know it must
hurt you so.
But you must let me open my wings,
so I may go.
Just a few more seconds,
a life time of moments
still to attend too.
I would give the world
to spend another night with you.
So wipe the tears
from your face.
I can assure you
I'm heading to a far better place.
You will understand once,
you gaze into the candlelight.
And with in your own heart
you'll know I'll be alright.
Because when the candle of life,
is lit on fire.
In the flame
is just another angel to admire.
So what I ask of you
is please don't mourn.
For today is a special day,
an angel was born.
Heaven glows,
in the still of the night,
As the angels dance
in the flickering light.
So tonight light a candle
in remembrance of me.
And for all the angels
that soon will be.
Always have comfort
I'll be watching you from high an above.
Just think of me and I will be there
Signed..... your Angel with Love.
Jay Aguiniga
5
Autumn Love
I be missin' you baby
I be callin' you baby
Here we lie.
Just you and I
See the ice
sprinkled throughout the midnight sky
So romantic, so precise.
No worries,
Just our love,
stars move above.
Here I am
What a gem,
Here you are.
Another night under the stars.
The cool autumn breeze,
Brings the chill
Inflaming an inner melodic theme.
love tumbling in free will,
Dreamin' a pinup dream.
Our vise,
staring deep Into each other’s eyes.
Let fate intervene,
We don’t want routine.
Take the time,
Master this desire
Specialize this lifetime.
Forever will transpire,
Right before the eyes..
Baby…love together is the prize.
Jay Aguiniga
6
Believing
One day,
Dance with the wind.
Over the horizon,
Follow the heart blind.
One day,
distinguish where those stars go.
Dark side of the moon,
witness the golden glow.
One day,
Search for the hue.
Soul unhindered,
Conviction tried and true.
One day,
Dreams come true.
It will not be painless,
Ambition was never intended to.
Jay Aguiniga
7
Breaking Away
I’m feeling this feeling inside of me.
Don’t know where I’m going, you see
Its tearin’ a hole, under your control
I can’t believe the years you stole.
You will never take that from me.
You will never see. I will never be.
Who would ever known where I’d be today
You never believed in my yesterday.
Now I’m cryin, I’m dyin to see my future
havin' sewn my heart with a natural suture
Now everyone respects me, life is never steep.
No one will ever take that from me, wake me from this sleep.
I never gave up, I’m not afraid
Barley breathing in the shade, on an ambitious crusade.
I have reached the peak, you could never see
I disagree; the view looks beautiful to me.
Don’t know where I’m going, you see
But I see my soul fleeing,
The lord has been my friend, keeping me from condescending
I won’t bend, pulling my life from the end.
Now the end is the beginning
The beginning of a whole new thinning.
The purpose to shine in the blind
My mind free to unwind from the thick outer rind.
Jay Aguiniga
8
Chocolate Kisses
My darling missus
Loves her chocolate kisses.
Watching, she provocatively
Undresses the foil,
Artfully revealing the dark creamy skin
Like a black jack dealer
with a deck of Holye’s
For a brief moment that seems
Like hours,
She savors this flavor.
The taste so simple yet so complex,
Even Comparing it to everyday sex!
The sweetness so fluffy light.
She flicks her tongue in delight.
I’m so jealous,
at the same time feeling overzealous.
I’m a man of means,
And by no means.
Can I be replaced by a substance
Made of cacao beans.
Her eyes are filled with bliss
As she devours this kiss.
She gently smiles softly winks at me
Numbing, as if stung
by an African honey bee.
The happiness it brings
Makes me smile.
And the love that comes from this piece
makes it all worthwhile.
Jay Aguiniga
9
Color of a Sunrise
This morning driving to work I witnessed a beautiful predawn sunrise.
My mind started to ponder.....
Each of us has been given a gift full of opportunities, blessed with freewill.
With the will, one can make any dream come true
like the colors in the predawn sunrise, life is the canvas and we are the artists painting
our lives full of glorious colors, the pages one writes reaches out to the heavens.
It's took me half of my life to figure this out.
Now I may not reach every dream or seize every opportunity in my life,
but it's refreshing to know, it's all up to me.....
Jay Aguiniga
10
Cracked
Drowning and trying to suppress
a past, so long ago.
The burn smothers,
my most inner immortal shine.
Consuming it,
Until only
dark matter materializes.
Trying to once again dream,
But so empty, imagery
That no longer exists.
The substance of reality
Long gone, from this world of mine.
Living has regressed,
to the stage of suffocation.
Searching, hoping to
Find that glimmer of light.
This journey so profound,
An never quite seems to end.
Memories harbor my haunting,
Preserving my human anguish.
Once changed
I’ll never be the same.
My soul,
Cracked can never be unbroken.
Jay Aguiniga
11
Dear Baby
Oh, baby I can see
The strength you bring to me.
I'm sorry at times a glimmer of doubt comes to be.
But baby it’s not you, it’s just me.
All throughout my life, my true love has been blind.
Then I met you and now my love is more defined.
I don’t expect you to run or even climb the highest hill you find,
Just walk with me, with our hearts filled and aligned.
The proof you may show, is be with me, until the end.
Be my lover, confidant and most of all, my friend.
I will never ask you such things to be a slave.
Just stand with me and most of all be brave.
Gazing at your eyes I see your love.
And every in between, beyond and above.
If you ever doubt that my love is true,
Just watch my chest heave; every breath is just for you.
The day will come soon enough for you and me.
Then our life can be lived to the highest degree.
They say a moment can stand still when you’re with the one you love,
All I know is at this very moment; you’re the only one I’m thinking of.
The way you stare at me, is just enough to make me gasp for air.
This universe is just you and I, and nothing can compare.
I will never pass you by; it will always be toe to toe,
Side by side, and forever quid pro quo.
I will be the one, who diverts the rivers from your eyes,
Embracing your soul, and brighten your skies.
Dear baby, I can never write enough about you.
Your image is the aspiration that keeps me pulling through.
If you should ever die, before I
With a sorrow good-bye, and my love on standby,
My eyes will close and for one last time, watch how the sun lies.
Once again, meeting you in a different life.
Love you baby
Jay Aguiniga
12
Dear Baby Part 2
Standing, watching you soar out of view,
Seems like an eternity has passed, already without you.
I know you will miss me.
But the void just makes us see,
How strong this love, really can be.
Just a moment ago,
We embraced and said our goodbyes,
Wiping, the tears that fell from your eyes,
So hard, such a short time expressed,
Right now, I’m focusing, how much time we possessed.
I’m thinking how much your touch, means to me
I know how hard this is going to be.
Always know you’re the reason,
That my soul is whole,
like tropical rain forests, need rainy seasons.
You’re the stunning rose that blooms,
In the arctic winter on a sunny day.
The soft-hearted mint,
That takes my breath away.
You’re the frame that keeps
My heart from breaking in two.
The sediment that layers and
forms the foundation I stand on.
No matter how long, No matter the distance,
This romance will last; like timeless existence.
I will be waiting impatiently for your swift return,
Not soon enough is my only concern.
Soon you will be touching me,
holding me, once again, you will be loving me.
Swollen red eyes, Keeping my tears shrouded
lifting my heavy head,
I watch you disappear into the clouds.
Sending you telepathic thought;
Before you drift into your dreams
a gentle breeze may cross your face
Do not fret though;
For it’s just me, blowing you a kiss
From this distant place.
Love you baby
Jay Aguiniga
13
Death
My kingdom is the depths
Of a light that has lost its hue.
I’m the fallen one who
Your anger speaks too.
With my wings folded
Thoughts are now obscure.
Beyond the mist
nothing more is pure
Holding back the flood
That enlightens you.
Darkness consumes the soul
Of the angel out of view
I desire not to be alone
Its something I despise.
For I am full filled with
The sadness in your eyes.
You are calling for me
So I may quench the thirst.
My blessing, is now
become your dying curse.
The Shadows of my immortal
Spirits are now in total control
Devouring, screaming as you
Swirl among the dead souls.
You start to fade into oblivion
All hope is lost, eyes now closed
Realizing now it’s too late,
Horror takes one last breath
as you slowly start too decompose…..
Jay Aguiniga
14
Deepwater Horizion
In the Gulf, the sun rises over the everglades,
And sets over the Sierra Madre Oriental.
On the waves rocks the derrick,
A iron horizon made monumental.
The pride of any nation,
Men drill in the deep water…
It has been handed down,
From father to son, and mother to daughter…
Northern Gannets circle,
The gale winds kick up the mist.
Saltine caps crash on her side,
The pipe disappears to the abyss.
Down a mile and half, it lays hidden,
danger unknown lurks deep down under…
Down below a bubble breaks a seal,
The gas expands, the devil bound to explode her…
The men hear the swoosh,
A sound that comes straight from hell
Men, don’t you give up, for God sake,
We got to shut her down, the driller yells…
The news breaks of the disaster,
A man dreams, soon to be washed ashore
On April 20, the Horizon…
Sinks to the bottom of the ocean floor…
A crew of hundred and twenty six,
Eleven souls where never found…
On this cold dreadful spring our tears fell
ribbons wave and now blow in the Gulf sound…
It’s thirst of black gold
That we all hunger for…
Lets not turn our heads in this hour
Remember the fallen, with 11 rings
Their children and what they died for.
Jay Aguiniga
15
Floating Dreams
Floating weightless
high above,
in a entity of a dream.
Tossing, amongst the heavens
searching endlessly,
I find the essence of your heart.
Entwined, I wrap myself,
grasping, never wanting to lose
the gravity that binds me.
Feeling the warmth,
that beats,
alarming my most inner soul.
I'm suddenly awaken
just to find you lying in my arms.
With a sigh of
almost Earthly relief...
I gently drift back into my dream.
Jay Aguiniga
16
Following You
When we was just kids,
On the mountain ridge,
Overlooking the valley.
You followed me on that day,
Hell or high water,
Beside me,
No matter where I go.
Love of mine,
You are still at my side,
Following, even though
Tomorrow is not sure,
So blindly we gaze
Beyond the stars our hope glows.
Someday our time will come,
Like the wild flower blooms
I will always be at your side,
No matter where you go,
Hell or high water,
I will follow you,
Because darling I love you so...
Jay Aguiniga
17
Forever Temporary
Some say,
a rose is temporary and will one day wilt and die
But the beauty it holds,
will forever be in the heart of my eye.
Forever will always be
Forever... temporary to me.
Some say,
the emptiness I have, will one day wilt and die
But the love I have,
will forever be in the heart of my sigh
Forever will always be
Forever... temporary to me.
Some say,
I will be fulfilled one day, before I wilt and die
But the one I have lost.
will forever be in the heart of my cry.
Forever will always be
Forever... temporary to me.
Jay Aguiniga
18
Full Circle
I sit here in a daze….
I wept when I first seen your mother in wedding lace.
I cried as I unveiled her angel face.
I wept when the night she said yes I will marry you
I cried on top of alter as I heard her say I do.
I wept when she said we are having a baby.
I cried when I thought of the name daddy.
I wept when I seen that pink lace.
I cried as I unveiled that angel face.
I wept the very first time you got ill.
I cried when you took your first spill
I wept that very first prom night.
I cried because I knew he was your white knight.
I wept because I knew I wasn’t the only man anymore
I cried because soon you would be walking through that door.
I sit here weeping …..
As I see you in that wedding lace.
I cry as he unveils that angel face.
I weep this night because he is marrying you.
I cry as the past echo’s the very same words...I do.
I sit here as a grin appears..
I grin in anticipation for that first glance of that pink lace….
I smile the day I unveil that angel face.
I grin when I first think of seeing that baby.
I smile at the thought of grand daddy………
Jay Aguiniga
19
Ghost in My Heart
A haunting comes calling
time from time. It wanders from the soul
To the mind. Hearing the cries,
As it screams for immunities key.
Begging for peace, so it may be release.
Asking nothing more than
To be deceased.
Head lowered
I cannot part. It will always be an aspiration.
A Ghost in my heart.
I plead, please
Forgive me. I will never, be able
To set you free.
The sadness struggles
On Between us. Never Free,
Nothing more and nothing less
Worlds within,
Must learn to co-inside.
Mingling forever, Eternity together
will Be our suicide
Jay Aguiniga
20
Good-Bye Baby
Hey baby we tried,
We done everything we could.
We tried to pull this through,
But the tug of war, overcame me..today
I have no strength left in me
I have no more words to say.
I’m worn by the long trips home,
With you just staring out that window.
I’m thinking to myself..
Whoever thought our Rome….
Would fall…
Our self built Coliseum of marble
Wall…,
We both dreamed it would
Stand the test of time.
But today it crumbled in a heap,
I couldn’t hold it up any longer
I’m just too shattered in the mind….
When we was both younger
We had life by the horns.
It was a 20 year old ride,
we rode it… until
all that was left of the rose
was the thorns.
Although I can still smell
The memory.. its longed past.
It went by so fast…
Oh baby, I really thought
This would last…
Some are…
happy with just soaring in the clouds.
But baby, I want to explore
What’s beyond those stars….
I want so much, more….
What hurts the most,
I know this aint the only Rodeo.
This aint the only video
Of a love that went wrong,
Its not the only sad song
On the radio…..
You will eventually move on..
And so will I,
Our love fell today …hun.
In a blink of an watered up eye,
I hope the hurt subsides soon,
So one day, I can dust myself off
And wipe these tears away……
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Good-Bye Baby
Jay Aguiniga
22
Grassy Knoll
On the high grassy knoll
I lie on this hour,
Freckles of ice
Sprinkle the midnight sky
Warming the summer breeze,
Blanketing the soul.
One is so minuscule,
Only a speck,
A dropp in the ocean.
The mind
Expands like the stars,
Our time, just a slice,
A frame in
an galactic motion picture.
In youth,
lifetime is infinity.
Minutes are hours
With age,
lifetime a beautiful sunset,
a mere minute,
That fades before your eyes.
With a sigh, I stand
I descend, morning comes stealin.
Turning, an aspiration
A young man on the grassy knoll.
Jay Aguiniga
23
Half Open & Half Closed
A mother sighs....
her child takes a pose.
The chair sways......
the angels eyes begin to close.
Eyes Half opened...
Innocence looks up once more.
The Mother smiles...
her labor no more a chore.
Heaven sent...
God has delivered a gift
Eyes half closed...
an sleep comes swift
Mother and child...
now are both dozed.
A picture of heaven...
Half opened...and Half closed.
Jay Aguiniga
24
Haunting Love
Watching seasons devoured by the click of the clock
Gazing at the stars as they pass,
They follow a circular path, a journey of destiny,
Where is my hope? I am blinded to my horizon.
The Zion I search for is unreachable
How can I breath life into these lungs of mine,
burning, the warm breeze that caresses my skin,
cannot unfreeze this empty heart.
I cant help but to remember,
Everything reminds me of you
The night sky is the color of midnight blue,
And yet the mind is clouded gray by you.
The haunting of you at my side
Consumes every shadow.
Every step forward has your
Footprints in my mind.
I cannot live without someone like you.
My chest still heaves
But the heart still in this lifeless soul.
The phantom touch of your skin
scars, every moment without you….
Jay Aguiniga
25
Hollow Dreams
Dreams…..
Running through the woods…
Tonight alone again…
Alone again…
Broken and lost….
What am I suppose to do?
Through my eyes…
Every move, in slow motion…
A stranger in this vast world…
Inside I feel so cold….
I’m fading…..
Breathless….slowly turning into the mist…
Tonight what is my fate?
Distantly…
Through the tree line… I see light…
Running….
Closing my eyes….
Experiencing the fear….
I’m falling again…
A stranger in my own world…
Consumed …
Through the trees…
I fade….
Jay Aguiniga
26
I'm Alive
The sun beams through the window,
awaken, gently rubbing my eyes.
The pressure lifted from my soul
I feel whole like a crystal clear blue sky.
Standing out on the porch, stretching,
I see the leaves floating downstream.
So thankful to be alive, breathing,
One more day to once again dream.
The breeze moves every
hair follicle like a symphony.
The trees waving like,
Dancing Angels, all in harmony.
The sound of everything living
Coats the inner ears.
Beyond the valley, the mountain
So pristine, the beauty premiers.
I’m in awe; I’m not a religious man,
But whatever made this picture visible to me.
Must have a higher power, a plan too enchant,
a path to follow, as I sip my mountain tea.
I believe,
that there is a course to take for us all.
Wherever that may lead,
like when summer transcends to fall.
Not knowing where this road leads,
we keep moving, because we have too.
Smiling, and I’m crystal clear, like that blue sky,
on every detail of life’s point of view.
Jay Aguiniga
27
I'm Dreaming
Sitting, day dreaming, pondering,
about the simple things in life and love.
What really is love? What does life have to offer?
Do we dream so we can feel? My soul tells me that this moment is not a dream,
So please don’t wake me. I would rather die here,
feeling the spirit of my soul that surrounds me.
Dreaming of that little boy, playing catch with a puppy,
makes me see the love. The little boy has aged, now a grown man,
the last piece of dirt descends, blue eyes bleeding,
best-friends until the very end.
I’m starting to see that love is more than imagined, so moving.
My thoughts now drift, I see a middle aged man standing on top of a mountain,
how odd, and he can now hear every subtle sound.
Do you take the time to listen how the leaves rustle in wind,
the sound of Mother Nature how she flows?
Why couldn’t I hear it all before? , now he is dying, dying to hear, the simple things in
life.
My soul now removed, I can feel life, I know now I’m alive.
I will never again take for granite what it feels like.
My head now lowered, I’m humbled, by the fact that one must appreciate life.
Tears stream from my eyes, blurred and once removed.
Now clearly I see a vision, of an old man.
Holding the hand of the one he loves so dearly.
The sadness is more than my soul can bare.
Time has come to say good-bye.
Do you ever take the time, to remember?
Remembering how a loved one can make you feel so much life?
That isn’t dying, that’s living.
The bond, of a love that we sometimes can over look.
I’m dreaming, as the old man says good-bye to another angel.
I’m living… to tell a story, hoping at this very moment, you search the soul.
Take a deep breath, experience the spirit of what it feels to be alive……
Jay Aguiniga
28
It's always been you
Here surrounded by strange people,
I can't seem to focus
without seeing you.
In a far away city
I find you always on my mind,
The hands keep spinning round
Days blend, its a blur I cant keep up with the time
It's always been you
You have always
been the frame
That keeps my heart
From breaking in two.
Here surrounded by satin sheets
I can't close my eyes
without seeing you
in this hotel room,
lonely keeps me company tonight.
It's always been you
The flower, that lines the path from sight.
You have always
Been the soft-hearted mint
That takes my breath away.
Here surrounded by memories
I can't close my eyes
Without seeing you
In a far away dream
I find myself wide awake
Trying to find my way,
Back to you from this heartache
It's always been you
You have always,
been the convey of season
I lie here missing you.
Like sand escaping from the hourglass
The nights slowly dwindle away.
Jay Aguiniga
29
Its No Secret
The fragrance, in the air
Is the scent of a tropical candle, breeze.
Swinging is the bag of Gap.
Your happiness is the gap,
That gaps my inner soul.
Your smile so pristine,
We move about, our eyes connect,
I stand amazed.
You enter Victoria Secrets.
It seems the world can see our secret.
But without a doubt,
It’s no secret that you love me.
In the middle of the walk way
An older couple snuggle.
Pure love aged.
It’s not by chance that their in love.
Time may past,
But the present is our time.
A chance too live,
The chance, to live the dance.
Tomorrow when awakened,
I hope to find, the dreams that
Are not taken,
will become ours to take.
The road together,
doesn’t seem so long.
But long enough to know,
How much I long for you.
Jay Aguiniga
30
Just don’t see that anymore
Kids these days miss so much
Remember life’s soft touch?
Sticks and stones,
John Wayne and Jesse James.
Now its,
Ipods and Cell Phones,
My space and PS3 games.
I recall back in the day, pulling my little sis.
In that red flyer wagon....
Her running behind, as we ran through the mist,
Those little legs always laggin…
We had life lassoed,
When we stood for…
something.
You just don’t see that anymore….
The other day at the local
Fast food chain.
I held the door open for
An elderly woman,
Smiling as she got of the rain..…
I remember the days
Of the five and dime.
The old fashioned cash registers
Seemed like we had all day to get things done…
We weren’t running against old father time…
We had life lassoed,
When we stood for…
something.
You just don’t see that anymore….
I picked up an old novel
Off the mantle of the fireplace.
Dusted off the cover,
We just don’t…..
Take the time to embrace,
the story,
inside the story.
We all, are too worried,
Something will pass us by…..
Maybe we just….
Need to stop for a minute, breath,
And for once turn a blind eye….
We had life lassoed,
When we stood for…
something.
You just don’t see that anymore….
On the corner is the old cowboy poet…
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He tries to turn the world
Into giant love song duet.
Knowing that nothing he says
Will change the way we are….
But he gives it a whirl, anyways.
Singing as if it were an 8 second ride..
On a blazing evening star….
Tonight…
I watch, as my world Crochets,
Rocking on the chair,
I sit here amazed….
Just how much patience she has….
I’m blessed, to have such a genuine love affair.
I adore her as much as….
The very first day we met.
Under the moon and stars of the midnight sky.
It’s something … that one cannot ever forget.
We had life lassoed,
When we stood for…
something.
You just don’t see that anymore….
Jay Aguiniga
32
Lifes Moment
What is life?
When I die will the love still linger in my soul?
Or will the memories of it drift, like an old portrait in an art museum.
The glamour once shinny in the eyes of the photographer, but now just faded in ours.
Will it become just another past moment long forgotten, caught in a priceless still.....?
Is our moment just a now...? only remembered by the ones who coexisted in our world
of space.
Do we live to make our mark in life....? So we will be remembered, like how a river
cuts through a canyon,
over the cliffs it has molded lies beyond what we don't know.
Is there a light at the end of the horizon?
Or when our time comes to an end, does it slowly go down like a sunset that I gaze at
this very moment...?
My moment is now; and I will live it.
I will write about things I do not understand.
I have no fear of death for death is life's shadow.......
Jay Aguiniga
33
Living the Dream
It was just yesterday
I used to dream about tomorrow.
Now the past seems so far away,
Now transformed, streamlining a Camaro.
People could never gaze my horizon,
Now look at me, staring at the endless sky.
Living the serene riches of the Amazon,
I’m the glowing in life, like a florescent dye.
No, No, no one can wipe the smile
Now their dreams live upon this face.
The doubts, certainly my happiness is fertile,
Like the Earth and stars I spin interstellar space.
Paradise created, textured by my own brush,
Material is not what I live, it’s something beyond yourself.
I breathe golden moments, as the sunsets, oh what a rush!
Dreams do come true; when lost, it’s nice to find oneself
Jay Aguiniga
34
LOST
IF THE ONE YOU DREAM
ABOUT COMES WALKING BY,
WHY DOES ONE RUN AWAY?
LOVE CAN ENTER YOUR EYES,
MAKING ONE CRY.
DRAINED DREAMS,
ONLY LEADS TO DISAPPOINTMENT
HEART BURNING, FAILED HOPE
FRAIL WISHES BECOME DISENCHANTMENT.
SEARCHING FOR LOVE,
WHAT TO BELIEVE, FALSE OR TRUE?
HELL? OR GRACES OF HEAVEN ABOVE.
WHAT DOES ONE DO?
TRUST HAS FORMED RESISTANCE
YOU BECOME IMMUNE
THE HEART A BARRIER, DISTANCE,
FEAR POURS, A TROPICAL MONSOON.
EVERYDAY, HARDER TO DREAM
EVERY NIGHT, EASIER TO LET GO,
THE WANTS THAT SCREAM,
SENSATIONS LOST, SO LONG AGO……….
Jay Aguiniga
35
LovE=MC2
I've tried to add another love
But that sum never equals you..
I subtract the longing for you.
But it always seems to multiply;
I am divided by the fact that you are gone.
Darling, I'm no Einstein
But the way I figure it
We had incalculable Love:
There is...no Mathematical Formula
That could ever make me understand.
The Love I have for you......
Jay Aguiniga
36
Loves Dance
The scent of obsession softly floats in the ambient air
The night, it’s just about you, the center of my stare.
Burning sensations, in sync, we move as one
To the sound beats loves stepping stone.
One step at a time, dance with me…
Come come baby follow me..
Forget about the politics,
Glide with your heart n soul in rhythmic acoustics.
Baby don’t think, just dance, dance
Dance with me tonight
Beads sparkle in aurora prism of disco lights,
I want to end this night with you
You and me, lets follow this love song
It’s the raging river flowing out of view.
A story book romance made strong.
Created by you and me under the moon
Tonight this song may wind to the end,
For us, the harmonics of love play a tune
On Forever and ever like the distant stars spend.
Jay Aguiniga
37
Loves Manifest
When you are near...
Your love manifests my soul...
I will give….
unconditional surrender for eternity...
I’m forever enslaved…
for you hold captivity of all my dreams...
I want you….
not just one, but all lifetimes...
You make me feel…
suspended by stealing the moment...
Together we will….
Live not half empty, but half full...
You have me….
Blinded by the present, but visualizing the future...
May our……
Wishes unfold into dreams that come true…
Your beauty…
overcomes and flushes one with purity...
I’m fulfilled by…
Unwanted fortune, for priceless, is your presence...
Darling live by loves 4 rules..
Love you,
Love me,
Love us,
Love our Love.
Jay Aguiniga
38
Loves Twilight
This fatal kiss I bring,
Comes from love’s deep ambiance.
So surreal; Nonentity of linguistic string
Tonight nothing else exists
I don’t need sunlight,
To feel your warmth amongst this abyss
Come with me,
Enter the Twilight.
These sunglasses may hide my eyes,
Look beyond; I cannot hide the feelings,
That burn from the approaching sunrise.
Take this first bite into the night.
Don’t tremble, Take my hand,
Our love has an exclusive right.
We aren’t unworthy of,
It’s our time to worship this love.
It’s no supposed to happen,
But let’s not change this obsession.
We both desire this song
Of harmonic progression.
A love that is so primeval,
A natural state of lust that is chaotic evil.
I don’t need sunlight,
To feel your warmth amongst this abyss
Come with me,
Enter the Twilight.
Its unholy matrimony,
Under the stars together.
My love, its your right to patrimony
This love will last forever.
Let’s live this immortality to the fullest,
Feel the flood,
Come with me,
taste the pureness of this blood.
I don’t need sunlight,
To feel your warmth amongst this abyss
Just trust me ……
Enter the Twilight
Enter the Twilight
Jay Aguiniga
39
Mirror rorriM
Gazing at you
I can read your every thought,
Feel every emotion that flows
The image before me piercing.
You wonder where the time has gone,
Wondering how every day seems to
Just recycle itself...
Every reflection, every slice
distinguishing your soul.
Hear, I only speak the truth
I cannot lie to you
Wipe the fog with our bare hands
It becomes clear …
Look at yourself my friend,
Can you see me, in disbelief?
I have witness your tears,
felt life’s joy in your eyes.
Remembrance is the moments when our hands
have touched palm to palm.
You have asked the question, why?
Nobody knows but me,
My confidant, our conversations
Have always been sacred
Its time…
To capture the dreams from your eyes
Live for tomorrow, learn from the truth.
Move your lips; sing about
What you don’t understand.
Day after day time keeps passing on
Laugh, smile before the refection fades away…..
Jay Aguiniga
40
Oh Sparrow
The Sparrow sings
Bring forth;
The song of spring.
Oh Sparrow,
Sing to me,
Bring forth; so much glee.
Melt winter with
Your lovely melody.
Bring Forth; the morning dew...
Too the buds on the tree.
Oh Sparrow,
Sing to me
Bring forth; the bumble bee,
See the flower blooms,
Nectar delightedly divine to me.
Oh Sparrow,
How I love thee,
Enchant thee; while perched
On the orchard tree.
Oh Sparrow,
Sing with me,
Bring forth; intone with me,
Let the winds carry
the sound of spring to the sea
Oh Sparrow
Sing with me,
I say,
Oh Sparrow,
Sing with me.
Jay Aguiniga
41
Old Friend
This evening so refreshingly cool,
A chair and bottle of fine wine.
Mesmerized as the surf crashes,
beyond the breakers,
palms waver in the sound.
The sheen reflects your ghost,
Burnt Orange casts on the Ivory Coast.
Aura prism, blended edges of streaking colors,
Holding my breath,
minutes seem like hours.
You command without giving order,
Giving love the hope to dream.
All cares vanish, the soul realizing….
Just how beautiful this world really is.
Your magnificence, a potent symphony
That quietly simmers down to a soft harmony.
With respect to you,
Waving good-bye, nothing equal to you.
Good night old friend,
As I watch you set in the evening sky.
Jay Aguiniga
42
One More Excuse
Just one more day
I can’t wait for the day
When I have the courage to breakaway...
I’m so tired, so worn, so shattered
I just don’t have much to say.
I’m sorry…I do not have the strength to carry on.
I hate fighting, I hate hating you,
I hate knowing I couldn’t have won.
But I know I should go…
Do you have any idea what I’m talking about?
What is it you desire to know?
Do you want to know, how I really feel?
How you hurt me? Should I tell you, that
You’re like, a thief in the night who steals…
That your coldness towards me
is like a bitter winter storm…
All I ever wanted was to be held
close, to fever and be warmed…
Do you even care about any of the
small things that are running through me?
I didn’t think so; it’s always been about you.
You are blind, and you will never see…
You will never feel my love, for you have amputated my desire.
You will never know the true me,
for you have shredded my heart with sharp twisting barbwire.
And you wonder why... at times I seem so far away.
It’s because I’m dying,
It’s devastating… watching my spiritual side decay.
I just want to know I’m alive.
I just want someone to pound on my heart,
I want to be electrified, just waiting to be revived.
But I just sit here and take your abuse.
Each and every day, I make believe that you love me.
Giving me purpose... to withstand one more day.
Giving me a reason… to make just one more excuse..
Jay Aguiniga
43
One more turn
Cyclin down the countryside
Down this long winding highway.
Staring out the rear view mirror
The past disappears, the lines fade away.
The hurt is always with me
No matter how fast I drive
I guess it’s along with the ride,
I just can’t seem to out run this life.
Out in front of me, through the windshield
Are the meadows the greener fields.
The fences that everyone talks about,
The ones I dream of, Day in and day out.
But here I am, stuck in drive,
My foot in the gas, Parked in the present
Just waiting for another road to arrive.
Someday I will be able to drive that way,
My life has always been just one sign away.
Hand on the steering wheel
Knuckles down,
I know I’m Just one more turn
From turning this around.
I’m not going to be beaten
Off the beaten track
Luggage rack on top
never going to look back.
Jay Aguiniga
44
Opposites
Baby you have broken me down...
and improved the indentation in the soul.
Giving me the feeling of being re-born….
and yet the very thought without you, I would literally die
You have complicated me...
but yet simplified my love.
Imprisoned me....
and at the same time set me free.
Standing still....
but yet I'm still moved.
Lips with out movement....
but still hearing the whispers of love.
Tripping....
but yet dancing back into your arms.
Confused by you...
But understanding what I feel.....
Scared to death...
and still trusting you.
In life there is no guarantee….
Sometimes you have to take a chance.
Trying not to be shallow…
For love is so divine, so deep
I will embrace…
Before you fall away.
Jay Aguiniga
45
Paradigm Dreams
Devouring, I feast
Tasting the flavor of the paradigm,
Time and time again.
Towering,
I stand on this man-made bureaucracy,
Dreaming of simplicity,
My future black, a color of obscurity
Salivating, over what used to be.
I dance,
with wolves and eat with the lions.
These ruins we roam,
Gardens disguised by deceived convictions.
A blade of grass cannot grow,
Without a desire to know.
Reverse this river of blindness,
Divert this hunger of madness.
Unhappiness sours my soul,
Every day I slither this road of endless soles.
A faded past,
when I mingled among the sheep,
But this jungle binds one,
in crazed paradoxical sleep.
Searching for that greener paradise,
Scouring, the Satisfaction disappears, I agonize.
Lost in this Michael Angelo portrait,
Pressed beliefs surrounded by Holy writ.
I run until limbs exhausted,
Paralyzed,
I stare at a horizon that is frosted……..
Jay Aguiniga
46
Perfect Portrait
A dream?
The perfect portrait
Etched in my mind.
A mirrored reflection
Of us two,
Happiness weeps
With porosity,
The still, not of black and white
but the color of
Sweet strawberry wine.
I sigh, just amazing,
Everything that matters,
Sits next to me.
Yesterday is a blur,
Today goes by so swift,
Tomorrow never comes without you.
The horizon is for us to take,
Together we shall share one world.
Possibilities, become possible,
With you at my side.
The path together, may age in time,
But etched in my mind,
Forever, Is this perfect
portrait of you and I.
Jay Aguiniga
47
Pieces
Pouring rain, drizzling down the window,
My life reflected in this café’ glass
One huge jig saw puzzle.
The pieces once fit,
But now have fallen away.
One piece from pure intention,
Thoughts lingering back,
When two souls had
The same motion together.
Coming from the theater that night,
Seeing the happiness burning
In those eyes, crippling, discovering
devotion in a whole new world.
Who was to ever guess,
The future we shared would change….
Moving through the intersection
The reverberation of crunching metal,
Overtake the eerie sounds of silence.
The pieces that once fit,
Now are scattered all over.
There we lay, two pieces,
Crumbled in a heap,
The full weight of your body
now on top of me.
Balmy, red crimson
bleeds from the nose, mouth and ears,
No time to feel, remorse
For I know the sound of dying breathe,
Feeling comfort, binding the warmth
From your skin,
I know you would not be dying alone,
But in the arms of the one you loved.
Sirens echo in the distance,
off the concrete walls.
Smothering, I held you so closely,
Helplessly, I felt the moist of my tears,
Run down, washing, the desire to live.
Jay Aguiniga
48
Possessed Poet
Click clack Click Clack Owwh Owwh
The demons surround me,
Click clack Click Clack Owwh Owwh
Beating drums, dancing,
All in a circular path.
Twisting, like veins of ancient tribesman,
My eyes transfixed,
Of untainted white marble.
pen flaming, streaming beams
Emitting on each stroke,
Back and forth, back and forth
Click Clack Click Clack Owwh Owwh
body swaying, head bobbling
With the rhythm of the war drums.
No one is safe,
Choice or truth,
Poison from the tree.
Click Clack Click Clack Owwh Owwh
We have had our chance
The glance of the bow comes,
Along with the crown.
Back and forth, back and forth
Click Clack Click Clack Owwh Owwh
Pain, blood, misery comes by the sword,
Open your closed red eyes,
No peace will be found.
Back and forth, back and forth
Click Clack Click Clack Owwh Owwh
Bare fields, dead sheep
Hunger outweighs,
Clear minds in the balance.
Back and forth, back and forth
Click Clack Click Clack Owwh Owwh
No protection, step away
From where you hide,
You have made your choice.
Back and forth, back and forth
Click Clack Click Clack Owwh Owwh
body swaying, head bobbling
With the rhythm of the war drums.
Jay Aguiniga
49
Resin heart
I’m stuck in glue
I move,
But attached,
Unable to break free from you.
The words you say,
Stick to me,
Deaf ears,
My soul pasted to keep you away.
Your coldness,
Has adhesive to my heart
The compound has bonded,
And drove me apart.
You have,
Harden me with your resin,
That bleeds from your pores.
I break this,
Unnatural chemical bond,
By shutting down, I cry out, for
I’m broken.
My resin heart,
Once porcelain… now shattered pieces of art.
I cannot even bleed
The pores that once flowed,
now clogged of your deed.
Jay Aguiniga
50
Rewind
Looking back....
On how far I have came
I see the faded highway
Flashing back
Flying amongst the stars
But feeling
The feeling of falling
Looking back....
Wishin I could turn back time
If I could change one thing,
One more second to react
I could have missed...
Erase that fatal memory.
He never knew...
This would be his last ride.
The car out of control
Feelin' haunted, twisted metal
His world changed,
I try to rewind,
asking God why
Even though I know the answer
I'm asking God to try
Looking back..
in my rearview mirror.
I see the faded highway.
I never knew that boy,
But there isn't a day
I don't think of boy.
Wishin it Hadn' ended that way,
But some things are meant
It's the way
it's supposed to be..
No one knows why
No answers even though we try.
My soul scarred
My tears falling amongst
The stars...
Jay Aguiniga
51
Silent Expressions
The wind scurries across my ears
Rain drops fall, time disappears.
Lightning illuminates the cascade in the eye.
This day is to die, don’t pass me by
I’m trying to weather,
Pulling the bits and pieces together.
Every facial crease, evidence of disgrace
Where is my place in this vast space?
Despair is near
Wasting away is the fear.
A Fate with no highway
Disarray and no place to runaway
Trying to shape the heading
Praying my destination wont beheading
I’m digging, searching for the peace
Figuring it’s time to put life at ease.
The soul out paces the climb,
Time and time again, is the only crime.
My reason has become a hideous lesion
An intention blended into another season.
Pollution clouds the solution,
The rhyme leads to my Evolution.
Releasing the passion from the breath
Silent expressions put to death.
Jay Aguiniga
52
Simple Love
Darling,
Together we walk
Focusing on the soft touch
feeling every textured
crevice, of your skin.
I love you so much,
Watching your
High-lighted Long strands
Frolicking in the breeze,
The want of, smelling
Your fragrance, freshness
Co-mingled with the mountain wind,
The sparkle in your eyes,
Glitters,
Like the hope of a wish,
On a falling star.
Darling I’m not
A man of big words,
Hell baby, I probably don’t
Even know a third
Of what’s in Mr. Webster’s.
But I do know…..
As you pick that wild flower,
What the meaning of life is…
the meaning is you darling.
I love your soft touch
I love you so much.
I long that you see,
That, I have enough of me,
To spend eternity together,
Until the end of our time.
I’m excited of the possibilities
spending forever with you.
I know at times,
I do your head in
Just thankful you understand,
when I give ya that
What did I do, Grin.
You always have had that
Knack, of making me feel
That I’m standing above any crowd.
You allow me to brighten that smile
On a bad day,
taking away the dark storm cloud.
If I could define our love,
More than life itself, everything above,
You being my very best friend,
From the beginning to the very end.
Darling what do you say,
We walk down from this foothill.
Lets take the long way home,
Enjoy the spill of this,
53
Until the sun goes down…
Jay Aguiniga
54
Small Town
Here we go, living in this small town
trying to escape the nail down.
The colors never seem to change
Like the leaves on the mountain range.
How did we ever know,
That we be stuck on life’s plateau?
Here we go again,
by the tracks watching another passing train.
Tonight the great debate,
Is what lies beyond the road of fate?
No one wants to be left behind,
Everyone laughs with an unconscious mind..
Passing another sip,
Tossing it like a poker chip.
Betting on our lives,
Holding on to our dreams, until it arrives.
This small town looks even smaller tonight,
High on life, so dim in the visible light.
Here we go again,
Heading down the hill like water down a drain.
Next weekend It will be the same dream,
About life’s color scheme.
Just another small town,
Locked down and weighed down.
Jay Aguiniga
55
Smoldering Sigh
With gentle, blowing kiss
Depart quickly, relieve your claim.
The Candle wick,
yields to the flame.
Fluttering breeze come with flow,
Fiery cry to your previous glow.
Smoldering sigh;
darkness consumes,
the flame must die…
But within, a single ember thrives.
A mirror of I; struggle and survive.
Carving twilight with a surgical knife,
Once again casting; shadow of life,
Yearning to breathe existence,
Validity to dwell with continuation,
Freed,
from smoldering, smothering cage,
burn beyond, boundaries of own rage.
Jay Aguiniga
56
SOUTHERN VIEW
Under the Gods we share,
Tonight they saw…
Not Ordinary, first of all…
Love affair, drawn in calm air
Up on the hill,
By the old water mill.
Rolling the dice; like gods will,
Letting this southern romance spill…
Soft spoken, locked eyes
Intertwined, with long sighs..
Pushin you against the car,
Lonely, no no, by far...
Moon shines upon me and you.
No mortal can turn back time.
Tasting the soul on the dew,
Our body’s, silhouette mimes
Taking a page from Robert frost
All time is lost.
Pursue and follow through,
to loves beautiful view.
Jay Aguiniga
57
Sword of Love
Stainless steel
perfect firmness
the creator forge's,
hammering in form comes trust.
Dripping molten lava
Smoldering blacken purity
become's unbending faith
illumination twisted,
tenderness reflecting
Drawing-out,
wielded is unflawed creation.
The edge knifelike sharp,
but tang is of the other side.
Guard set, for protection
of its sharpness contrast.
Pommel secured, so guardian
can thrust authority through
Tempered is this Steel, use wisely
for it is the sword of love...
Jay Aguiniga
58
The Color of Me
The other night I read a poem from a poet
who spoke of colors of the soul.
Well that poem spoke so loudy
I realized right then... mine is the color of coal.
People see the love I write,
but what they don't see.. is how I feel.
I'm a man who is dying inside,
who has nothing but dreams and nothing to reveal.
The color so empty, and so hollow.
Sometimes so hard to breath,
but most of all its so hard to swallow.
In this life, all I ever wanted,
was just one more chance.
A chance to prove the little things,
do matter in lifes stance.
I've been dreaming of love
dreaming to once again live.
Just searching for the strength to endure,
just one more day to survive.
I watch the sunrise everyday,
Just to watch sink into the night.
I sense the cold it brings,
The core so raw, emotions bleed, and I begin to write.
I imagine as I begin to write,
once again I can feel the love.
That I’m whole, filled
With everything I speak of.
I believe in second chances
A chance to do another dance.
To dance the dream,
So I can re-experience the scheme,
Out there somewhere, an angel
Awaits to save me.
To once again fill me with color,
Showing me to believe,
Believing in my dreams
Lifting me, from my knee
…..so once again I can see.
Jay Aguiniga
59
The Kiss
From the sweetest dream, warming I awaken
I heave, inhaling a gift of promises of hope to fulfill
Chemistry, no science has explanation for.
Commitment to put others needs a bit higher than mine.
A will to live, not alone, but to share tears,
Passion combined with purpose
To define would ruin the purity.
Emotionally, physically til the end of time,
Yearning in the heart, burns.
Smiling,
Bliss is the kiss of life.
Jay Aguiniga
60
The Lion
Death comes closer,
the zone comes to sight.
Eyes closed, visions are of home,
how lovely is thee.
His past, present,
and his bride to be.
nervous, not knowing what the
next few moments will bring
Folding arms, become a cross,
for he knows, this is the real thing.
Upon shield, The bird
glides too the fiery perch
This is not the hollow ground,
of any church.
Staring through the glare,
Many brothers of the horde.
Life takes a sigh,
Raises the blood worn sword.
Bravely they lurch,
into hells domain.
Swiftly they fight, as foretold
In the story of Abel and Cain.
To be a champion isn’t
his patrimony glory, Bravery is the reward.
Now he watches brothers fall,
one by one by the sword.
Moving gracefully,
His heart now that of ice.
Stumbling, the lion senses
The first slice.
He drops to his knees,
As one does at the altar to kneel and pray.
This is a wonderful day to die,
Angel Kings appear, so they may take him away
Opening his eyes one last time,
soul now unconstrained to roam.
Beyond the horizon, a Kingdom lies,
Finally the journey home.
Jay Aguiniga
61
The Nox
I’ve been high,
I’ve searched the sky,
I’ve been low
I’ve lost the plateau
The lights go out
Darkness, the ferry of doubt.
The Body shattered,
Torn, the luminance battered.
Venom sears memories,
bones haunt past bodies
A closet half empty, I lull
Perhaps, just a life half full
Grasping onto the one thing
My dreams weak, I cling.
Eyes heavy, with all my might
The Nox descends, to collapse the night
Jay Aguiniga
62
The Polar Bear
My dark coal eyes,
Stars gleaming,
Make a star materialize.
The Aura Borealis
In the far distance.
Gives the horizon
An ember of subsistence.
The feeling of ice
The feeling so nice.
The feeling of ice
So nice.
I’m falling
The frigid arctic air,
Feels so cool.
This barren wasteland
Is our paradise jewel.
I’m a carnivore
I’m the polar bear.
Here I am
Feeling the ice
The feeling so nice
The feeling of ice
So nice.
We have roamed
Forever and a day
Now my homeland
Is melting away.
The ice that was so nice
Is breaking piece by piece
My joy, the heart
Breaking, piece by piece.
These dark coal eyes
Bare frozen tears.
Our numbers dwindle
In this new global frontier.
I’m at war,
In this human home.
A carnivore
I’m the polar bear………..
Jay Aguiniga
63
The Window
The outside to the inside isn’t in sync
When I start using this pen an ink.
It’s not easy to know…
You’re not wanted…
I hear whispers coming from the window.
It’s not easy to flow out our problems
It’s not easy to listen to the sounds..
Oh my god it’s so tough to stand here
And watch one person’s life disappear.
It’s all the same, deep down inside of you.
Everything moving away, so moving to conform to.
(Numbing) … I long to feel the breeze….
to once again caress my skin.
I want to once again feel
What it is I truly believe in.
I’m losing my most inner qualities
screaming silently, .. someone please save me
I’m having a meltdown, why can’t you see?
It’s so tough on you and I
It’s so tough… that you must watch me die,
In pen and ink, so slowly is this death,
every single day a struggle for one more breath.
Life is the same, sanity so tough to deliver
Just trying not to drown in Isolations River.
It’s all about what’s driving inside of you,
Opening the window, calling for me..
whispers I hear….I push through.
(Tears streaming) ... I can’t remember the last
Time, that I took to dream.
Closing my watered eyes
Searching for any source of light beam.
Taking a breath… (Sighs) .. Searching for the courage
To make the first move
Thinking of all the little things
That made me feel alive, just something to prove.
My sadness... is in every piece, and my soul
Is wore so very thin.
I’m falling, how oddly now... I feel peace,
I can feel the breeze once again caressing my skin….
Jay Aguiniga
64
Thin Walls
Through the thin walls,
I hear,
Slamming doors, broken lies
Muffled anguished cries.
She’s worthy of,
much, much more.
Screaming in my mind,
You don’t know a thing about love,
I want to save you.
The need to protect,
Please let me reach into,
To save you,
From all this neglect.
Screaming in my mind,
Please, can’t one just be kind.
Take my arm,
Let me take you from harm.
Through the thin walls….
I hear,
Slamming doors, broken lies
Muffled anguished cries,
They are worthy of
Much, much more.
You both don’t know a thing about love,
I want to save you
The need to protect.
Please let me reach into,
Save you from all this neglect
Screaming in my mind,
Please, can’t you both just be kind.
Take my arm,
Let me take you from harm.
Through the thin walls….
I hear,
Slamming doors, , broken lies
Muffled anguished cries.
She says… I’m worthy of,
Much, much more.
I’m tired of screaming in my mind,
You don’t know a thing about love,
I cant save you.
I have them to protect,
Please don’t reach into,
I don’t love you,
I must save us from this neglect
I’m tired of screaming in my mind,
Please why, couldn’t you have been kind?
Let go of my arm,
I must take them from this harm……..
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Jay Aguiniga
66
Through Your Eyes
Mommy I’m never going to get feeling better am I?
Mommy when I close my eyes.
Through your eyes I see hope.
One more day of chemo therapy I must endure.
Through your eyes I feel no pain.
One more day we don’t take for granted.
Through your eyes I see life so precious.
One more day you get to hold me.
Through your eyes I have no fear
One more day of restless sleep.
Through your eyes I see peace.
One more day to get prepared.
Through your eyes, I have faith.
One more day to watch you smile.
Through your eyes, I feel at ease
One more day before I close my eyes.
Through your eyes I take the journey
Today I close my eyes
Mommy Through your eyes…I live.
Jay Aguiniga
67
Timeless Moments
Mahogany stained wood, silky canvas, satin sheets.
Tangible outlined bodies, glistening moisture
and a cool summer breeze.
Laying intertwined, in a emphatic dream.
Taking your hand upon my chest
Feeling the heave,
every single beat of life,
is for you my love.
Your skin, the sensation of
every moment of mine.
I need more, more time,
To enjoy your beautiful taste.
Must be the kiss, nothing less
That keeps me in bliss.
The night is forever you
a glowing amber, eternity illuminated,
always burns deep with in me.
only when time, beats no more,
will there be, no love in me.
Jay Aguiniga
68
Treasure Ship
When I get an urge to take an
Exotic trip,
I open my screen door,
Jump on my country boy ship.
I sail these wilderness mountain trails,
In my four by four.
In this Ocean,
we call the Great Basin.
We have waves of Deer, Elk ….
and roaming Bison.
I navigate this beautiful land
Down the byway.
Across the whiterocks river
down the divided highway.
My thoughts crisp,
Chewing on wisp,
With my pole,
I head for that natural spring
My soul whole,
That is where my church bell rings.
My light house, dominated by,
the stars in the midnight sky.....
I watch the alpha growing.
In my face,
the warm trade wind blows,
The fragrance of our native pines,
where the porcupine resides,
tingles your God given veins.
You may sail the seven seas,
But on the this plateau,
we have seven sisters,
In midsummer, she will,
Blister your newborn soul.
The perfect storm, for us…
Transforms the seeds
Too wheat, pappy says..
Kiss the evening rain,
God Bless for this success.
The red man still smokes,
for his peace,
Does his ritual dance,
In feathers of Golden Fleece.
This place the Basin
is my exotic Trip,
For this country boy,
I sail,
This is my treasure ship………..
Jay Aguiniga
69
Unification
In the air everyone feels the depression.
Stocks disintegrating and unease of recession
Our Nation mildews while in submission.
Every family untouched from economic tension.
Laborers stress at losing their pension.
People speak out, want communication.
The right wants to point the finger at fornication
The left wants to point at conservation.
Strength comes when minds organization.
Our only Weakness is separation of integration.
One mind can’t change a nation,
But many can change difference of opinion.
Stand up; put your heart in circulation.
Give what you don’t need, show compassion
Together let’s get through this period of trepidation.
Put no one in need, in isolation.
The happiness resides in your obsession
Happiness forms not from material fashion
So stand forward; form your own inner satisfaction…
Yield to the seed that bares the fruit of temptation.
Take the soul from melancholy suspension,
Connection is the key to our unification.
Jay Aguiniga
70
What would I do for you?
I would walk a thousand miles...
for one of your beautiful smiles.
Climb the highest mountain I could find...
just to say I love you... time after time.
run I would... across a bed of hot coals...
to reach you and all our goals.
I would stand in a eternal flame...
if our love would forever be the same.
Carry you through Glaciers of snow...
to show how strong my love... you know.
Write a poem that is very strong... so you could see
turn it into a love song for you and me.
Emotions I would cry to form a sea...
So we may sail, just you and me.
I will stand by you until you say otherwise..
not look at another woman with these eyes.
Darling I would do anything for our love to grow
Because... well... I just love you so much I hope you know.
I will never stop loving, you will see
on forever and ever... you and me.
Jay Aguiniga
71
When I look....I see
When I look at a bird in a tree......I see life first hand.
When I look at a tree in meadow..............I see the portrait of pure beauty.
When I look at a meadow on the mountain...........I see the pillar’s of strength.
When I look from a top this mountain on Earth.........I see the meaning of awe.
When I look at Earth spiraling in the Universe......I see a higher order.
When I look at this vast Universe........ I see your image in this ocean of space.
Why? Because darling you are everything to me
So when I look….I see you.
Jay Aguiniga
72
Where is my Heaven? ? ?
Wondering as I gaze at the heavens that surround me.
I can see the Milky Way and my mind begins to ponder.
In the Milky Way there is a yellow star.
And around this yellow star is planet Earth.
And circling this planet Earth is the Moon.
The Moon then pulls at the Sea.
The sea then guides the tide.
And then the tide runs toward the shore.
The shore then leads to ground.
And the ground bounds the mountain
and the mountain cradles the meadow.
On this meadow is a single rooted tree,
Leaning against the tree is a person named me.
And inside a person named me is my heart.
In my heart is thing called love.
And my love is a much higher power.
And inside my higher power is my heaven
So answering my own question....
Heaven must be all around me.............
Jay Aguiniga
73
Where the leaves fall
The leaves fall effortlessly
Memories stir inside of me.
Life has sped by so fast...
I can't go back, I thought
I had all the time in the world,
To make dreams come true.
Now my mind ponders,
What is the meaning of life?
Is it experiencing the world
Around you...
Or as simple as staying in touch,
With yourself and the world
That revolves around you?
Who really knows the real answer.
Each world is different,
Each importance, has a little
More meaning in others worlds.
I guess....
It's how we live in our worlds,
That gives life it's meaning...
This is where I belong,
Where the leaves fall effortlessly
In this world of memories...
A melody,
a life long song,
A place,
I so want to be....
Jay Aguiniga
74
Whispers in the Wind
I sense you watching me
The night chill over comes me
Out of the corner of my eye,
shadows of you moving in the darkness
You have me running away, but I keep coming back
So much distress, I merely regress.
Your Whispers in the wind
They are calling me in,
It will be my undoing,
The beginning,
The beginning of the end.
Whispers in the wind
I try to pretend...
This pain wont overextend.
I'm trying not to think about you and me
All the pain that you gave me.
Its the essence of your heart
That makes my own bleed,
Oh how I plead, not this deed.
Why cant you just leave me be?
Your Whispers in the wind
They are calling me in,
It will be my undoing,
The beginning,
The beginning of the end.
Whispers in the wind
I try to pretend...
This pain wont overextend.
I gave everything to you and me
Believe me I loved you, don't follow me.
I have nothing left in my eyes.
The feelings I'm trying to suppress
Nothing to caress, my nucleus a mess
Why cant you just leave me be?
Your Whispers in the wind
They are calling me in,
It will be my undoing,
The beginning,
The beginning of the end.
Whispers in the wind
I try to pretend...
This pain wont overextend.
Jay Aguiniga
75
Whispers of Love
I hear the whispers of love
as the clouds gently move above.
Wondering were they will go
and what they will become
I start to whistle,
and I can hear the humm.....
A melody of love that is true an deep
I will always have the memories of her to keep.
Distant thoughts drift in my mind,
as does the wind blow, time after time.
The beauty of this image is more that I can take
If this is a dream..I do not want to wake.
Oh I love her so.. wondering if I am on her mind,
as does the river flow, time after time.
I must remember,
no matter were one looks in the sky
We see the same cloud,
just with a different eye.
So she must be thinking of me,
and hearing the same melody
The humming of the wind, the whispers of love
So close your eyes and listen..
you my love, are the only
one I'm thinking of.
Jay Aguiniga
76
Wings in the Valley
Even though,
I soar through the valley of the shadow of death
At 39,000 feet, I shall fear no evil,
For I am evil, marauder of stealth.
Darkness blinds the mark,
But like the owl, I see into the night.
my console, illuminates,
Eternity stands still, hesitation sits in,
my finger on death.
I have been groomed….
For this doom.
Don’t compromise the mission,
A sortie of mass destruction.
Transfixed on the horizon,
Before me,
A color photo bears my seed.
Focus on the Hud.
Sweat beads, wiping my conscience,
Gently Squeezing the trigger.
Protect the souls,
I thoust take.
The bird of prey wobbles,
A contrail of fire slowly descends,
Fading Into the abyss below.
Pull up, pull up,
The heavens in full view.
Closing my eyes, asking, truth,
What am I?
Guardian or destroyer of humanity?
Have mercy on me.
Don’t judge thee,
Until one has baked,
And blistered under the hot sun.
Felt and endured the touch
Of hell, with bare skin…….
Jay Aguiniga
77
Wishing Star
Situation
All my life,
I want to believe,
Waiting for love.
For the moment,
To see you fall,
From the heavens above
Task
My dreams empty,
Without someone,
like you…
Keeping my
Heart focused,
So hard to do…
Action
Endless wishes,
Survival is dreary
Without your light.
My defense,
is the hope,
that you’ll appear tonight.
Result
Never before in these eyes,
Has love,
Been more true…
Carve the darkness,
Come to me,
I believe in you...
Jay Aguiniga
78
You My Heart
My heart lives.....
War rages between the equinoxes
The fall wind chastises burnt strewn leaves
You and I sit, in touch,
With lost promises
You started to pulse again
you said you would never trust again
you poured my emotions
your warmth caressed my insecurity
you gave me strength to breathe
But now you bleed
and now I feel you sear with pain
Instead of feeling whole
I sense the hole.
You my heart,
fill me with endless tears
You remind me of your pain,
The evil of love
Again and again
Let’s runaway
Take a journey over the horizon
Across the stars in the sky,
To the man in the moon,
Where dreams are possible
You my heart, for you
I will build that wall
Anything to protect you
Turn you to stone.
Promise me to restrain
And never ever love again.
Jay Aguiniga