Poetry Series
Ian Humphreys
- poems -
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Ian Humphreys (October 1982)
I am not of education, nor of real talent, but i enjoy poetry.
I write about my feelings, and how weather or mood changes me.
If you have any comments, i'd love to hear them, no matter how critical.
Thanks.
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A Dying Flower
Each Flower Petal Slowly Dying
Light Whispers Of Death
Hanging In The Brisk Afternoon Air
Lightly A Petal Floats Towards The Ground
A Gust Of Wind Quickly Whisks It Away
One By One The Flower Becomes Bearer
As Each Petal Vanishes.
The Day's Become Darker
The Nights Lighten
And The Flower Becomes Lonely
Till Eventually Only A Stem Remains
To Show It's Cycle Of Life.
The Flower Willows Towards It's End
The Petals Become Scarce
What Once Used To Be A Colour Delight
Now Hangs In Deaths Mist
As An Emerald Waiting...
Waiting For The Last Petal To Die.
Finally The Emerald Stem Dies Away
And Slowly Decay
For Again One Day
It Shall Show Its Colours
And Whistle In The Wind
With All It's Petals In Full Bloom...
Ian Humphreys
4
A Love Duet
Never Did Anyone Hear Such A Love
As When They Heard The Love Duet
Each Word Bringing Couples Together
Closer Forever And Ever.
Never Did Any See Such Love
As When They Read The Love Duet
Every Sentence Rings A Tear From The Eye
Every Couple Become Closer
Forever And Ever.
Never Did Anyone See Such Love
As When They Held Hands
Singing Each And Every Verse
Of The Love Duet
Bringing Them Closer
Forever And Ever.
This Duet Created Within The Mind
Between Couples Who Created It With Love
In It's Purest Form Of A Duet
So Shared Thoughts Are Sang And Shared
For Only Their Ears And Eyes To Witness.
Ian Humphreys
5
Always Mine
The sky so blue
As clear as my love for you.
I lay here admiring
And i know my loves undying.
The air so fine
I'd only wish you'd always be mine.
Ian Humphreys
6
Darkened Clouds
Darkened clouds Supinate my world
Anguish and pressure sends me deeper into depression
I feel myself burn up with choas
My every thought dissolves my entirenty of human emotion
A mind so loving, now bent with emptiness
There is no light at the end of my tunnel
Only darkness and tormented screams
I am who i am far from anything i am meant to be.
Ian Humphreys
7
Death in Mind
The comtemplation of living on the other side of life.
Walking with the shadows that hang over my existance.
Giving up on my avoidence of the retribution.
That i know will catch up with me sooner rather than later...
Ian Humphreys
8
Fearing The Rain
Its cold and wet
The rain almost like acid
Polluting my emotions
Dissolving me in the background.
No one see's me
Banished to hearin each individual drop.
Ian Humphreys
9
Get Well
There are only two things to worry about....
Either you are well or you are sick.
If you are well... then there is nothing to worry about...
But if you're sick, then there are two things to worry about...
Either you will get well or you will kick the bucket...
If you get well, there is nothing to worry about...
If you kick the bucket there are only two things to worry about...
Either you will go to heaven or hell...
If you go to heaven there's nothing to worry about
But if you go to hell you'll be so damned busy
Shaking hands with your friends
You won't have time to worry!
So don't worry - Get well!
Ian Humphreys
10
Imprisoned
A minute, a lifetime
it makes no difference
engulfed in the moment
i show no remorse
for a flicker of light
shall show me my path
friends nor family
can see my shackles
the walls around me
built by depression
here i shall lay
eternity obey.
Ian Humphreys
11
It's all taken hold of me
My eyes are heavy
full of sleep
my tears twinkle
when i weep
my face is pale
my lips are blue
i am who i am
i just wish i were you
my obsession with depression
has taken its hold
my addiction to self infliction
has taken its toll
i watch my blood trickle down the drain
i feel relieved from my pain
i hate my life
carved into my arm with a knife
once again my worries wouldnt fade away
and i dream one day will be a better day
so here i am
half one in the morning
25 years and far too many tears
and already depression has taken its hold
25 years
not many stories to be told
i think its fair to say
its time for my hand to fold.
Ian Humphreys
12
Lover's Sunrise
Like a spark over the horizon
a glistening gold sphere materialises
a specticle respected only by lovers
a warm feeling rides my body
like a surfboard on a wave
i shiver in an exsquite fashion
like your first love, tingling
i feel whole once again
that memory lasts a lifetime
the feeling, only momentaraly
each second feels like a lifetime
each couple now one with eachother.
Ian Humphreys
13
Mental Rollercoaster
My head screams
it can't cope
confused, it panics
a flood of emotions
i'm paralysed
nobody can help
nobody can understand
my minds like an unfinished rollercoaster
spirling out of control
the track unfinished
my mind crashes off track
my mind fails
i am no more.
Ian Humphreys
14
Music Takes Over
music beats dancing in my head
electric pulses move each limb to the beat
intoxicating sounds run through my body
every movement influenced by musical vibes
it takes control of mind body and soul
an energy rush far greater than any drug
each note overwhelming me more
sending me into a state of euphoria and ecstacy
the body comes alive to the beats
i need not think of movement
but let the music overpower me
i feel the mind relaxing
and the body becomes hyperative
it takes over like a parasite
the body cannot tire
it fuels my body to keep it going
as the tune changes so does my movement
rapid jaggered movements to slow flowing movements
i now no longer hold any feelings
all thoughts driven by the beats
now the night ends
i gain control
i lose the music
Ian Humphreys
15
My Every Dream
You are my every dream
You are my every thought
Without you my heart would be empty
There is no compromise in my feelings
I love you like i've never loved any before
Ian Humphreys
16
My Pain...
it doesnt matter what i say to you
or anything i do
you will not listen
you dont even notice my eyes as they glisten
my face is covered in tears
every dropp fuelled with fears
you cannot see my pain
your self obsessed and vain
just leave me alone
i dont care how much you moan
im ready to leave this earth
its the only thing left of worth
you heard me right
im ready for this to be my last night
so pass me the blade
and watch my bloodied body as its laid
im soaked in crimson
and you'll never understand the reason
my soul drained of life
my wrists cut with that knife
from this world i am free
im just happy
i am no longer me
Ian Humphreys
17
Obsession
There it lies, staring at me
It holds my eyes still
Draining my hopes and feelings
There in its crystal oboed
It sends vibes to my head
It calls me, it leads me
For shares my soul and mind
I reach for its shapless body
I pour it into my mouth
It enters me like a parasite
Taking over, relieving me of control
It shares my blood stream, contaminating my mind
In anger i dropp the empty bottle
I thrive looking painfully for more
But it hides from me
Teasing my motabilism
It play games with my sight
As i become more paraletic
I stumble to the hard concrete floor
Not knowing where i am or what i'm doing
I swap my sanity for this alchol
Trapping my feelings inside the empty bottle
Obsession is what i am
Obsessed with that bottle
That holds my soul
The bottle that triggers my obsession
Ian Humphreys
18
Puzzled Mind
My mind, like a puzzle
Pieces missing, nowhere to be found
I have to keep trying
Find the right pieces
The pieces that fit
Only time, patience, endurance
An unsolvable puzzle
I must improvise to survive
Its the only way
Ian Humphreys
19
Release Yourself
I tried to tell
don't involve yourself in my hell
you wonder why i'm a closed book
it's cos i fear your not ready to look
listen to my warning
it's as clear as a summer morning
as days grow brighter
your thoughts of me will grow lighter
leave me behind
i have to be this way
call it, cruel to be kind.
Ian Humphreys
20
Revived
In my darkened world you show me light,
When i'm cold with depression you warm me with affection,
When my souls drained you fill me with energy,
You are my all!
Ian Humphreys
21
She Told Me Nothing But Lies!
I thought it were a lie
but then i seen you try
i wish you'd go to hell
go, go burn and die
I just couldn't believe it were true
my own eyes i seen you
my hands round your throat
till your skin turned blue
It just goes to show
you never really know
all that trust i gave
i never thought you'd sink so low
I can't take this no more
crimson dripping on the floor
suicide the verdict
this pain i feel no more.
Ian Humphreys
22
Unable and Winded
Like a tree in the wind
i'm wilting and unstable
unsure of my direction
incapacitated i stand
when will this pain stop
Ian Humphreys
23
Understand Me
Through life i walk alone
no one understands
just what i have been shown
My life has been a living hell
so much hurt
it's so hard for me to tell
Love i no longer know
feelings i no longer wish to show
you don't realise
i need to be left to my own demise
It's not death i fear
it's letting someone get too near
so please understand
i no longer want this demand
Alone in life i want to be
i just wish you all could see.
Ian Humphreys
24
Warped and Reborn
Once again i seal my heart in a steel box
no longer can i expose myself!
Buried in the depth of my hate filled soul
consumed by the evil surrounding me!
I will no longer be hurt
but instead fuel from it!
Today i am reborn!
Ian Humphreys
25
Waterfall
It takes me into a liquid state of being
Full of Euphoric feelings and memories
As each water droplet lands upon my figure
I am demobilized into deep thought
I join the fall as one
As though i have joined a shapeless exsistance
All humane thoughts and feelings run from me
Each droplet they agglutinate
I am but an inchoate form
Full of feelings and senses
When i feel the waterfall
It touches my soul
We see the waterfall as only meretricious
But i have seen it for what it really is
Another realm to perfection
Calming and soul touching
The nearest a living soul will get to heaven
In this liquid rhinestone lies my feelings
And my thoughts, of which only i know it contains
I become the waterfall and the waterfall becomes me.
Ian Humphreys
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