Poetry Series
Tanya Stanford
- poems -
Tanya Stanford (1980)
:) I was born in Johannesburgh (Gauteng) . I now reside in Kwazulu Natal. I
have twin sons who are my life, born in 2004.
I finished school and went on to do a Diploma course in Business
Administration and Computers as well as Credit Management 1 & 2. I work in
a financial instituation but my passion is more things on the creative side. I
love drawing, writing and camping. The small things in life is what I
appreciate the most.
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A dear friend (Odette)
We started off as enemies but good friends we became
I must admit since that day things have never been the same
For how could I ever imagine what a great friend you would turn out to be
And now you mean the world to me
I hope and pray that my brother can see
What a wonderful wife you will turn out to be
We all see you as part of our family already
Even though you two are still just going steady
For the hardest times in my life you remained true
And for that all I can do is say Thank you!
Tanya Stanford
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A friend indeed
From worlds apart
As strangers we met
Best friends now are we.
Through times of heartache, sorrow and pain
My friend you still remain to be.
Through joy, laughter and happily ever after
You are special to me.
For there could never be another friend
Like you have been to me.
Tanya Stanford
5
A woman’s heart
Her heart in size may be small
But she has the strength to stand tall
When life rearranges it all
When things keep breaking
Forsaking
And from her they keep taking
She may feel at times she is falling apart
But she will keep playing her part
And always remain strong at heart
Tanya Stanford
6
Africa (lol – Laugh out loud)
We live in the bush and know nothing of bankcards
Wild animals running free in our backyards
Our People wear nothing but animal skins
Or at least that’s what my friends from abroad seem to think
Come on guys – is that what you really believe?
Living in Africa is normal
And we know how to be formal
Yes we have people of all different races
But like yours, so are our faces
Yes we eat biltong (dried out raw meat) , curry and all
And pap and wors is served at restaurants at our malls
Yes we can see wild life but only in nature reserves and the zoo
And believe it or not we work in big buildings just like you
Tanya Stanford
7
Awaiting your call
It’s just gone half past eight
I’m extremely irritated ‘cause it’s getting late!
I’ve anxiously been awaiting your call
But it seems you’ve changed your mind after all.
Finally the clock strikes nine
& I find myself going out of my mind!
I start to imagine where you could be
& Why you would do this to me.
Maybe you’re with another girl
The thought makes me want to hurl!
You jerk ….
You said you’d never flirt.
Suddenly the phone rings
My heart skips a beat and begins to sing.
I knew you would call,
You said you would after all.
I rushed to answer saying I missed you
But to my surprise it wasn’t you.
As the caller began to speak
I felt the tears burn slowly down my check.
There must be some kind of mistake.
Why didn’t the other car just brake?
Please don’t say those words I dread.
No … it’s not true …. He can’t be dead!
Tanya Stanford
8
Confusion
I don't know what to do
Cause everything I do has me thinking of you
And I don't know what to say
At times it seems my words just get in the way.
The way you hurt me I can't even begin to explain
And at times I struggle to break away from the Pain.
I'm going to give you a chance and prey the past and the future aren't one in the
same.
So this is my promise to you
If all that you say and do remains true
Than my heart will belong to no other but you.
Tanya Stanford
9
Dry these tears
Please make the hurting go away
Please Lord don’t let these memories stay
I pray my tears you dry
For him I no longer want to cry
Just let me forget him and move on
Don’t let my heart to him any longer belong
Give me the strength these feelings to fight
With any other man things have never felt so right
Just make me forget him please Lord I pray
Please just let the feelings for him go away
Tanya Stanford
10
Goodbye
It feels as though every things moving in slow motion
The noise surrounding us has become a faint commotion
As I gaze into your eyes my heart fills with painful emotions
I never imagined this would be so hard
And I can’t bear the thought of us being apart
The idea is breaking my heart
The time for you to go is near
And I can no longer fight back the tears
My heart begins to fear
As you turn to walk away
I find myself crying out for you to stay
But in our hearts we both know it has to be this way
I watch as you slowly board the plane
But I find my bodies’ gone num with pain
I wonder if you’re feeling the same
I guess its time to leave this place
I walk away at a quick pace
Praying no one sees the tears running down my face
Suddenly someone swings me around
The impact almost sending me the ground
I gain my balance only to see
You’re standing there smiling down at me.
Tanya Stanford
11
Hope
Today I learn to crawl
Tomorrow I’ll walk and then run
For a knew day has begun
Today no more shaded skies
Once grey now are blue
Mountain tops finally in my view
Today I choose to start again
To forget those days gone bad
For no longer do I wish to feel sad
Tanya Stanford
12
I know… But
I know it’s wrong to love him the way I do
But I know his love could be true
I know it’s wrong to feel this way
But my heart longs for his love to stay
I know I shouldn’t want his kiss
But I know it’s something I will miss
I know it’s wrong to want his touch
But it’s something I already want too much.
I know I shouldn’t dream of him this way
But hey... what can I say
Tanya Stanford
13
I love you for you
I love the way you hold me when you do
And the way you kiss me goodnight too.
I love when you say: “I love you”
And the small things that you do.
I love the way you cheer me up when I’m blue
And I just love being around you.
I hate for us to be apart
And at times, it even breaks my heart!
…. So if you and I are smart
We’ll spend more time together than apart.
At times jealousy may come my way or yours
But jealousy’s just another human flaw
So let’s try to ignore ….
The way jealousy tries to make us fall!
You’re the only man I’ll ever want or need
So if you feel the need
To embark up another tree
Just remember the love I have for you,
Is a love that’s truly true
And it will last an eternity too!
Tanya Stanford
14
I once called you friend
I once called you friend
And thought it would be until the end
I once dried your tears
And helped you to face your fears
I once sang songs with you
Taking photos of the wacky things we used to do
I once let you drive my bike and my car
And often we played pool at the bar
I once had trust in you
And there was nothing for you I wouldn’t do
I once told lies to cover for your secretive ways
And I helped you fight those painful days
… But sadly
You treated me badly: (
… And through all that
You stabbed me in the back!
Tanya Stanford
15
Just Remember
When you’re feeling sad
And life keeps treating you bad
When your eyes are full of tears
And your heart full of fears
When your days seem to long
And all you seem to hear are sad songs
God will never give you more then you can bear
For He will never stop to care!
Tanya Stanford
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Memories won’t fade
I hate you with such a passion
Trust me you can't imagine
For what you did
In my mind I can't rid
It will haunt me all of my life
As if you stabbed me with a knife
But it's you who will have to answer one day
So for your soul I dare not pray!
Tanya Stanford
17
My Mom
You teach me right from wrong
And give me a place I know I’ll always belong
You always remain strong at heart
Even when things might be tearing you apart.
Unselfishly you sacrifice for me
So that I might have a chance to be all I can be
God must really love me to have blessed me in such way
For there could never be a better mom so for that I thank him every day.
Tanya Stanford
18
Our situation
This is my introduction
To our love found sensation
Which indeed leads to many complications.
When you’re not around, I wait in anticipation
For our love amalgamation
It’s as though all of civilization
Is against our love situation
Yis … the frustration!
I hate the restrictions
Being away from you is love starvation
& I’m sure they have their speculations
But I still long for our unification.
We both share equal contribution.
Besides, it’s not like we’re each other’s consolation
But we are their creation.
So I guess I can understand their commotion
And confusion
As to why we’d once again embark on this expedition.
So I have a proposition:
After much consideration
& Sorting out varies conditions
Along with each of our co-operation
And no lack in communication,
This relation
Can become one of a fine composition
& In addition ….
We need to join in the reconstruction
Of a relation
That once led to devastation
So that we can build a firm foundation
Of a knew combination
Of admiration
And appreciation.
This way we both can enjoy the satisfaction
Of the recreation
Of this formation
Which might be our destination.
Tanya Stanford
19
Shut up!
You keep telling me what do
But I have a different point of view
Your so-called simple solutions
Are just pure pollutions
In my thoughts I hear your voice
But in the end it’s still my choice
Some may surrender to you
But deep down in me a voice remains true
So although he tries in a louder way
Lord it’s your fainter words that in my heart stay
Tanya Stanford
20
The crying game
I’m sick to death of playing this game
When it’s always me left crying again
I’m sick of all the hurt and pain
How will my life ever be the same
You keep messing with my mind
Telling me a better girl in me you’ll never find
You keep telling me I make you happier then you have ever been
And that she is so mean
You have chosen to be with her
But you keep telling me that it’s me you prefer.
She slept around and cheated on you
But yet you have chosen to take her back and be her fool
She is still messing with your mind
Sending him love messages all the time.
Innocent in this we still remain
But I know she can’t say the same.
Tanya Stanford
21
Twin Boys
Thank you intrusting me with twin boys
Thank you for letting me have that joy.
Thank you for keeping them healthy and strong
Thank you for giving me the strength to go on.
Thank you for every day you give us together
Thank you for me there is nothing better.
Thank you for the “happy hugs” as they would say
Thank you for all the joy they bring me each day!
Thank you God.
Tanya Stanford
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What do I do?
I'm lost and confused
And i really don't know what to do.
Everything i do has me thinking of you.
How do i know what next to do?
When my heart is saying i love you
But my head is saying I’m such a fool.
I want to forget you and move on
But my heart can't bear the thought of you gone.
Has she already won?
Tanya Stanford
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Where do I go from here?
Where do I get the strength to start a knew
When my heart keeps getting broken in two.
Why am I always the one who turns out to be the fool
And will it be different this time with you
What is it I’m supposed to do
I just wish I knew
Tanya Stanford
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